“IDA,” it shouts. “STOP,” it shouts. “We have something of yours.”
I turn around. Not cops.
Even undercover cops don’t have suits with thread count that high.
It’s silverslick the agent and two goons — but that’s not all. It’s Marlene with a Taser jammed up against her neck. Her wrists and mouth duct taped. Marlene in a vintage 50s hoop skirt and the hair of Zsa Zsa Gabor.
I lean further out of the window and watch the knotty pavement zip by beneath us. I don’t even know where the fuck we are. Bum fuck Washington. My throat ouches and my head pounds. I consider jumping out of the window of a moving Jag.
Marlene.
Did I leave her there?
Is this coming of age?
The authority voice going “Give us the video and we’ll let this faggot go.”
In my gut, fire. Napalm.
Marlene’s eyes going run. Marlene’s eyes going get the hell out of here. Marlene in my head as a young boy running, running all the way to America.
The authority voice going “Give us your media.”
Me and the posse up against the silverfucks. I turn to Obsidian Ave Maria Little Teena Smiley I go run. They don’t move. I yell FUCKING RUN. They do. Out of the building.
In the Jag Ava Maria says to me quietly, “Sugar, um, your butt is buzzing.”
I don’t move. Snot runs down my lips. My eyes puff up. “I know. It’s my fucking mother,” I croak.
“Oh,” Ave Maria says, “Then want me to chuck it out the window?” She’s still got her goddamn eyepatch on.
“Let’s everyone just calm the fuck down,” Little Teena says from the driver’s seat. His wig has shot off his skull but is held to his face by the glued on mutton chops. Surreal.
Marlene. My head movie plays it over and over. Marlene with Tasers jammed up against her throat and ribs and gut.
The authority voice yelling “Give us the media or this perv gets a high voltage shave.” Then he rips off the duct tape. That awful scraped-off skin sound.
Oh fuck. Fuck. My head movie is some god awful B-movie thriller. I slide my Dora purse off of my shoulder and put it on the floor between me and them. I make like I’m gonna kick it down the hall to them. You could say everything I am is in that little pink vag bag.
The name “Taser?” It’s an acronym for Thomas A. Swift’s Electric Rifle. A young adult novel written by Victor Appleton. Marlene told me that.
In my head movie next Marlene’s voice-over takes over. Not talking. Laughing. Deep and rumbly it starts off, confusing the goons. Then she brings the laugh to a hearty howl, then a roar, then a thunder, her mouth so wide open she could swallow a head. Her laugh vibrates the walls and floors. The goons punch her torso. Her breasts go ajar. Her laugh shakes the ceiling the linoleum floor the faces of the goons. She laughs Rwanda.
Of course I want her to shut the fuck up and save herself but I also want her laugh to blow up the building.
I close my eyes and bawl like a girl. Obsidian is trying to pull my head back into the Jag. My butt is buzzing and buzzing. Little Teena turns the radio on. Even at 2:00 a.m. they do the news on NPR.
“Oh jeez,” Ave Maria says.
I pull my head back in.
On the radio — it’s Michel Norris. They’ve got the Sig. A prominent Seattle psychiatrist arrested at a possible arson scene. A teen is missing from the residence.
Could this night get any more fucking fucked? My ass again.
Obsidian digs the buzzing iPhone out from my back pocket.
“You’re right. It’s your mom. She wants to talk to you. Bad,” she says.
“No shit,” I go. “Well I’m not calling her.” I blow my nose in the sleeve of my hoodie, then roll the sleeve up over the slime. My voice quivers like a pussy’s. “I’m not calling my goddamn mother.”
“Maybe she knows whether or not we’re an all points bulletin,” Little Teena says.
“Cool!” Ave Maria sings before she can stop herself.
“It’s not funny,” Little Teena says, shooting a goddamn it look at Ave Maria. Then he says, “Are those fuckers tailing us? Who were they?”
Ave Maria climbs from the front seat to the back and then nearly into the space between the back window and the seat — where dogs go. “I don’t see anyone,” she says.
“I stabbed all their tires when we ran out,” Obsidian mumbles.
No one says anything but we are glad. I stare at the shard of Obsidian hanging from her neck.
Ave Maria climbs back over to the front seat, then turns around and hooks her elbows over the seat, looking back at me and Obsidian. “Do you think Marlene is … like, all burned or something?” Her voice is whispery and grave. Little Teena coughs. I stare at Ave Maria hard enough to take her head off. She wilts. “I just meant…“
“Just shut it,” Little Teena growls at her.
I don’t mean to, but I grab Ave Maria’s pencil-thin wrists. Then I squeeze. I squeeze harder. Her eyes widen but she doesn’t make a sound. Harder. She grits her teeth. I squeeze so hard I’m pretty sure I could snap her hands off of her arms. Still she makes no sound. She just locks eyes with me. Finally Obsidian says, “Enough,” quietly against my neck. She puts her hands on my hands. I let go.
Ave Maria turns around in the passenger seat and drops her head.
When they jam Thomas Swift’s Electric Rifle into Marlene’s throat and ribs and gut the megawatt electricity shoots her head up and back and her arms fly out to her sides ripping the duct tape and her torso stiffens and arches with voltage. But she’s still laughing. Her chest heaves and her laugh becomes monstrous and I think I see electricity shooting from her hair, her eyes, her ajar tits, her mouth, her nostrils, her fingers, electricity shooting out in a radius around her, the laughing ringing my bones and heart but then from behind me I hear “GULLLL!!!” and it’s Smiley shooting past me and grabbing my Dora bag off the floor and pitching it to me as he wheels by and picks up speed heading straight for them until he crashes into the horrible electric trinity that is Marlene and the silverfucks and the snap and smell of current shakes my skin and Little Teena is pulling me into a dead run. That’s the last image. That’s the end of the film in my head.
Marlene.
Lit up.
In the Jag I stare at the back of Little Teena’s head. Obsidian takes her shirt off and wipes my face. Then sits there shirtless like it’s normal. No one says anything. I feel like a human three-day old shitty tampon of a person. We need somewhere to go. I close my eyes.
“OK,” I go. “I’ll call my mom.”
33
ON THE OTHER END OF MY IPHONE MY MOM SOUNDS like a tin mother.
I know things about technology. Like a cellphone is an electronic device used for full duplex two-way radio telecommunications over a cellular network of base stations known as base sites. In addition to being a telephone, modern mobile cells also support SMS, text messages, email, Internet access, gaming, Bluetooth, infrared, camera, MMS, MP3 player, radio, and GPS.
Parents don’t know shit about cellphones.
“We need somewhere to go,” I say quietly to the tin mother.
“Ida,” she says.
I hold the iPhone out the car window and let the rushing cold air nearly take it from my palm. I close my eyes. Briefly I want to open the car door and jump out. The end.
I don’t know how to talk to this person. I rack my brain for something to say that doesn’t feel like a chunka puke. When
I return the iPhone to my ear I say, “Do you remember the first time you played me fronz shoe burt?”
After a long silence she says, “Yes, Ida. You were five, I think. You sat on my lap.”
Right answer. Does that mean something? Anything? Are you my mother?