I told her about Paul and his mother. “The kid’s making real progress,” I said. “I couldn’t let her take him.”
Susan shook her head slowly. Her mouth was clamped into thin disapproval.
“What a mess,” she said.
“Agreed.”
“Are you ready to be a father?”
“No.”
“And where does this leave us?” she said.
“Same place we’ve always been.”
“Oh? Last time we went out to dinner it was a fun threesome.”
“It wouldn’t be that way all the time.”
“Really? Who would guard him when we were being a twosome? Do you plan to employ Hawk as a baby-sitter?”
I ate a doughnut. I drank some coffee. “I don’t know,” I said.
“Wonderful,” Susan said. “That’s really wonderful. So what do I do while you’re playing Captains Courageous? Should I maybe join a bridge club? Take dancing lessons? Thumb through The Total Woman?”
“I don’t know. I don’t know what you should do, or I should do. I know only what I won’t do. I won’t turn the kid back to them and let them play marital Ping-Pong with him some more. That’s what I know. The rest has to be figured out. That’s what I wanted to talk with you about.”
“Oh, lucky me,” Susan said.
“I did not want to talk about how you’re in a funk because I’m paying more attention to him than to you,” I said.
“Perhaps what you want to talk about isn’t terribly important,” she said.
“Yes, it is. What we have to say to each other is always important, because we love each other and we belong to each other. And will forever.”
“Including what you refer to as my funk?”
“Yes.”
She was silent.
“Don’t be ordinary, Suze,” I said. “We’re not ordinary. No one else is like us.”
She sat with her hands folded on the edge of the tabletop, looking at them. A small wisp of steam drifted up past her face from her coffee cup, a fleck of cinnamon sugar marred her lower lip near the corner of her mouth.
The kitchen clock ticked. I could hear a dog bark somewhere outside.
Susan put one hand out toward me and turned it slowly palm up. I took it and held it.
“There’s no such thing as a bad boy,” she said. “Though you do test the hypothesis.”
I held her hand still and said, “First the kid wants to be a ballet dancer.”
“And?”
“And I have no idea how he should go about that”
“And you think I do?”
“No, but I think you can find out.”
“Aren’t you supposed to be the detective?”
“Yeah, but I’ve got other things to find out. Can you get a handle on ballet instruction for me?”
She said, “If you’ll let go of my hand I’ll make some more coffee.”
I did. She did. I said, “Can you?”
She said, “Yes.”
I raised my coffee cup at her and said, “Good hunting.” I sipped some coffee.
She said, “Assuming you can keep him despite the best efforts of both parents and the law, which rarely awards children to strangers over the wishes of the parents. But assuming that you can keep him, are you prepared to support him through college? Are you prepared to share your apartment with him? Go to P.T.A. meetings? Maybe be a Boy Scout leader?”
“No.”
“No to which?”
“No to all of the above,” I said.
“So?”
“So, we need a plan.”
“I would say so,” Susan said.
“First, I’m not sure how much the parents will want to get tangled up in legal action at the moment. Neither one wants the kid. They only wanted him to annoy each other. If they had to get into a court action to get him away from me, I’d try to prove them unfit and I might dig up things that would embarrass them. I don’t know. They may each, or both, get so mad that I wouldn’t give the kid up that they’ll go to court, or the old man may call out his leg breakers again. Although I would think after the first two debacles they might be getting discouraged.”
“Even parents who dislike their children resent giving them up,” Susan said. “The children are possessions. In some cases the parents’ only possession. I don’t think they’ll give him up.”
“They don’t want him,” I said.
“That’s not the point,” Susan said. “It’s a shock to the most fundamental human condition. The sense that no one can tell me what to do with my child. I see it over and over in parents at school. Kids who are physically abused by parents who were abused when they were children. Yet the parents will fight like animals to keep the kid from being taken away. It’s got to do with identity.”
I nodded. “So you think they’ll try to get him back.”
“Absolutely.”
“That’ll complicate things.”
“And the courts will give him back. They may not be good parents, but they aren’t physically abusive. You haven’t got a case.”
“I know,” I said.
“If they go to the courts. As you say, the father seems to have access to leg breakers.”
“Yeah. I think about that. I wonder why.”
“Why what?”
“Why he has access to leg breakers. Your average suburban real estate broker doesn’t hang out with a guy like Buddy Hartman. He wouldn’t know what rock to look under.”
“So?”
“So what kind of work has Mel Giacomin been involved in that he would know Buddy Hartman?”
“Maybe he sold him real estate, or insurance.”
I shook my head. “No. Nothing Buddy’s involved in is legitimate. Buddy’d find a way to steal his insurance.”
“What are you thinking?”
“I’m thinking if I can get something on Mel, and maybe something on Patty too, I’d have some leverage to bargain with on the kid.”
Susan smiled at me for the first time in some days. “Mr. Chips,” she said. “Are you speaking of blackmail?”
“The very word,” I said.
CHAPTER 24
I picked Paul up at the Harbour Health Club.
“He benched one-oh-five today on the Universal,”
Henry said.
“Not bad,” I said.
Paul nodded. “The Universal is easier,” he said.
“One-oh-five is one-oh-five,” I said.
We walked up to the Faneuil Hall Market area and ate in Quincy Market, moving among the food stalls and collecting a large selection of food and sitting in the rotunda to eat.
“I have a plan,” I said.
Paul ate part of a taco. He nodded.
“I am going to try to find out things about your parents that will let me blackmail them.”
Paul swallowed. “Blackmail?”
“Not for money. Or at least not for money for me. I want to have some leverage so that I can get them off your back and off mine and maybe get you their support in what you want.”
“How can you do that?”
“Well, your father knows some ugly people. I thought I might look into how come.”
“Will he go to jail?”
“Would you mind if he did?”
Paul shook his head.
“Do you feel anything for him?” I said.
“I don’t like him,” Paul said.
“‘Course it’s not that simple,” I said. “You’re bound to care something about his opinions, his expectations. You couldn’t avoid it.”
“I don’t like him,” Paul said.
“It’s something we’ll need to talk about, probably with Susan. But we don’t have to do it right now.” I ate some avocado-and-cheese sandwich. Paul started on his lobster roll.
“You want to help me look into this?” I said.
“About my father?”
“Yes. And your mother. We may find out things that you won’t like to know.”
“I don’t care.”
“If you help?”
“No. I don’t care if I hear things about my mother and father.”
“Okay. We’ll do it. But remember, you probably will care. It probably will hurt. It’s okay for it to hurt. It’s very sensible that it should hurt.”
“I don’t like them,” Paul said. He finished off his lobster roll.