Nursery school was at the gray church on the corner, and it was a long walk, but by the time Charlie got there each morning, his legs weren’t jiggling and jumping anymore, the way they did at breakfast. For the first part of nursery school, where they sat in a circle on the red rug and Miss Ellery read a story, Charlie could be quiet and not move if they had walked, though not if they drove. Mommy put his hand right into Miss Ellery’s hand and said, “Goodbye, Charlie. Be a cooperative boy.” Charlie nodded and put his finger on the paper. “That’s your sign,” said Miss Ellery. Charlie Wickett. “You’re a lucky boy to have a sign, so don’t touch it, okay?”
The book today was about a fox who wore sox. On the cover, the fox was bright red. Charlie sat quietly and stared at the book, sometimes at the red fox and sometimes at the SOX and the FOX. He wondered if they could be XOS and XOF, and touched his sign. It wasn’t until Miss Ellery came to ticks and tocks that Charlie stood up and started running around the red rug — first one way, as fast as he could go, and then the other way. Miss Ellery didn’t say anything. She kept reading. Charlie was careful not to step on anyone’s fingers or to fall over anyone. The room was very bright when he was running, and the colors swam around him.
Miss Ellery put the book down and said; “Charlie, do you think you can sit down and listen?”
Charlie came to a halt and stared at Miss Ellery; then he sat down for one more page. When he stood up again, Miss Plesch came into the room and took his hand. They went outside to the playground, and Charlie ran around the swings and the jungle gym. When he was tired and sat down, Miss Plesch said, “A.”
Charlie said, “Antenna. B.”
“Banana. C.”
“Corvette. D.”
Miss Plesch grinned. She said, “Dog. E.”
Charlie was stumped, so he jumped up and ran the other way around the swing set, then said, “Ethyl. F.”
“Flower. G.”
“Gas. H.”
Now the door opened and the other kids came running into the playground. The girls went one way, and the boys — Davie, Herbie, Barry, and Petey — came toward Charlie. Charlie put his hand on Miss Plesch’s knee and said, “Herbie.”
“Very good,” said Miss Plesch. Charlie took off, and Herbie and Barry ran after him. They ran and ran. It was a sunny day. When Mommy picked him up for lunch, Miss Ellery said, “He knows every car word.”
“His first sentence was ‘Dere go a Muttang.’ He was almost two. Before that we never heard him say a word.”
“Sometimes adopted children are a little late talking. That is my experience. But they catch up.” She bent down and said, “Charlie, do you still have your sign?”
Charlie touched his sign with his finger.
They walked home the long way, down Greeley. When he got home, he sat quietly and ate his peanut-butter-and-pickle sandwich. Mommy said he was a good boy.
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FRANK WAS SUPPOSED TO be in Palm Springs, looking at the renovations Rubino had authorized at the hotel, but he had stayed late in Malibu, at Hughes, so he was driving along Wilshire, past the Ambassador Hotel, about nine. The traffic was a nightmare, and Frank could feel his temper rising, but then he remembered Jim Upjohn’s stories about going to the Cocoanut Grove there in the forties, with Howard Hughes. Hughes was on his mind even though he, Frank, would never meet him (wasn’t the guy holed up in Las Vegas somewhere now?). He turned off Wilshire onto Mariposa, drove up two blocks, and walked back. The hotel was seething with people, and almost as soon as he walked through the door, Frank felt himself get edgy. As a man with nothing to lose, Frank was almost never edgy. What offended him was not the crowd, but some acoustic quality of the hotel lobby. The chaos was not of a uniform loudness and incomprehensibility — words popped out of the noise and impressed themselves upon his consciousness: “red,” “fountain,” “hola,” “I said,” “Nixon,” “Pittsburgh.” He went into the bar, but he got the same feeling there — he could not hear the man standing next to him saying to the bartender, “Gimme a highball,” but he could hear an unknown female voice saying very clearly, “Don’t touch that.” The word that rose on the din was “Bobby, Bobby, Bobby.”
Frank didn’t care who won the nomination or the election. Kennedy was of interest to him as a young man still, a man the age of Lillian, a man who had lost many things and had plenty to lose. Bobby Kennedy had been transforming before his eyes lately — getting younger and younger, even as Frank and everyone he knew was getting older and older. Maybe that’s why Arthur’s colleagues hated him. Look at his recent pictures: he had never been as handsome, as tousled, as brilliant. Every so often, when an old picture popped up of Bobby and JFK, JFK looked exhausted in comparison.
Jim Upjohn liked Bobby Kennedy, both politically and personally. Jim had come around since JFK’s assassination, mostly because he thought Johnson was a Texas roughneck and Eugene McCarthy was wheels within wheels. Within wheels. He said that RFK might be too short to win the election, but he kept urging Frank to contribute — it would be good moral experience for Frank, such a tightwad. The thing Frank didn’t like about Kennedy was that he didn’t seem to be able to keep his feelings to himself, no matter what he actually said. When he worked for Joe McCarthy, when he went after Hoffa, when he walked beside his brother Jack, you could see him almost trembling with intention that was eating him alive. Several times over the years, Arthur and Frank had talked about Bobby the way you did about strange younger men, and not only because the Kennedys also lived in McLean and seemed to follow the Arthur Manning laissez-faire child-rearing program (once, Arthur heard through the grapevine that the daughter Kathleen had hired her own nanny when she was walking down the beach in Hyannis Port, and Ethel had interviewed her through the door while she, Ethel, was going to the bathroom). Arthur’s co-workers hated Kennedy, said that he made their skin crawl, that they recoiled from him as from anything small and poisonous.
In the crowded lobby, Frank felt edgy. His eye could not help going to the anomalous figures in the busy roomscape — a man here and a man across the room who were utterly still and utterly observant, who seemed unhappy amidst the rising zest of the crowd. They wore suits as if they were used to wearing suits; they were Frank’s age, and they knew too much to be swept up in the enthusiasm around them. Their eyes flickered sideways before they turned their heads, as if they were waiting for something. The crowd, by contrast, was moving in a kind of coordinated exuberance, heads tossed backward, mouths wide open in talk or in smiles, arms lifted, bodies lifted. Just the sort of crowd that thought it knew what was coming. Frank shivered and moved away from the bar. Probably, he thought, he would always be that kid he’d been in college, living in a tent beside the river, shooting rabbits to make a little money, that kid he’d been in the army, comfortable on a quiet morning, focusing his telescopic sight on a figure in the distance, watching it come to a halt, waiting for the quarry to stretch a little bit and yawn. That was when Frank had liked best to make a kill, at that moment of confidence and comfort. It was a mercy killing, in a way, and he’d done it carefully, so that a single shot finished the deed. The sniper units were trained never to fire a second time, never to give away their position, so Frank had made sure that no second shots were needed. He hadn’t thought about that in years.
Now Bobby appeared, surrounded by larger men — Frank recognized Rafer Johnson — and headed toward the podium. Frank’s edginess peaked in a kind of uncomfortable tingle. He finished his beer and turned away. Outside of the hotel, Wilshire was pretty empty. Even the whores were there, trying to get a glimpse of the next president. Frank found the car and drove around for an hour or two, still a man with nothing to lose, but newly aware of what he had lost — not only Lydia, but Andy, Janet, Eunice, Lawrence (who would have loved Bobby Kennedy).