“Oh,” Exley said. “Whacha say we get somethin’ to eat, then?”
“I already ate,” I told him.
“Oh,” Exley said again. He got up. I thought he was going to leave, but he wobbled over to the couch, plopped down on it, lit another cigarette, took another drink from the bottle of vodka, and then rubbed his forehead, but almost lovingly, like he’d really enjoyed smashing it against the floor. He pointed at the TV with his cigarette. “That thing work?” he asked.
Then I finally got it. Exley wanted to hang out. With me. At night. Like he was my friend. I suddenly felt bad about thinking bad things about Exley’s limited vocabulary. But I was still really happy. I smiled at him. It was a big smile, and I didn’t even try to hide it. I couldn’t wait to tell my dad about this. Exley wanted to hang out with me. My dad wouldn’t even believe it.
“It does work,” I said. But before I could even turn on the TV, Exley said, “Hey, where’s your old lady?”
“She’s giving a talk at the YWCA,” I said.
“Really?” Exley said, like it was the most interesting thing he’d ever heard. Maybe because everyone is curious about the YWCA, about what goes on there, exactly. “What’s your mom do?”
“You know what she does,” I said, until I realized he probably didn’t. Why would he have known? “She’s a lawyer.”
“A lawyer,” he said, like that was the second-most-interesting thing he’d ever heard. “And your folks are split up, right?”
“No,” I said. “Not exactly.”
“Single lady lawyer,” he said.
“No!” I said. “It’s not like that.”
But Exley didn’t seem to be listening to me. He stood up, looked down at himself, and brushed the cigarette ash off the front of both his shirts; then he bent over and did the same thing with his pants. The shirts looked fine, but the pants must have been wet, because he smeared the ash instead of brushing it off, and managed to make the pants look worse than before. Exley must have thought the same thing. He frowned at his pants, looked up, and saw me looking at him. He licked his index finger and smoothed his mustache with it, then his eyebrows, then looked at his watch. “C’mon, c’mon,” he said. “We’re missing your old lady’s. ” He raised his eyebrows.
Mother had left one of the flyers for her talk on the dining room table. I didn’t want to go to her lecture. I did not want to go, not with Exley. I had a bad feeling about it, about what Mother would do. Would she recognize Exley? And if so, what would she do if she saw me with him? But I was already getting the idea that Exley would do whatever he wanted to do, whether anyone else wanted him to or not. That was what it meant to be Exley. My only chance was that maybe the title of Mother’s talk would scare Exley off better than I could. So I went over, grabbed the flyer, and read it: “Her lecture on ‘The Problem of Domestic Abuse in the All-Volunteer Army.’”
“Sheesh,” Exley said. “That sounds like fun.” But then he walked out the door anyway and I followed him. Because I felt like I had to. Because I felt like it would be worse if I didn’t.
THE YWCA WAS right across the Square from the Crystal. The building to the left of the YWCA had been the Palace Restaurant. The sign was still up, but the building was empty. Taped to the window was a sign that said PERMIT. But the rest of the writing was so faded you couldn’t tell who wanted permission for what. The building to the right of the YWCA had only a sticker on the window. The sticker was purple, and it said, STUDS AND EAR PIERCING over the silhouette of a woman’s head with a white sparkly star on the lobe. That building was empty, too. Both buildings had big FOR SALE signs draped on the brick wall above the front windows. The windows were dusty, and people had written illegible things in the dust. They were like a lot of buildings in Watertown. They had stopped being one thing and were waiting for someone to make them into something else.
But the YWCA was still a YWCA. Exley and I walked in. The room we walked into was huge. It was maybe the biggest room I’d ever been in that wasn’t a church or a school gym. The walls were painted bright yellow. There was an enormous chandelier hanging from the ceiling. The chandelier was lit and made the yellow walls look even more yellow. It was like being inside the sun or in the stomach of the world’s yellowest bird. There was an easel in the middle of the room. On the easel there was a poster that said LECTURE TONIGHT: and underneath was an arrow that pointed to the left. That easel and the poster were the only things in the room besides the chandelier and us. The floor was marble and shiny and slick. The room made me want to take off my shoes and slide around in my socks.
Instead we followed the arrow. It led us through a door into a much smaller room. It was like a living room. There were a bunch of couches with flowery covers and footstools and a bunch of chairs that matched the couches. There were a lot of tiny tables where you could put your drink or whatever, and lamps on the floor next to the tables. The chairs and couches were all full. They were full of women, which I guess made sense. Exley and I were standing behind them and we couldn’t see what the women looked like, except their hair. That’s how I knew they were women.
“Where is she?” Exley whispered. It was the kind of place where you whispered. Even the women were whispering, and this was their place.
“Right there,” I said, and pointed. Mother was standing toward the front, off to the right. Her back was to us and so I wasn’t worried about her seeing me pointing at her. It was Wednesday, and she was wearing corduroy: a dark brown corduroy skirt and a matching jacket. Her hair was pulled back and she was talking to a much older woman who was also wearing brown corduroy, except that woman was wearing pants and her brown was much darker and her corduroy had much deeper ridges. Mother was nodding at whatever the woman was saying.
“Oh my lord” Exley whispered. The way he said it made me realize how pretty Mother was. I felt proud and then embarrassed. I was afraid Exley was going to whistle at her or something. But that was ridiculous: Exley would never whistle at Mother, in the YWCA, with me standing right next to him. And then he did it! One short whistle in, then a longer, lower whistle out. Some of the women heard, too. Not Mother, but a couple of women sitting right in front of us, who turned to look. One of them was older and looked like she’d had her hair done for the lecture. The other might have been her daughter. Her hair was limp and pulled back and her eyes were tired. I had the feeling the older woman had brought the younger woman, who didn’t want to be there. Maybe because the older woman had her arm looped through the younger one’s and was gripping her biceps. They both glared at me, not at Exley, like I was the one who had whistled. I could feel my face turn red. It wasn’t me! I wanted to tell them. I hadn’t even learned to whistle in yet; I could only whistle out.
Mother walked to the front of the room, and I ducked behind Exley so she wouldn’t see me. People in the room stopped whispering, and the two women who were glaring at me turned around. But my face still felt red. I’d never seen Mother speak in front of people before. I was already embarrassed. There was a big stuffed chair facing the rest of the chairs. It was there for Mother to sit in it. Even I could tell that. But she wasn’t sitting in it. She wasn’t even leaning on it. She was standing a few feet away, like she had no clue the chair was even there. I don’t know why this embarrassed me so much, but it did. It embarrassed me much more than Exley whistling at Mother. Mother wasn’t talking or anything, either. She was just standing there at the front of the room, like she was all alone in it. It was like Mother didn’t even know we were there. What did she think she was doing? Sit in the chair! Say something! I almost couldn’t stand to look at her. Then the lights in the room went off and I didn’t have to.