"Lawrence." Roselyn came out of the apartment, following him. "Lawrence, please, don't go."
He walked faster. Then he was running. His hand slammed on the little silver button set in the wall. Mercifully, the elevator door slid open straightaway. He stepped inside and pressed for the lobby.
"Lawrence." She slapped her hand against the door edge, and it froze. "I'm so sorry, Lawrence. I'm so sorry. I love you."
"He paid you." His thoughts were in so much turmoil he had trouble getting the words out. "He made you do it."
"No." She was sobbing. "No, Lawrence."
"What then? He didn't pay you?"
"The money wasn't for me. You don't understand. It's not like that."
"Like what? What can I possibly not understand?"
"I said yes because of Mary and Jenny."
"Your sisters? What the hell have they got to do with this?"
"We had nothing left. Nothing. McArthur shares are just about worthless on Earth. Not that we ever had many. You can never know what that's like, to be poor. Not you. You're a golden child on a planet that's too young to know any form of decay. This was the only way we could escape Dublin, get off Earth. Me ... doing this."
"You're part of it. You're the biggest part of his lie there was. I hate you for that!"
"I never lied to you, Lawrence."
He punched the lobby button again, wanting this torment to end. "Shut up! Shut up, you bitch. All of this has been false. All of it."
"Only the beginning." She leaned against the wall, utterly exhausted. "That's all, Lawrence. Just me saying hello. One little word. Not the rest of it. Everything since then was genuine. I can't fake loving you for a year and a half. You know it was real. You know that!"
The elevator doors slid shut. Roselyn's devastated wail stabbed clean into his heart.
Vinnie Carlton opened his apartment door to find Lawrence slumped against the wall outside. "What the hell happened to you, man?"
Lawrence showed no sign he'd even heard the question. He was staring ahead without seeing anything. Vinnie shrugged to himself and put a hand under his friend's shoulder, helping him up. "Let's get you inside before the cleaning robot shoves you into the rubbish chute," Vinnie said. "Come on, you look like you need a drink or ten." Lawrence didn't resist as he was steered into the apartment's lounge. A mug of tea was put into his hands. He drank it automatically, then sputtered. "That's disgusting, Vin. What's in it?"
"Rum. I like it."
"Oh." Lawrence drank some more, sipping it down carefully. Not too bad, actually.
"Going to tell me what happened?" Vinnie asked.
Lawrence glanced around uncertainly. He'd come here because Vinnie was the only person he could turn to without getting parents involved. Although Vinnie was a really good friend, Lawrence tended not to come to the apartment much. He'd never quite forgiven Vinnie for saying he and Roselyn couldn't use it to have sex.
Everything in his life was connected to Roselyn.
"You've no idea how lucky you are living by yourself," Lawrence said.
"How so?"
Lawrence told him.
Vinnie sat and listened to the entire story with his face running through a wide spectrum of emotions. "Shit, Lawrence," he said at the end. "This is going to sound stupid, but are you sure?"
"Oh, yeah. I'm sure."
"Christ. I don't believe it I thought Roselyn was great. She was so ... real."
"Right. Girls, huh?" Lawrence tried to make it sound as if he didn't care, as if this were just a standard-issue problem in any relationship. Happened every week. It didn't work. He was too close to breaking down again. Hated himself for that.
"Yeah, girls."
The feeling in Vinnie's voice caused Lawrence to look around the lounge, as if he'd just become aware that something was missing. "Where's Nadia?"
"Ha! We split after the party at Hillier's. She said she didn't want to know someone who was so embarrassing to be with in public. Bitch! What were we supposed to do? Let Alan get beaten to a pulp?"
Lawrence smiled briefly at the memory. "Well, he almost did, anyway."
"Yeah! I just don't have any respect for someone who acts like that."
The humor faded.
"What are you going to do now?" Vinnie asked.
"I don't know. I can't go home, not after this. And I can't ever face her again."
"Well, shit, Lawrence, you can stay here, you know that."
"Thanks. But I can't. I've got to move on. You know? Get clean away."
"You mean one of the other cities?"
"No. I mean right away. Listen, you came from Earth; was she telling me the truth about other companies still flying explorer starship missions?"
"Sure. There aren't many of them left, mind you. I didn't pay a lot of attention to that kind of thing. But she was probably right about Richards-Montanna, and she'd definitely be right about Zantiu-Braun. Hell, that company owns half the bloody planet these days."
"Then why isn't any of this in Amethi's datapool?"
"Oh, it'll be there. It's just that you haven't got the access codes."
"Okay. Then why restrict it? It's not that seditious."
"Who knows? Corporate paranoia, most likely. Don't forget this isn't a democracy."
"Yes, it is," Lawrence said automatically.
"Corporate stakeholding is a little different from the traditional model. Your vote is balanced according to your wealth."
"It has to be. You can't have the poor voting themselves more welfare money. That's economic suicide."
Vinnie pressed his hands to his temple. "Lawrence, I'm not arguing with you. I chose to come and live here, remember. Amethi is quiet and prosperous, a condition that it buys for itself with a heavy load of social hypocrisy. For all that, it has a lot going for it. All I'm saying is, if the Board wants to guide our development steadily along the don't-rock-the-boat course they've mapped out, then there are some policy areas and activities best avoided. I'm taking a guess that they don't want anyone to consider the option of leaving. They would hardly be the first government to have that opinion. And the more new planets that are discovered and opened to colonists, the more options there are for people to leave and pressure to facilitate it. If there's nowhere to go, then you have to stay here and work for the Greater Good of the community."
"Bastards."