This…
He had to cool off. It took every ounce of strength to leave her, and even then, he wasn't sure he should have. He didn't like the look in her eye, but she could ignore Reginald no longer; it was already well after noon.
He was still primed as a pistol when he slipped down the servants' stairway, and getting in deeper and deeper. He could have pinned her and popped her until she cried for mercy the way he was feeling, and it shocked him.
Damn, damn and damn. Taking a vestal vixen like that and making her his mistress. Was he sane? And because she wanted it. For how long? And when would the recriminations start? Could he believe anything she said? Or was his penis totally in control and he didn't care?
God, he needed a drink. He needed to sit by himself and stew in his own hot blood with a tot of whiskey to tame the rampant beast.
There was always Heeton's, that bastion of male dominance, the most select club in the whole of London, where men of influence and wealth conducted the business of the nation in the hushed sanctity of shadowy corners.
That was the place for a man to ruminate on his sins and excesses. And regain what little sanity he had left.
But it was not to be. He was accosted immediately by the aging quartet known as The Four Crack Hands, who presided over the Betting Book and the Calendar, and who dispensed any information about social venues as though they were meting out water torture.
But the Book at Heeton's was the be-all and end-all of the Club. It was infinitely more exclusive than the one at White's, private, secure and sacrosanct; nothing written in the Book ever went beyond the doors of Heeton's for fear of total ostracism, and The Four Crack Hands guarded it as if it were the crown jewels.
Bodley was the Keeper. "Here's a familiar face, gentlemen"-he raised a toast-"and not a wager as to when he might reappear amongst the living after dispensing with the fair Marguerite…"
Jeremy blanched as he shook hands all around. Marguerite? After all this time? Still?
"How did we slip up on that plum pot…?" This was Berkleigh already calculating guineas lost, a sum that didn't bear thinking about. "When did you get back to Town, exactly?"
"Three days ago. I didn't snuff it, gentlemen. I've been rusticating. And now I'm back in full cry. So what's to do?"
"Oh, you're a one," Fallowell now. "You think you ain't chatter broth already? Let me disabuse you of that notion. Even if we didn't know, every matchmaking mother in Town was aware to the instant when you stepped foot back in Port-man Square."
It was so true, he had to smile. An eligible man was nothing short of a bon bon, to be savored, chewed over, and eventually swallowed whole by one or another of the beauties of the Season.
It was every man's destiny-when he wasn't being a remedy; when he wasn't educating a virgin to be a mistress. When he wasn't being swallowed whole by her.
Oh, God____________________
"Speaking of that," he said, his voice raw, "what's the Book this week?"
"You won't believe it."
"Try me."
"Raulton."
Jeremy lifted a brow. Worse and worse. Damn damn damn….
"It's true. He's been prowling the sidelines and the on dit is he's out to hang up the ladle." The amusement factor was enough to send Bodley into transports. "And there's much interest in some quarters. They're pounding deep on this one," he added, patting the Book.
"Who's the front line?" Jeremy asked, casually, he hoped.
Bodley ticked off the names. "Miss Law, The Honorable Miss Garland, Lady Olney, Miss Soames. This week anyway."
"A tidy cat-patch," Jeremy commented impassively. Re-gina's name booked? Already? Damn, damn, damn and hell.
"Your presence could kick things up a bit," the reticent Rustington suggested
"I daresay it will." Jeremy took a flute of champagne from a passing waiter. God, if he thought he needed liquid sustenance before, it was nothing to how he needed it now. Those bettors were among the highest flyers in the land, Personages who didn't discuss their business in public. Or their vices.
Raulton's matrimonial chances would be fair game at White's within days, by the looks of it. Too many people were talking already, and that inevitably and always led to book.
Damn and hell.
He had no time at all to get Regina out of the line of fire.
"And so how did it end with the fair Marguerite?" Berk-leigh asked.
Damn again. They were as insatiably curious as women. Better he dispense the story of his congé than let them speculate. At least his version would be all around Town by morning. "As you might imagine, gentlemen. She caught a warmer scent and she rode out of town without a backward glance." That they all understood. Who hadn't been given the mitten by a ladylove whose affection was sold to whomever was plumpest in the pocket?
"Ah, poor Jeremy." Bodley again. "It is ever the way with them dashers. Damned shame, but there it is. Well, welcome back, my boy. And let us toast the indomitable Marguerite, wherever she may be." He lifted his champagne flute. "May she be dished up and dashed down and never make another man miserable again…"
Chapter Five
So there it was. She had permitted a man to touch her, to possess her in the most intimate and erotic way, and she saw nothing different about herself when she looked in the mirror.
Maybe a little different. Her eyes were brighter; her skin seemed to glow. Perhaps she stood a little taller to emphasize her breasts. She was tellingly aware of her body and her capacity for sensual gratification.
She felt strong, powerful. There was a world of knowledge in her bearing and in her gaze.
And she felt no shame. Rather, every part of her felt sumptuous, carnal, untamed. Clothed, she felt her body spurt to life at her intemperate thoughts. Jeremy must must must come back to her tonight.
But that was not to the point this morning. She was so late to breakfast, her father would already have ordered his midday meal, and there was no ducking that.
It was just that he would be over concerned about her, about the pace of their days and their social commitments being too much for her.
And now they were, she thought irritably, as she checked her hem one more time and then made her way downstairs. Now she wanted every evening free for Jeremy, even supposing he would come to her every evening; anything else seemed insipid and banal.
But this game must be played as well. And she must contain her impatience and her clamoring body, which, even as she entered the dining room, was erect to all the possibilities of the day.
"Father." She seated herself and poured a cup of tea.
"Regina. Are you all right, my dear?"
"Oh, yes." She sipped. Easier not to talk.
"And Jeremy saw to everything last night? He said you had a headache."
"He was solicitous as ever you would be, I promise you. I spent the night in bed." Not a lie. Not wholly the truth. "And I'm up to the mark for whatever's on tonight." Yes, yes. She had to be, because she saw clearly she couldn't be lolling around waiting for him. That would be the height of folly and confer far too much power on him and his prowess.
Her body stiffened.
Don't think about it…
"I'm glad to hear it," Reginald said. "It is but a small party at the Petleys'-cards, refreshments, perhaps some dancing. Nothing onerous. Everything amiable and early home. Do you feel the thing? Will you come?"
"I'm happy to," she murmured. Anything to preserve the pretense that nothing had changed.
Everything had changed, and she became more aware of it by the minute, not least her consuming impatience over the trivialities of the day. Receiving guests. The ride in the park. The hour calling on friends and acquaintances. Another half hour shopping for furbishments at Clark and Debenham. Over to Hatchard's for a book that she likely wouldn't read. A nap, fruitless by herself alone. A bath, which only served to heighten her awareness of her body.