He moaned, face twisted in pain. He seemed to be about to cry. “Please don’t ask me. I can’t say. I
can’t say.”
The man, the male of my kind, had found him, bitten him, and ordered him to guard the ruin and not tell anyone why he was doing it. But what was there to guard? What was there to shoot a person over?
In spite of myself, I began to feel sorry for Raleigh. His head probably did hurt. He was torn between obeying me and obeying the man from the helicopter. That kind of thing wasn’t supposed to happen. Just thinking about it made me intensely uncomfortable, and, of course, I didn’t know why. I waited, hoping
to remember more. But there was no more, except that I began to feel ashamed of myself, began to feel as though I owed Raleigh an apology.
“Raleigh.” “Yeah?”
“It’s all right. I won’t ask you about the man in the helicopter any more. It’s all right.”
“Okay.” He looked as though he hadn’t taken a breath for too long, and now, suddenly, he could breathe again. He also looked like he was no longer in pain.
“I want to meet the man in the helicopter,” I said. “If he comes to you again, I want you to tell him about me.”
“Tell him what?”
“Tell him I bit you. Tell him I want to meet him. Tell him I’ll come back to the burned houses next Friday night. And tell him I didn’t know that you . . . that you knew him. If he asks you any questions about me, it’s okay to answer. All right?”
“Yeah. What’s your name?”
Good question. “Don’t bother about a name. Describe me to him. I think he’ll know. And don’t tell anyone else about either of us. Make up lies if you have to.”
“Okay.”
I started to get up, but he caught my hand. Then he let it go. “That thing you did,” he said, touching the spot I’d bitten. “That was really good.”
“It will probably make you feel weak and sick for a while,” I said. “I’m sorry for that. You’ll be all right in a couple of days.”
“Worth it,” he said.
And I left feeling better, feeling as though he’d forgiven me. Whoever I was before, it seemed I had had strong beliefs about what was right and what wasn’t. It wasn’t right to bite someone who had already been claimed by another of my kind. Certainly it hadn’t been all right to drain Raleigh to the point of sickness when he wasn’t truly responsible for shooting me. Why on earth would one of my own people take the chance of being responsible for a pointless shooting, perhaps even a death?
I jogged back toward the ruin. Eight chimneys, much burned rubble, a few standing timbers and remnant walls. That’s what was left. Why did it need guarding? The guarding should have come before the fire when it might have done some good.
Finally, I jogged over to the unblocked part of the private road, coming out where Wright and I had parked the night before. I heard him coming—heard him stop down at the gate, then start again. I waited, making sure it was his car and not some stranger’s. The moment I recognized the car and caught his
scent, I could hardly wait to see him. The instant he stopped the car, I pulled the passenger door open and slid inside.
He was there, smelling worried and nervous. And somehow he didn’t see me until I was sitting next to him, closing the door.
He jumped, then grabbed me and yanked me into a huge hug.
I found myself laughing as he examined me, checked my leg, then the rest of me. “I’m fine,” I said, and
kissed him and felt alarmingly glad to see him. “Let’s go home,” I said at last. “I want a hot bath, and then
I want you.”
He held me in his lap, and I was surprised that he had managed to move me there without my realizing it. “Anytime,” he said. “Now, if you like.”
I kissed his throat. “Not now. Let’s go home.”
seven
A week later, we went back to the ruin.
I wanted Wright to park the car beside the gate to the private road. I thought it would be safest for him
to stay with the car while I went in alone. But I had told him the little that Raleigh Curtis had told me, and
Wright was adamant. He was going with me.
“You don’t know what this guy will do,” he said. “What if he just grabs you and takes you away with him? Hell, what if he’s the one who torched those houses to begin with?”
“He’s of my kind,” I said. “Even if he doesn’t know anything about me, he’ll probably know someone who does. Or at least he can tell me about my people. I have to know who I am, Wright, and what I am.”
“Then I have to go with you,” he said. “And I think I’d better take my nice new rifle along.”
I had not made any effort to get Raleigh Curtis’s rifle back to him. If he didn’t have it, he couldn’t shoot some exploring stranger with it. Wright had kept the gun and had gone out and bought bullets for it.
“This guy is a man of your kind,” he told me. “An adult male who is probably a lot bigger and stronger than you. I’m telling you, Renee, he might just decide to do what he wants with you no matter what you want.”
He was afraid of losing me, afraid this other man would take me from him. He might be right. And he was probably right in thinking that the man would be bigger and stronger than I was.
That last possibility was enough to make me want Wright to stay with me and keep the gun handy. We left his cabin well before sunset because he wanted to get a look at the ruin in something more than starlight. To be sure he would be able to see well, he took along a flashlight zipped in his jacket pocket—the pocket that wasn’t full of bullets.
With my jeans, my shirt, and my hooded jacket, I was reasonably well covered up so I didn’t mind the daylight. It was a gray day anyway, with rain threatening but not yet falling. That kind of light was much easier on my eyes than direct sunlight.
“He won’t be there yet,” I told Wright as he drove. “If he’s coming, he’ll show up after sundown.” “If?” Wright asked.
“Maybe Raleigh didn’t see him and couldn’t pass along my message. Maybe he’s not interested in meeting me. Maybe he had something else to do.”
“Maybe you’re getting nervous about meeting him,” Wright said.
I was, so I didn’t answer.
“You should have gotten Raleigh’s phone number. Then you could have called and asked him if he’d passed on your message.”
“He might not tell me,” I said. “I’m not sure I’d trust him to tell me the truth on the phone.” I stopped suddenly and turned to face him. “Wright . . . listen, if this guy bites you, you tell him whatever he wants to know. Do that, okay?”
He shook his head. “I don’t think I’ll be letting him bite me.” “But if he does. If he does.”
“Okay.” And after a moment, “You don’t want me to suffer like Raleigh did, is that it?” “I don’t want you to suffer.”
He gave me a strange little smile. “That’s good to know.”
We went on for a few minutes, then turned down the side road. By the time we reached the gate, we should have been close enough to the ruin for me to get a good scent picture of it, if only the wind had been blowing toward us.
“Wait here,” I said when we reached the gate. “I’m going to make sure Raleigh or someone else isn’t waiting for us with another gun.”
He grabbed me around the waist. “Whoa,” he said. “You don’t need to be shot again.”