“No.” He grimaced in pain. “No, not because of the Xeelee. Or at least, not directly. It was because of how our philosophy caused us to behave.”
The Human Beings believed that knowledge of the Xeelee predated the arrival of humans in the Star — that it had been brought there by the Ur-humans themselves.
The Xeelee, godlike, dominated spaces so large — it was said — that by comparison the Star itself was no more than a mote in the eyecup of a giant. Humans, striving for supremacy, had resented the Xeelee — had even gone to hopeless war against the great Xeelee projects, the constructs like the legendary Ring.
But over the generations — and as the terrible defeats continued — a new strand had emerged in human thought. No one understood the Xeelee’s grand purposes. But what if their projects were aimed, not at squalid human-scale goals like the domination of others, but at much higher aspirations?
The Xeelee were much more powerful than humans. Perhaps they always would be. And perhaps, as a corollary, they were much more wise.
So, some apologists began to argue, humans should trust in the Xeelee rather than oppose them. The Xeelee’s ways were incomprehensible but must be informed by great wisdom. The apologists developed a philosophy which was accepting, compliant, calm, and trusting in an understanding above any human’s.
Adda went on, “We followed the way of the Xeelee, you see, Dura; not the way of the Committee of Parz. We would not obey.” He shook his head. “So they sent us away. And in that we were lucky; now they might simply have destroyed us on their Wheels.”
Deni Maxx touched Dura’s shoulder. “You should leave now.”
“We’ll be back.”
“No.” Adda was shifting with ghastly slowness in his cocoon of bindings, evidently trying to relieve his pain. “No, don’t come back. Get away. As far and as fast as you can. Get away…”
His voice broke up into a bubbling growl, and he closed his eyes.
10
“You dumb upfluxer jetfart!” Hosch screamed in Farr’s face. “When I want a whole damn tree trunk fed into this hopper I’ll tell you about it!” Now the Harbor supervisor shoved his bony face forward and his tone descended into a barely audible, infinitely menacing hiss. “But until I do… and if it wouldn’t trouble you too much… maybe you could split the wood just a little more finely. Or…” — foul-smelling photons seeping from his mouth — “maybe you’d like to follow your handiwork into the hopper and finish your work in there? Eh?”
Farr waited until Hosch was through. Trying to defend himself, he knew from bitter experience, would only make things worse.
Hosch was a small, wiry man with a pinched mouth and eyecups which looked as if they had been drilled into his face. His clothes were filthy and he always smelled to Farr like days-old food. His limbs were so thin that Farr was confident that, with his remarkable upfluxer strength here at the Pole, he — or Dura — could snap the supervisor in two, in a fair fight…
At last Hosch seemed to exhaust his anger, and he Waved away to some other part of the hopper line. The laborers who had gathered to relish Farr’s humiliation — men and women alike — gave up their surreptitious surveillance and, with the smugness of spared victims, fixed their attention back on their work.
Air seethed in Farr’s capillaries and muscles. Upfluxer. He called me upfluxer, again. He watched his fists bunch…
Bzya’s huge hand enclosed both Farr’s own, and, with an irresistible, gentle force, pulled Farr’s arms down. “Don’t,” Bzya said, his voice a cool rumble from the depths of an immense chest. “He’s not worth it.”
Farr’s rage seemed to veer between the supervisor and this huge Fisherman who was getting in the way. “He called me…”
“I heard what he called you,” Bzya said evenly. “And so did everyone else… just as Hosch intended. Listen to me. He wants you to react, to hit him. He’d like nothing better.”
“He’d be capable of liking nothing after I take off his head for him.”
Bzya threw his head back and roared laughter. “And as soon as you did the guards would be down on you. After a beating you’d return to work — to Hosch, to a supervisor who really would hate you, and wouldn’t pass up an opportunity to show it — and to an extra five, or ten, years here to pay his compensation.”
Farr, the remnants of his anger still swirling in him, looked up into Bzya’s broad, battered face. “But I’ve only just started this shift… At the moment I’ll be happy just to get through that.”
“Good.” With an immense, powerful hand Bzya ruffled Farr’s hair-tubes. “That’s the way to think of it… You don’t have to get through your whole ten years at once, remember; just one shift at a time.”
Bzya was a huge man with muscles the size of Air-piglets. He was as bulky, powerful and gentle as the supervisor was small and needle-dagger vicious. Bzya’s face was marred by a mask of scar tissue which obliterated one side of his head and turned one eyecup into a ghastly cavern that reached back into the depths of his skull. Farr had come to know him as a simple man who had lived his life in the poverty-stricken Downside, keeping himself alive by turning his giant muscles to the mundane, difficult and dangerous labor which allowed the rest of Parz City to function. He had a wife, Jool, and a daughter, Shar. Somehow, through a life of travail, he had retained a kind and patient nature.
Now he said to Farr, winking at him with his good eyecup, “You shouldn’t be hard on old Hosch, you know.”
Farr gaped, trying to suppress a laugh. “Me, hard on him? Why, the old Xeelee-lover has it in for me.”
Bzya reached to the conveyor and raised a length of tree trunk longer than Farr was tall. With a single blow of his ax he cracked it open to reveal its glowing core. “See it from his point of view. He’s the supervisor of this section.”
Farr snorted. “Making himself rich out of our work. Bastard.”
Bzya smiled. “You learn fast, don’t you? Well, maybe. But he’s also responsible. We lost another Bell, last shift. Had you heard? Three more Fishermen dead. Hosch is responsible for that too.”
Disasters seemed to hit the Harbor with a depressing regularity, Farr thought. Still, he remained impatient with Bzya’s tolerance, and he began to list Hosch’s faults.
“He’s all of that, and then some you’re too young to understand. Maybe he isn’t up to the responsibility he has.
“But — I’ll say it again — whether he can cope or not, he’s responsible. And when one of us dies, a little of him must die too. I’ve seen it in his face, Farr, despite all his viciousness. Remember that.”
Farr frowned. He shoved more glowing wood into the hoppers. It was so complex. If only Logue or Dura were here to help him make sense of it all…
Or if only he could get out of here and Surf.
The rest of the shift wore away without incident. Afterward Farr filed out with the rest of the laborers to the small, cramped dormitory they shared. The dormitory, home to forty people, was a stained box slung across with sleeping ropes. It stank of shit and food. Farr ate his daily ration — today, a small portion of tough bread — and looked for a stable nest in the web of sleeping-ropes. He wasn’t yet confident enough to challenge the older, powerful-looking Fishermen, men and women both, who monopolized the chamber walls where the Air was slightly less polluted by the grunts and farts of others. He finished up, as usual, close to the center of the dormitory.
One day, he told himself as he closed his eyes and sought sleep. One day.
At the start of his next shift, with eyecups still crusted with sleep deposits, he filed back to his post at the wood hoppers.