“Yeah,” I softly say.
He looks into my eyes. “I was scared, but you weren’t.”
“I remember.” My voice is almost a whisper as I lower my eyes. I remember the wind and how it howled through the alley below us. “But I really was scared,” I confess.
He smiles. “Well, you didn’t seem like it that day. You held my hand. That was the first time I ever fell in love.”
The sincerity in his voice makes my heart swell.
“You broke my heart, Logan.” His eyes falter and fall to the leather in the couch. “Ada,” he corrects, lifting his gentle gaze again.
He tries to smile, and I do too before I scoot closer to him and wrap my arms around him. And a moment later, I feel his hands come to rest on my back.
“I love you,” I whisper near his ear, holding him tight.
I feel his chest rise as he takes in a deep breath.
“I love you too, Logan,” he exhales, not even bothering to correct himself.
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Sunday
“You wanna come with me, Ada Bear?”
Jorgen’s throwing a little stress ball up into the air, catching it and then throwing it back up again.
“Where?” I ask.
“To the gas station. To get the M&M’s.”
I let go of a smile. “Sure.”
I watch him throw the ball up one more time and then set it onto the coffee table.
“Okay. Let’s go.”
“Now?” I ask.
“Sure.” He stands up and stretches his arms to the ceiling. “Why not?”
“All right,” I say, giggling to myself.
I love days like this — like Sunday — when we can do things like go to the gas station just to get M&M’s.
I find my keys, follow him out the door and lock it behind me. When I turn back around, he’s holding out his hand. And as if it’s second nature, I place my hand in his, and we head down the stairs together.
“So, you always go to the same gas station?”
“Yep,” he says. “At different times though — depending on when or if I work that day.”
I nod my head, and then we walk in comfortable silence for a minute. It’s a beautiful, warm day. It’s cooler than average, so it’s not hot. The sun is out. There’s a breeze. It’s pretty much perfect.
“You look pretty,” he says, suddenly breaking my thoughts.
I look up at him. I want to ask if I look different somehow from any other day, but I don’t because the way he says it sounds so pure — as if there’s nothing more to it than simply: You look pretty.
“Thanks,” I say and then force my eyes to the ground at our feet. I’m sure I’m blushing.
I feel him squeeze my hand, and then I find his eyes again. He’s smiling, and it makes me smile wider as we continue down the sidewalk — the same sidewalk that I’ve walked more times than I can count since I first moved here. It leads from the apartment complex to a little café called The Coffee Cup. I like to sit on the café’s patio when it’s nice outside and write sometimes. And then, about another hundred yards or so after The Coffee Cup is the gas station, nestled at the corner of an intersection. You wouldn’t even know it was a gas station really if you didn’t look closely enough. It’s only two pumps outside a tiny, brick building with a clock tower shooting right out of its center. It looks more like a train station than a gas station.
But along the path to the café and the little gas station, there are big trees that hang over the sidewalk, shading us from all civilization. It’s quiet, peaceful, relaxing.
“What was the Shakespeare quote?”
I look up at Jorgen.
“What?” I ask.
“You said that you decided to be a writer while staring at a quote by Shakespeare.”
“Oh,” I say and then pause.
“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so,” I recite.
“Hmm,” he says. He seems to be thinking.
“Kinda like, life is what we make of it?” he asks.
I mull it over and then shrug my shoulders.
“Yeah, I guess,” I say.
“You think that’s true?” he asks.
I slowly bob my head. “Yeah, for the most part. I mean, we decide to frown or to smile — even when it hurts sometimes.”
He tilts his face in my direction and narrows his eyes. “You know, I learn something new about you every day, Ada Cross.”
I lower my gaze and laugh softly to myself. “And what did you just learn about me today? Do I want to know?”
He nods. “I learned that you just might be wise beyond your years.”
I laugh out loud this time. “I’m not, I promise,” I assure him. “I’ve only stolen those words. I didn’t make them up.”
“But you believe them,” he says.
I know my face turns a little sad.
“Believe me,” I say, “it’s a work in progress.”
Jorgen squeezes my hand, and all of a sudden, I notice we’re at the door to the gas station. He holds it open for me, and I walk inside.
“It must be Sunday,” the cashier immediately shouts over the counter.
Jorgen looks up, smiles and nods.
“M&M day,” Jorgen confirms to the man.
The casual, ordinary way Jorgen responds to the guy behind the counter makes me laugh to myself. Here’s this attractive guy — tan, muscular, tantalizing blue eyes, the whole bit — and yet he says things like M&M day.
I watch him dart into the candy aisle like clockwork and then go straight to the M&M’s. And I just follow him and think about Hannah. And I think about her philosophy about there being a moment when you just know — like really know — you love someone. I think this is that moment.
He picks up a bag and then gestures toward the rows and rows of chocolate candy. “Do you want anything else?”
I shake my head. “It’s M&M day.”
He just smiles his crooked, sexy grin at me and then makes his way to the cashier and pays for the candy.
“See you next Sunday,” the man says, waving his hand at us.
Jorgen tips his baseball cap at the cashier and then holds the door for me again.
“So, we can’t eat the green ones?” I ask once we’re outside.
He shakes his head and hands me the M&M’s. “Nope, can’t eat those.”
I open the bag and pull out a green one and then throw it back into the bag.
“Does she actually eat these?”
He shrugs his shoulders. “I think so.”
“I hope she doesn’t mind us touching all of them.”
“They’ve got a shell on them; it’s okay,” he says, taking the bag from my hand.
I laugh and scrunch up my brow. “What?”
He just looks at me.
“She doesn’t care,” he assures me, as he picks out a red one and pops it into his mouth. “She ate a grasshopper once. It had dirt on it.”
My wide eyes rush to his. I watch him pour out a handful of the candies and then corral the green ones back into the bag. Then, finally, he looks up and seems to notice my questioning stare.
“I dared her to,” he explains. “But I can assure you that these are cleaner than that grasshopper.” He holds a single green M&M in between two fingers.
I try to stifle my laugh. “How old were you guys?”
“She was nine, I think. I would have been…eleven.”
“That’s awful, Jorgen.”
“What? It was good protein for her.”
I shake my head and grab the bag from his hand.
“Okay,” I say, “so we eat all the colors but green and then…”
“And then we go home, tape the bag back up and put it in a little box and then mail it tomorrow,” he says, proudly.