“Colt –”
“I’ll talk to Jack, he or Jackie can cover if you’re on.”
“Colt –”
“I’ll pick you up at six.”
Definitely a date-ish type statement.
“Listen to me, Colt –”
“Later, baby.”
Then he hung up.
I was finding it hard to breathe. This wasn’t because I was angry, this was because I wanted to eat pizza, drink beer and play pool in Colt’s den with Colt. I also wanted other things too, if I was honest. I wanted them so much it was too much.
That wasn’t what was making it hard to breathe.
What was making it hard to breathe was that I knew I could have them if I just reached out and took hold. And the excitement and anticipation of knowing that was unbelievably thrilling.
Letting go of the pain and deciding to live my life before it was too late meant something else was happening too. I was letting Colt back in, or he was pushing his way in, probably both. Golden Sundays and fucking fantastic kisses and a man going all out to protect you had a way of making that kind of shit happen. I didn’t know if I was ready to take Dee’s advice, forgive him, forget and move on. Even after all of these years, even learning moment to moment these last few days what kind of man he’d turned out to be, I had to admit, I was still shit scared.
By three thirty I knew the news had broken or some of it anyway.
I knew this because for a Monday afternoon we had way more people in the bar than usual.
I knew it too because Morrie finally told me after I cornered him because he and Dad were getting called aside to have private conversations with patrons.
Firstly, everyone knew Colt and I had had scenes in this bar and at the Station.
Secondly, everyone knew that one second, Colt and I were circling each other and barely speaking, the next second we were having scenes in this bar and at the Station and more, I was living with him.
Thirdly, not only had half my neighbors watched Colt and the boys going in and out of my apartment in the wee hours of the morning but also Chris and Marty had canvassed, knocking on my neighbors’ doors asking them if they saw anyone going into my house. They’d undoubtedly had their chats with Chris and Marty, gone back into their apartments and got right on the phone. Most of my neighbors were retired and this was gossip too juicy not to share.
Not to mention, Lore came in and did his thing, exposing me as someone who was assisting the investigation which didn’t help matters.
Lastly, my cell never quit ringing. I’d never been more popular. Some, my closer friends, I picked up and gave them a kind of “I’m busy”/“No Comment”/“I’ll call you later” malarkey. Others I didn’t pick up at all.
The good news was no one was shying away from me or sending daggers at me with their eyes. They were coming into the bar and having drinks not avoiding it. I felt mostly curiosity and some concern coming at me and I could handle that.
So the afternoon was crawling on and my drama was taking a new turn. I wondered if it lasted much longer if I’d eventually get used to it. I doubted it.
Morrie walked in with Palmer and Tuesday in tow. They raced to the office shouting, “Hey Granddad! Hey Auntie Feb,” and disappeared behind the office door.
I’d been in the office that day and the kids had done a number on it. Nothing on the desk was where it’d been before and the computer was totally fucked up and had about fifty more applications than it had when they walked in yesterday. Still, I liked them being in the bar which was where Morrie and I spent a lot of our childhood and seeing as loved ones were close, it was a good place to be.
Morrie had his cell to his ear as he made his way behind the bar. “Yeah, Dee, I picked ‘em up from school. Things are busy here. You mind comin’ ‘round after work to pick them up?”
He was close so, at his words, I punched him in the arm hard.
“Yow!” he shouted and I bugged my eyes out at him. “Nothin’ Dee, darlin’, just that Feb’s in a mood.” He chuckled and said, “That’s it, babe. Later.”
I was still glaring at him when he flipped his phone shut.
“What was that for?” he asked me.
“It was for tellin’ Dee to come get the kids. She’s tired, it’s Monday, Mondays suck. She doesn’t want to go out of her way to get the kids. And anyway, Dad’s here, we’re busy but he’d cover for you.”
“Well, she’ll want to come out of her way today,” he replied.
“Yeah, why? Because your natural charisma will brighten her day?”
“No,” he shot back. “Because I got reservations at Costa’s tonight and she loves that place. We’re gonna have a family dinner. It’s a surprise.”
I snapped my mouth shut, surprised and impressed. Morrie spoke the truth, Dee loved Costa’s like crazy, the kids did too. Hell, I did too. Everyone loved Costa’s. It was a great Greek restaurant one town over. It was where you went to celebrate things, birthdays, getting into the university you wanted, shit like that. Not just Monday night family night.
Morrie was going to score huge on this.
“Got anything else to say?” Morrie asked and I didn’t so I didn’t say anything.
All of a sudden I heard Dad laugh and just as sudden his arms were around me and he was giving me a big hug. I hugged him back automatically. Then when I got over my surprise that I was all of a sudden being hugged by my Dad in the bar for no reason, I felt his hug and the feel of it almost made me cry.
Dad was a hugger, he was affectionate like Morrie, but I hadn’t had a hug like that from my Dad in a long… fucking… time.
That was when I really hugged him back.
“I love my girl,” he whispered in my ear before he let me go.
I had tears in my eyes when I said to his back, “Love you too, Dad.”
Morrie put his big mitt on the side of my head and gave it a shove.
I took a deep breath to control the tears and gave my brother a smile because with his head shove, he was saying he loved me too.
And somehow I felt like I’d come home. Not like when I got home two years ago to stay for good or any of the times I’d come home to visit, but like I’d really, finally, come home.
The Terrible Trio showed up at quarter passed five.
For me this meant Jessie, Meems and Dee.
They ambled in, eyes on me and I knew I was in trouble.
Dee, I was expecting. The three of them together meant they’d planned this and it sent bad tidings.
“Hey babe,” Morrie called to Dee.
“Hey, hon,” Dee replied, “be with you in a sec. Gotta have a word with Feb before I take the kids home.”
There it was. Trouble.
Morrie read Dee’s tone. He read it and it made him do two things: grin and skedaddle.
Jessie, Meems and Dee bellied up to Colt’s end of the bar and I approached.
“Get you gals a drink?” I asked.
“Not here for libations, girlie,” Jessie answered.
I knew that. Shit.
“What’s up?” I asked.
“Lindy who heard it from Bobbie who heard it from Lisa who heard it from Ellie who got it straight from the horse’s mouth says you talked to Melanie this mornin’,” Jessie told me.
My mind flew through the strategies available to deal with this situation.
I settled on nonchalance. “Yeah, sure, she called this morning.”
“And?” Meems prompted.
“And nothing, Colt was gone. He had work,” I answered.
“And?” Jessie said this time.
“Nothin’,” I replied.
“Girlie, your whatever-he-is’s ex phones you, findin’ you at his house first thing in the mornin’, you call your girlfriends so we can peck it over and so, when other people call us about it, we don’t look like assholes because we’re surprised,” Jessie informed me.