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best sense of how a man should live. I have done the same work for

decades, never changing, never learning, without friends beside me,

without associates, without the refreshment of change, without

delight.” He turned to Prosper. “Not that this makes me in any way

different from millions.”

“I shouldn’t say so,” Prosper said.

“Well and you?” the salesman asked him.

“Ah. Well I was privately employed.”

“Ah.”

They said no more for a long time. Prosper studied the places they

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passed, that seemed to come into being merely by his entering them, and

then to persist behind him as he and Pancho and the Zephyr made more.

Fields and farms appearing, then after a time the outskirts of a town,

sometimes announced with a proud sign (greenfield—a friendly

town) and the totem pole of the local lodges and clubs, Masons, Lions,

Odd Fellows. The last and least farms passed, then the more decrepit

and dirtier businesses, the ice-and-coal supplier and the lumberyard,

then the first paved streets of houses and neighborhood shops, maybe a

mill with its strings of joined workers’ houses like city streets displaced.

The better neighborhoods, a white church or a stone one, big houses

with wide yards and tended shrubbery, but the biggest one an undertak-

ers’. Then downtown, brick buildings of three and four stories, hero on

a plinth, the larger churches, a domed granite courthouse on Court-

house Square.

“Well take a good look,” said Pancho a little bitterly when Prosper

noted these trim towns, each different but all alike. “These places

won’t last. They’ll be drained of population. They’re the past, these old

mills. People’ll go where the work is, and that’s the big plants in the big

cities or the new cities now a-building. That’s the future.”

“I’d like to see the future,” Prosper said. “All the wonders.”

“You are a Candide,” Pancho said. “You think this is the best of all

possible worlds. Or will be.”

“I can’t be a Candide,” said Prosper.

“And why not?”

“Because I’ve read the book.”

Esso station, five-and-dime, A & P. Pancho contemned the big chain

stores, displacing local businesses, substituting standardized needs and

ways of meeting them for individual taste and satisfaction.

“They say that this new finance capitalism’s efficient. Actually it’s

inefficient, and the more the owners are divorced from the operations

of it the more inefficient it can get. They claim ‘efficiency of scale’—

they don’t know that when you scale something up it doesn’t always

work the same. It’s just as when a great corporation claims the same

right as an individual to the freedoms guaranteed by our forefathers in

1776. A nice piece of sophistry. As if Nabisco was not different from a

man running his own bakeshop here in this town.”

The bakeshop Pancho pointed to looked welcoming. It was called

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Mom’s and had red-and-white calico curtains in the window, and Pros-

per thought of calling a halt to buy some supplies, but Pancho hunched

over the wheel seemed unlikely to hear, and then Mom’s was gone, and

the Ball Building, and the fire station. The railroad tracks, after which

the houses grew poorer and fewer, some streets of Negroes, then

scarcer, with vacant lots and abandonment (the hard times hardly

gone) until once more fields and farms began, much like the earlier

ones but not them. Tractors plowing in contour lines like marcelled

brown hair, because spring was rushing upward toward them as they

went down.

Sometime after dark they came upon a long low establishment

roofed in Spanish tile (so Pancho said it was) with a floodlit sign in

front that commanded that they dine-dance and offered them steaks

chops chicken, though it was unlikely that it’d have much of that

these days, or much of anything to drink either, but by then the

Zephyr’d been traveling a long time; the road had been bare of other

choices, and didn’t look to be getting better.

“It’s a law of life,” Pancho said. “Turn down the pretty-good place

and you’ll wander for hours and find nothing as good, end up in a

greasy spoon just closing its doors. Trust me. Years on the road.”

Attached to this place was a cinder block motel, red-tiled too: a

string of red-painted doors, each with a wicker chair beside it and a

window with a calico curtain like Mom’s bakery. Prosper thought that

calico curtains were perhaps to be a feature of travel, and made a note

to watch for more. He had never left the city of his birth before.

“Mo-tel,” Pancho said. “Motor-hotel. A hotel, but one without

bellhops, a cigar stand, newspapers, a front desk, room service, a West-

ern Union office, or any other of the common amenities.”

“Two dollars a night,” Prosper said, pointing to a sign.

“You have an endless capacity to be pleased,” Pancho said gravely.

“That is an enviable quality in youth, and a good thing for a traveler to

have.”

The room that the key given to Pancho let them into was small and

spare, and clad in honey-colored knotty pine, a thing that Prosper had

never seen or smelled before—like living in a hollow tree, he thought.

A single lamp between the two beds was shaped to resemble a large

cactus and a sleeping Mexican. The beds were narrow and the pillows

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ungenerous; there was a shower but no tub. A rag rug on the linoleum

floor nearly caught a crutch and spilled him: Prosper was opposed to

linoleum floors, and to rag rugs. But still he loved the place immedi-

ately, and would come to love all motels, with but one shallow stair up

to the little cloister that protected the doors, sometimes not even that,

out of the car and in, and there you were.

He deposited his knapsack and Pancho lugged in a suitcase and his

sample cases, washed his hands, and they went to eat in the wide build-

ing fronting the motel. Prosper had never been in one of these either,

though he knew right away what name to call it: the air of weary gaiety,

glow of the cigarette machine, couple drinking over there with another

male whose role was unguessable, blond waitress with challenging eyes

and bitter mouth— A roadhouse,” he said to Pancho. “Just like in

True Story.”

“Just like in what true story?” Pancho asked.

Prosper told him to never mind.

There were, amid the items crossed off on the menu, enough to

make a meal, and whiskey, a surprise. They each ordered one. Pancho,

having rapidly downed his, described to Prosper the principles of Besto-

pianism, which he claimed were in fact not different from the principles

of natural life and common sense. “This isn’t hard,” he said. “You ask:

What makes a person happy? Not one thing that will make all men

everywhere happy, but this person here and now. And next question,

How’s he going to get it? That’s all. Answer those questions. Let every

person answer the first. Society should answer the second.”

“Uh-huh,” Prosper said. “So what’s the answer?”

Pancho regarded him with a penetrating look, and for the first time

Prosper discerned the penetration might be due to a slight cast in one

of his close-set wide-open eyes. It made for a furious or accusatory

look Prosper didn’t think he meant.

“The answer,” he said, “is the wholesale reorganization of human