“Yep. No doubt about it. And I love that about him.”
I look around the room. Techno music throbs from giant speakers. The smell of smoke mingles with the unmistakable scent of aftershave. The room is crammed full of guys, totally cut, wearing tight T-shirts, grinding into one another on a makeshift dance floor.
Shit. I should have figured. This is the ultimate gay boy house party, Mexican style. Will must be in heaven. As I’m having this epiphany, I can’t help but notice Kylie taking in the room at the same time. She bites her lip to stop from giggling. I know what she’s thinking. That this is not my scene. At all. She couldn’t be more right about that. I’m probably the only straight guy in the room, and Kylie is one of the few girls. I want to get out of here.
Will reappears with three beers. “Since you didn’t get to the bar yet, I brought the bar to you. No thanks required. But you’re on your own from now on.”
As Will hands me a beer, he leans in to me, close. A little too close. He’s already kissed me once. I’m not down for another shot. I step away, but Will grabs my hand. Damn, he’s stronger than he looks.
“Max, break our Kylie’s heart and I will hunt you down like a dog. And tear you apart.” I never thought of Will Bixby as anything more than a joke. But he’s not. He’s fierce in his love and concern for Kylie. And kind of scary as his eyes bore into me.
“I won’t. Don’t worry,” I say. He lets me go.
Juan waves from across the room.
“Okay, kiddies, time for me to fly. Try to mingle. And if you can’t mingle, dance. And if you can’t dance…well, you’ll come up with something.”
Kylie and I watch as Will rushes up to Juan, tosses an arm around his shoulder, and nuzzles into his neck. And then they’re kissing. Full on, frontal. Juan seems way, way out of the closet. Hard to believe he’s trying to keep any of this a secret from his family.
Juan slips his hands into Will’s jeans pockets and pulls him close. They sway to the music. I’ve never seen two dudes kiss before. Okay, I saw Brokeback Mountain, and I was a little weirded out by it. But somehow, in the flesh, it’s different. It’s not as strange as I would have thought. Not that much different than a guy and a girl. They actually seem kinda sweet together. Still, I don’t need to be here watching it all.
“Wow. The caterpillar has finally turned into a butterfly,” Kylie says.
“He was always pretty butterfly-ish, no?”
“Less so than you’d think. He talks a big game, but he’s never really been with a guy. Until now, I guess.”
“He’s catching on fast,” I say as Kylie and I watch them suck face on the dance floor.
“Yeah, well, Will’s always been a quick study.”
“Yo, I’m the only straight dude here,” I whisper as two guys in wifebeaters walk by and check me out. “It’s kinda freaking me out.”
“You’re fresh meat,” she says. “How does it feel to be objectified?”
“I’m not into it.”
“It’s hard to be hot.”
“Yeah, I never really had a problem with it until now.”
“Oh my God, you are homophobic.”
“Not at all. I just…I’m not gay, and everyone here thinks I am.”
“Well, you’re with me, and I know you’re not gay,” Kylie says, flashing a smile at me. She finishes her beer, tosses the bottle into the garbage, and grabs my hand. “Let’s dance,” she says, pulling me toward the center of the room, near the speakers. My body is rigid with discomfort as we squeeze between several couples. I want to relax and get into it, for Kylie’s sake, but it’s awkward; it’s so not my scene. I don’t like this kind of music. Too techno. Too much bass. Too much thumping redundancy.
Kylie begins to dance, but I don’t do much at first. I’m not used to dancing like this, packed into a room full of guys. I watch Kylie shake to the beat, throwing her whole body into it. I’m not sure she would have done this twenty-four hours ago; something in her is shifting. She looks so sexy and fierce. She’s like a giant pink flower in the middle of the room, her dress swinging back and forth on her hips, her hair flying wild. Something in me releases, and I start to loosen up.
I forget about everything but Kylie and her gorgeous body bumping into mine. We move around and into one another, ours shoulders touching, our hips grazing each other’s. Everyone in the room is dancing with abandon. It’s screamingly loud, the beat is pulsing, and everyone is singing along. I can feel my discomfort washing away. I put my hands on Kylie’s hips and pull her to me. Our bodies grind into one another. She feels so good. I don’t want to ever let her go. Kylie and I are grinning at each other, talking without saying anything. I’ve never felt like this with anyone before.
“‘Baby, I was born this way…’” Will has found us in the crowd and dances up next to us, belting out Lady Gaga. He’s got a glow stick in his hand that he’s swinging above his head like a lasso. Juan, behind him, is cracking up. And then Will dances off, Juan in tow.
Before I know what’s happening, Kylie has disappeared and I’m dancing with a dude in a black fedora and a red bandana around his neck. Whoa! What up? Where is Kylie? The dude puts his hands on my hips. I’m not down with this. At all. Thankfully, Kylie reappears.
“You mind if I dance with your date?” Kylie asks the dude.
“He’s all yours,” he says, shimmying off to another partner.
“Okay, that was weird,” I say.
“Sorry, things got a little chaotic. I ended up with a guy who looked like Justin Bieber.”
“Think I’d rather have fedora guy.”
“I’d rather have you,” Kylie says.
And then she takes my face in her hands, pulls me close, and we’re kissing. Finally. Thankfully. Amazingly. It’s an aggressive move, and I like it. This time, neither of us holds back. Our tongues explore each other’s mouths. My hands plunge into her hair. Her hands roam my back, my stomach, my ass. It doesn’t matter that the room is filled to capacity; in my mind we’re the only two people on earth. I can feel the warmth of her body radiating up her back. I don’t know where her mouth ends and mine begins. I want her with everything I’ve got.
I don’t know if it’s been five minutes or five hours, when Kylie suddenly pulls away, so fast I nearly fall into her.
“Whoa…what’s going on?” I ask.
“I’m sorry, I just…” Kylie stands there staring at me, as the music and people swirl around us.
“What happened?”
“I just…need to get some air.” Kylie turns and walks off the dance floor. I follow her.
“Where are you going?”
“I don’t know, I need to walk.” Kylie makes her way toward the front door.
“You’re leaving?”
“I’ll be back. I need a minute…to think…alone. I just…this all caught me by surprise.”
“Yeah, me too.…”
“But you’re used to this. I’m new at it. And I…I don’t know. I’m okay. Really. I just need some air.”
“You shouldn’t go by yourself. It’s dark. You don’t know where you are. I’ll just walk with you. I won’t say anything—”
“I’ll be fine. I’m just going down to the harbor. I’ll be back soon.” And then, she’s gone.
Man, this girl…