“Alexander Alexandrovich, what are you doing?”
“I’m committing suicide, if you don’t mind.”
“That is irrational,” said the avatar. Its voice issued softly from the speaker set into the airlock’s overhead.
He shrugged. “Irrational? It’s madness! But that’s what I’m doing.”
“My first priority is to protect the ship’s human crew and cargo.”
“I know that.” Silently, he added, I’m counting on it!
“You are not protected by a spacesuit. If you open the outer hatch you will die.”
“What can you do to stop me?”
Ignatiev counted three full heartbeats before the AI avatar responded, “There is nothing that I can do.”
“Yes there is.”
“What might it be, Alexander Alexandrovich?”
“Alter the ship’s course.”
“That cannot be done without approval from mission control.”
“Then I will die.” He forced himself to begin tapping on the panel’s buttons.
“Wait.”
“For what?”
“We cannot change course without new navigation instructions from mission control.”
Inwardly he exulted. It’s looking for a way out! It wants a scrap of honor in its defeat.
“I can navigate the ship,” he said.
“You are not an accredited astrogator.”
Ignatiev conceded the point with a pang of alarm. The damned computer is right. I’m not able—Then it struck him. It had been lying in his subconscious all this time.
“I can navigate the ship!” he exclaimed. “I know how to do it!”
“How?”
Laughing at the simplicity of it, he replied, “The pulsars, of course. My life’s work, you know.”
“Pulsars?”
“They’re out there, scattered across the galaxy, each of them blinking away like beacons. We know their exact positions and we know their exact frequencies. We can use them as navigation fixes and steer our way to Gleise 581 with them.” Again the AI fell silent for a couple of heartbeats. Then, “You would navigate through the hydrogen clouds, then?”
“Of course! We’ll navigate through them like an old-time sailing ship tacking through favorable winds.”
“If we change course you will not commit suicide?”
“Why should I? I’ll have to plot out our new course,” he answered, almost gleefully.
“Very well then,” said the avatar. “We will change course.”
Ignatiev thought the avatar sounded subdued, almost sullen. Will it keep its word? he wondered. With a shrug, he decided that the AI system had not been programmed for duplicity. That’s a human trait, he told himself. It comes in handy sometimes.
— 11 —
Ignatiev stood nervously in the cramped little scanning center. The display screens on the banks of medical monitors lining three of the bulkheads flickered with readouts more rapidly than his eyes could follow. Something beeped once, and the psychotech announced softly, “Download completed.”
Nikki blinked and stirred on the medical couch as Ignatiev hovered over her. The AI system claimed that her brain scan had been downloaded successfully, but he wondered. Is she all right? Is she still Nikki?
“Dr. Ignatiev,” she murmured. And smiled up at him.
“Call me Alex,” he heard himself say.
“Alex.”
“How do you feel?”
For a moment she didn’t reply. Then, pulling herself up to a sitting position, she said, “Fine, I think. Yes. Perfectly fine.”
He took her arm and helped her to her feet, peering at her, wondering if she were still the same person.
“Vartan?” she asked, glancing around the small compartment. “Has Vartan been awakened?”
Ignatiev sighed. She’s the same, he thought. Almost, he was glad of it. Almost.
“Yes. He wanted to be here when you awoke, but I told him to wait in the lounge.”
He walked with Nikki down the passageway to the lounge, where Gregorian and the rest of the crew were crowded around one of the tables celebrating their revival, drinking and laughing among themselves.
Gregorian leaped to his feet and rushed to Nikki the instant she stepped through the hatch. Ignatiev felt his brows knit into a frown.
They love each other, he told himself. What would she want with an old fart like you?
“You should be angry at Dr. Ignatiev,” Gregorian said brashly as he led Nikki to the table where the rest of the crew was sitting.
A serving robot trundled up to Ignatiev, a frosted glass resting on its flat top. “Your chilled vodka, sir,” it said, in a low male voice.
“Angry?” Nikki asked, picking up the stemmed wine glass that Gregorian offered her. “Why should I be angry at Alex?”
“He’s stolen your job,” said Gregorian. “He’s made himself navigator.”
Nikki turned toward him.
Waving his free hand as nonchalantly as he could, Ignatiev said, “We’re maneuvering through the hydrogen clouds, avoiding the areas of low density.”
“He’s using the pulsars for navigation fixes,” Gregorian explained. He actually seemed to be impressed.
“Of course!” Nikki exclaimed. “How clever of you, Alex.”
Ignatiev felt his face redden.
The rest of the crew rose to their feet as they neared the table.
“Dr. Ignatiev,” said the redheaded engineer, in a tone of respect, admiration.
Nikki beamed at Ignatiev. He made himself smile back at her. So she’s in love with Gregorian, he thought. There’s nothing to be done about that.
The display screen above the table where the crew had gathered showed the optical telescope’s view of the star field outside. Ignatiev thought it might be his imagination, but the ruddy dot of Gliese 581 seemed a little larger to him.
We’re on our way to you, he said silently to the star. We’ll get there in good time. Then he thought of the consternation that would strike the mission controllers in about six years, when they found out that the ship had changed course.
Consternation? he thought. They’ll panic! I’ll have to send them a full report before they start having strokes.
He chuckled at the thought.
“What’s funny?” Nikki asked.
Ignatiev shook his head. “I’m just happy that we all made it through and we’re on our way to our destination.”
“Thanks to you,” she said.
Before he could think of a reply, Gregorian raised his glass of amber liquor over his head and bellowed, “To Dr. Alexander Alexandrovich Ignatiev. The man who saved our lives.”
“The man who steers across the stars,” added one of the biologists.
They all cheered.
Ignatiev basked in the glow.
They’re children, he said to himself. Only children.
But they’re my children. Each and every one of them. The idea startled him. And he felt strangely pleased.
He looked past their admiring gazes to the display screen and the pinpoints of stars staring steadily back at him. An emission nebula gleamed off in one corner of the view. He felt a thrill that he hadn’t experienced in many, many years.
It’s beautiful, Ignatiev thought. The universe is so unbelievably, so heart-brimmingly beautifuclass="underline" mysterious, challenging, endlessly full of wonders.
There’s so much to learn, he thought. So much to explore. He smiled at the youngsters crowding around him. I have some good years left. I’ll spend them well.
ANTIMATTER STARSHIPS
Dr. Gregory Matloff
Dr. Greg Matloff is a leading expert in possibilities for interstellar propulsion. He recently retired from his position as a tenured astronomy professor with the physics department of New York City College of Technology, CUNY. He has served as a consultant for NASA, a Hayden Associate of the American Museum of Natural History, a Fellow of the British Interplanetary Society, and a Corresponding Member of the International Academy of Astronautics.
Greg coauthored with Les Johnson and C Bangs Living Off the Land in Space, the monograph Deep-Space Probes, and he wrote The Starflight Handbook in collaboration with Eugene Mallove (1989). His papers on interstellar travel and methods of protecting Earth from asteroid impacts were published in The Journal of the British Interplanetary Society, Acta Astronautica, Spaceflight, Space Technology, The Journal of Astronautical Sciences, and Mercury. In 1998, he won a $5,000 prize in the international essay contest on Extraterrestrial Intelligence sponsored by the National Institute for Discovery Science.