“You’re right,” he said finally. “We’re not just friends. I want so much more than that.”
He leaned down and softly kissed her on the lips. His hands cupped her face, and she unconsciously leaned into him.
“I want this.”
“Eric,” she whimpered.
His hand went to her heart.
“And this.”
He kissed her again as his hands moved to grab her hips. He pulled her flush against him. “And this.”
Then, his hands climbed up her short skirt as he pushed her back against the door. “And this.”
“St-stop,” she whispered feebly.
“Tell me you don’t want this. I know you do. I can feel it.” His fingers dug into the soft flesh of her inner thigh.
“I do…but…”
He drew circles up her thigh, closer and closer and closer. She closed her legs against him. She couldn’t…
“Why must you fight me?”
“Please,” she whispered as he spread her legs farther apart again.
As his finger trailed along the line of her thong, she wasn’t sure if she was even fighting him anymore.
“Please…” She didn’t know if she was asking him to stop or begging him to keep going.
“I want you, Bri.” His mouth was hot against her throat.
His finger dipped under her thong and pressed against her wet core. She groaned at the feel of him and how riled up she already was.
“I know,” she murmured incoherently.
His touch made her whole body quiver.
“Your body, mind, and soul. Do you want me to take your body?”
She shook her head, but the word that tumbled out of her mouth came as a shock to her, “Yes.”
He sighed with relief, kissed her shoulder, and then took a reluctant step backward.
“Eric?” Her vision seemed to clear all at once. She realized the spell he had cast on her and what she had been about to do. Suddenly she felt cold and empty all over again, trapped in this vortex of lust and sin that she couldn’t escape.
“Then, let me in. Your heart isn’t frozen or black, like you seem to think. You opened it to me before, and I want it again.”
“I can’t,” she said softly, woodenly stuck to the door.
“We’re hanging on the edge. Jump.”
She shook her head. “The problem with jumping is that you’re as likely to end up broken as you are to being saved.”
“Fine,” he said, shaking his head in dismay. “I’d rather take a chance on being broken. I guess you have to make up your mind on what you want.”
He grabbed the door handle, and she moved out of the way. He opened it and left, and she watched his retreating back as he headed down the hallway.
“I already have.”
ERIC WAS A CONSTANT THOUGHT in the back of her mind.
Bryna didn’t know what had happened that night or how she had lost control so easily. That wasn’t supposed to happen. She was trying to move on with her life and make good decisions. But being around him perpetuated the darker side of her personality. She wanted and wanted and wanted when she was with him. She couldn’t get enough, and that was dangerous.
So, she avoided him during games and on the plane for away games and at the hotel and practices and everywhere else she saw him. She knew he was waiting for her to make up her mind, but it was so clear that she had already decided.
She’d chosen Cam. They had gone to lunch a couple of times after class, he’d message her a lot, and they’d chat online. It was real, stable, and normal. She liked where it was going even if they were moving at a glacial pace.
Of course, that was her doing since she had told him he couldn’t come in that first night, and he’d agreed to take things slow. It wasn’t bad. Her body was just on fire.
Cam was coming to the next home game and then they were going out with her friends afterward. She was excited for her friends to finally meet Cam, but she wasn’t sure how she felt about sharing him yet. She had never really dated anyone before who the girls could meet. Another new experience.
The night before the home game, she was lounging around the apartment with Trihn when the doorbell rang. Trihn hopped up and answered it. A minute later, she returned with an envelope.
“Um…this is for you.” She held it close to her chest.
Bryna raised her eyebrows. “Oh, yeah?”
She reached for it, but Trihn kept it away from her.
“It says Westercamp.”
“What?” Bryna asked, suddenly chilled.
“Yeah. It looks official, and a courier delivered it.”
Bryna snatched the envelope from her friend and tore it open. “Oh my God.”
“What?” Trihn asked anxiously.
The check she had left at the WC Resort fell out of the envelope and onto the coffee table in front of them.
“He returned it,” Bryna breathed.
“The check for the house? Oh my God. What are you going to do with it?”
“I…I don’t know. I thought I was doing the right thing by returning it. I never thought he would give it back to me.”
“You were doing the right thing,” Trihn said. She reverently held the check between her hands. “This is an absurd amount of money. You can’t keep it.”
“No. I never intended on keeping it. I just wanted him to know that I didn’t want the money,” she said, still shocked. “Do you think he thought I was throwing it back in his face?” Just the thought of that made her queasy.
“I don’t know,” Trihn said honestly.
“Oh God.” Bryna was horrified.
He couldn’t think that, could he? She hadn’t wanted to hurt him in the first place. She had returned the money for the house as a gesture to show that she had cared about him and that it hadn’t been just about the money. In fact, she didn’t even need the money, and he should have taken it back. The last thing she’d wanted was for him to think that she had sold the house to spite him or something equally horrible.
“It’s okay, B,” Trihn said. “That wasn’t your intention.”
“I know. I know.” She took a deep breath. “I have to figure out how to fix this.”
“You will. We’ll figure it out.”
Bryna nodded. She carefully replaced the check in the envelope and put it in a safe in her room. She didn’t know what she was going to do from here. She had thought she was doing the right thing. Once again, it’d backfired in her face.
Changing into a slip, she crawled into bed and hoped she would dream up a solution.
The next day, Bryna didn’t have an answer, but at least she would have a full day of football to keep her mind occupied. It was a gorgeous day with the sun beating down overhead. Her muscles were strong and ready for the cheers and stunts that were ingrained in her mind. She had a smile plastered on her face as the Gamblers easily whooped their opponent.
Halfway through the game, Coach Galloway pulled out the starters, including Marshall, and Pace went in as quarterback.
Stacia jumped up and down next to Bryna with excitement. “My boyfriend is in as QB!”
“I can see that,” Bryna said dryly.
Her base, Daniel, rolled his eyes, and Bryna fought back laughter.
“Mission complete,” Stacia said.
Bryna shook her head and returned her focus to the game. She hated admitting that Pace looked good out there. She knew from Stacia’s rants and her own general knowledge of Pace that he wasn’t satisfied as the backup. She could see why, too.
Even though Marshall was better, Pace was still really good. He could have been starting at almost every other school, but he had chosen LV State to mess with her. She wondered if he now stayed for Stacia or if he had a bigger agenda she hadn’t yet discerned. Either way, she wasn’t going to let him know that she thought he was good at anything. He had stopped his harassment for the most part, and she wanted to keep it that way.