She went back into the kitchen, washed her hands in the sink. The slice was untouched in front of him.
“So where’s Lee-Anne tonight?” she said.
“I don’t know. Home, I guess.”
She dried her hands on a dish towel, turned to him. “How come you’re not there?”
He shrugged, rocking on the chair, all his weight on the back legs.
“Don’t do that,” she sat. “It’s bad for the chair.”
“Sorry. I forgot.”
He sat forward, let the front legs touch down. “I’ll clean up,” he said. He put the uneaten slice back in the box, got up and gathered the paper plates and napkins, put them in the trash can beneath the sink.
She went into the living room, looked through the blinds. His truck was parked down the street in the shadow of a willow tree.
She heard water go on in the kitchen, then shut off, heard his footsteps. She didn’t turn. She felt him come up behind her, smelled his cologne, let him slip his arms around her waist, pull her tight.
She closed her eyes. His face was buried in her hair, his chin on her shoulder. She knew his eyes would be closed. She felt his arms around her, strong but gentle, put her hands over his, fingered the thick veins, the knobby knuckles. A worker’s hands. A man’s hands.
He kissed the back of her neck, and she felt goose bumps rise, tilted her head to give him better access. What are you doing? Why are you letting this happen?
She pushed back against him, felt his hardness through the jeans. His lips explored the side of her neck, the hollow behind her ear. She reached back, felt his thickness straining against the material, the shape of him. He sighed softly and his hands came up, cupped her breasts through her sweatshirt. She was braless and her nipples responded, hard to his touch.
He turned her and she let him, eyes still closed. His lips brushed hers and she looked at him then, into those slate gray eyes, the question there. She lifted her lips to his in answer. He kissed her hard and she let his tongue into her mouth, felt his hands slide down her back, cup her buttocks. She closed her eyes as they kissed, let him guide her away from the window.
The backs of her legs were against the couch when he broke off the kiss, looked at her. She didn’t turn away. His hands began to work at the drawstring of her sweatpants. She helped him, felt the pants sag around her hips. Then she was sitting on the couch and he was kneeling on the carpet, tugging the pants down her legs, exposing the gray Jockey panties she wore beneath. He slipped her right sneaker off, freed the pants leg. She lifted her foot to help him.
He kissed the inside of her bare calf, flicked his tongue behind her knee. She was wet and ready, knew he could tell. He kissed his way higher, then stopped and looked at her, cocked an eyebrow. She nodded and he reached up, caught the elastic of her panties and pulled in opposite directions. They tore almost soundlessly, and she felt the cool air against her wetness.
She put her hands on the back of his head, her fingers in his soft hair, and closed her eyes.
They lay in darkness, the central air whispering around them. He was propped up on two pillows, his left arm curled around her shoulders. She was looking at the ceiling.
“Hey,” he said. “You all right?”
She eased out from under his arm. He watched as she got up and took her robe from the back of the door. She pulled it on, pushed her hair free of the collar, tied the belt, felt his eyes on her.
“Be right back,” she said. She went out into the hall, listening. Danny’s door was as she’d left it. She stepped closer, paused, could hear his breathing.
She went into the bathroom, closed the door, and turned on the light. She looked at herself in the mirror. Why did you let that happen? Are you so lonely and horny that you forgot everything you know? Everything you learned the hard way?
She sat and urinated, then washed her hands and face in the sink. She could smell the musk of sex on her body. She flipped the light off, went back to the bedroom, pushing the door shut against the resistance of the carpet.
He moved aside to give her room. She lay beside him with her robe on, felt his arm curl around her, pull her close.
“Been a while for you, hadn’t it?” he said.
“Why do you say that?”
“I can just tell, that’s all.” He kissed the top of her head.
She laid her head on his chest, could feel the beating of his heart through muscle and skin.
“You want another beer?” he said. “Some water?”
She shook her head, put a hand on his stomach, felt the muscles there.
“I was surprised to see you the other night,” he said. “At Tiger’s.”
“I saw your truck, figured I’d go in for a drink, say hello. I should have known better.”
“I saw you talking to Elwood.”
“Yeah, he wanted to shoot pool.”
“That all?”
“What do you mean?”
“That all he wanted?”
She lifted her head from his chest, looked up at him.
“Yes,” she said. “And that’s what we did.”
He stroked her hair.
“Hammond talk to you again?” he said.
“About what? He talks to me almost every day.”
“About me.”
“Nothing I haven’t already told you,” she said and felt guilty for the lie. “Do we have to discuss this now?”
“Just wondering.” He rubbed her back through the robe. “Sometimes it feels like they’re telling me one thing but thinking another.”
“Who?”
“The sheriff. Elwood. You.”
His hand slid down to the belt knot, played with it, drew on it until it was loose.
“I just don’t want to get blindsided by anything,” he said. She felt his warm hand on her bare stomach. It crept up, cupped her left breast. His thumb found her nipple, and it grew hard under his touch.
“If there was something else going on,” he said. “If they were trying to nail me to the wall, and you knew about it, you’d tell me, right?”
“Is that why you’re here?”
“No, of course not.” His hand slid to her other breast. “I came here to see you.”
She caught his hand, took it out of her robe.
“What’s wrong?” he said.
She sat up, pulled the robe tight, knotted the belt.
“I’m sorry,” he said. He touched her hair. “Don’t get up.”
“You need to get dressed,” she said. Her feet found the floor.
“Come on. Don’t be like that.”
She got up, went to the window, looked out. It was raining, drops spotting the glass. Low thunder in the distance.
“Sara,” he said.
She didn’t turn.
“I shot that boy because he drew down on me. You know that. You were there.”
She didn’t respond.
“He was a bad guy, Sara. I’m lucky he didn’t nail me first. It could have been me laying in that ditch.”
“That sounds practiced,” she said without turning.
“Sara, you know the way I feel about you. And I know the way you feel about me.”
“Do you?”
“I used to, at least.” She heard him get out of bed, his footsteps on the carpet. The rain was picking up, blowing against the window.
She felt him behind her. He pushed her hair aside, kissed her neck.
“Get dressed, Billy,” she said.
He drew his lips away. “We were always good together, Sara. We could be that way again.”
She turned, met his eyes. He was watching her, waiting.
“Hey,” he said softly. “There’s no reason to cry.” He reached as if to brush her tears away. She stopped his hand an inch from her face.
“Please. Go.”
He took his hand away.
“So that’s the way we are,” he said.
She didn’t answer.
He went back to the bed, found his jeans and T-shirt on the floor.
“Thanks for your support,” he said.
He pulled the jeans on, sat on the edge of the bed, reached for his boots. She looked back out the window.