Annie’s listening now.
Kathy lays back in her chair, closes her eyes and snuggles into her blanket, like she’s ’sleep. Annie sips her tea.
With her eyes still closed, Kathy say, “Must’ve been hard running a place like this all on your lonesome, without a man’s hand.”
“I managed well,” Annie say. “While I waited for Richard, my husband, to come home, I did just fine.”
“Not what I heard. Richard said you was bringing niggers in the house like family. Your hand, Nelson, told Richard this morning. Said it was over his objections. And it was why you fired him.”
“That so?” Annie say.
Kathy leans over and whispers, “I thought you should know Richard hired Nelson back.”
The porch door opens and Richard comes through it. “Are you all right out here, Katherine?”
“Fine, Richard. Fine,” she say, waving him away.
“Annie?” he says. He and Annie hold a friendly gaze. She’s the first to turn away. “Well, when you’re done out here, Katherine, please join me in my study.”
Kathy nods as he closes the door. She say, “Some people say I talk too much. .”
“‘Silence is golden,’” Annie say. “It’s what the Chinese believe.”
“Then I reckon they don’t have bats in China. In Mis’sippi, silence means a dead bat. Bats are blind, see. A bat has to make noise and send it out, so when the noise bounce back, it knows what’s in front of it, what it’s dealing with.” Kathy stretches her arms. “Besides that, bats keep the mosquitoes away.”
“How old are you again?”
“Twenty-one come my birthday.”
“A baby,” Annie say.
“Same age as when Richard married you.”
“A child.”
“Worse mistake of his life, he said, on the account you couldn’t have babies. He’ll have his first Graham soon. Be happy when this one comes.” Kathy rubs her belly.
Bessie comes back through the door and picks up Annie’s empty cup. “Another, Missus Graham?”
“Two,” Annie say.
Kathy watches Bessie as she ambles back inside. “Savages, they are.”
“Or people.”
“A dirty subject,” Kathy say, resting back in her seat. “Hard to even trust ’em with tea. I wish we could find a way to get rid of ’em without war. Cutthroat abolitionists push the issue. I may not know everything, but I know they cain’t free such a people in our midst. Richard understands the order of things. He’d never trust ’em the way you do. They’re disgusting, they are. I once saw one of their babies playing in muddy water. Like a giant earthworm, it was. Rolling around, brown and slimy and. .”
“Maybe you’re right,” Annie say. “Maybe you don’t know everything. Even things you should.”
There are secrets, it’s true. Like the ones between Annie and Richard that Kathy’ll never know. Some matters are so private between couples that even the bitter end of love won’t give ’em away. Little pieces that meant something once and nothing now. And one of theirs is the accident. Another is Josey.
Josey had just turned one year old the day it happened. That day she was having her birthday party. I had been watching Annie make her house pretty. She hung streamers from ceilings and gathered pins for the paper donkeys she’d stuck to the walls. There was cake and cookies. Lemonade and a beef was killed. But she wouldn’t start the party ’til Richard arrived.
According to witnesses, he’d been speeding in his carriage that afternoon. His horse was out of control and Richard’s face and body was seized. The animal was killed after plowing the cart into a tree. Charles was the first one to come running. Found Richard thrown from the wreckage, face down in the creek, drowning in two inches of water, his leg gashed open, his speech was slurring after he coughed out water. Paralyzed from a stroke is what the doctor later said. He might not make it, he feared.
Charles carried him over his shoulder that day, back to the house, and into his bed. Told Annie he thought Richard mighta had too much to drink. But Doctor said Richard had bleeding on the brain and the same could happen again at any time. It was lucky Charles got him when he did.
Richard lost his memory for a while, everything he knew before the accident. He didn’t recognize most everybody including Josey, who he once loved. He wouldn’t let no one come near him except for Charles. He thought the doctor was trying to steal his money. Annie, too. He wouldn’t talk to neither one of ’em unless Charles — the man who saved him — was present.
Charles was the only one Richard let care for him and Charles became a blacksmith turned nurse and Charles did his job with the most care, everything with great patience and concern — the wound care, the measuring out of medicine. He helped Richard walk again.
Charles earned Richard’s trust, never asking for nothing for hisself in return, only that Mr. Graham would learn to love Josey and his wife again, the way he did before the accident.
Eight months later, when Richard decided he was leaving from the prison Annie made of their house — against doctor’s orders — and said he was recovered, he gave Charles larger living quarters, nice shirts, trousers, and a thank you. And when he discovered that his adopted daughter, a stranger to him now, was negro, he gave her to Charles, too. Told everybody else his precious child died. So after the funeral, the deed was done.
See, some secrets are worth holding onto. And Annie seem secretly proud that Richard hadn’t given that one to Kathy. Had she been told, Kathy would have known her baby wasn’t the first. Josey was.
“ANNIE?” KATHY SAY. “You mind me calling you Annie? You feel like a mother to me. Really. I’m out here on my own, and you’re treating me as if I belong. Can I ask you a question, Annie? Did Richard leave you ’cause you couldn’t have babies or ’cause you’re old? Don’t get me wrong. You’re pretty, I guess. But I wonder if what my grandmama say is true. That men don’t want to die next to an old woman and that young widows are happiest of all. You reckon that’s true?”
“Sweet Kathy,” Annie say. “Maybe your question should instead be, ‘How do I keep my baby from being a bastard?’ What did your grandmama say about that?”
Kathy grips her armrest. Quiet finally. A look of anger washes over her face, then the weight of worry. A sadness. Her spine curves behind her belly as she sinks in her seat. She whispers, “I didn’t know he was married, you know. Those damned Yankees are murdering us in cold blood, taking our property because we own slaves. All that’s left out there are cowards and liars. Same thing, maybe. I wanted to be the wife of a military man. The wife of a brave man.
“Far as I’m concerned,” Kathy say, “Richard shoulda went to the war, gimp or not. Done anything he could to help on the front lines even if that meant cooking for those brave men, one of the good men my baby deserves to have as a father. I deserve a nest for us. A safe place to raise my family. We’re women. We need for this war to be over.”
“Is that why you came here?” Annie say. “To take my property?”
“We can’t survive in this world alone,” Kathy say.
“Then your grandmama should have told you. Whores survive. Women live.”
25 / FLASH, Conyers, Georgia, 1847
CYNTHIA SITS OUTSIDE on her porch fanning herself while the heat ripples the air near the ground like a clear running stream with no bottom. I bring her a drink, spill a little in the doorway.
“What’s wrong wit’cha?” Cynthia say.
“Just hot, is all.”
Truth is, I cain’t stop thinking about Jeremy. Last night, I snuck out after Cynthia fell asleep drunk. Walked a quarter mile down the road in the dark, trying to talk myself out of turning around, going home. We had tried intercourse twice before and failed. It hurt too bad and the pain lasted too long. Don’t make sense to my body to allow a hole to be dug where there weren’t one. So we laid next to each other with all our desire and no follow through. Not ’til last night.