Gravity Dreams
L. E. Modesitt, Jr.
An Orbit Book
First published in Great Britain by Orbit 2000
Copyright © 1999 by L. E. Modesitt, Jr.
ISBN 1 85723 974 1
To Carol Ann, who taught me that honesty is more than accuracy in words
FIRST LOVE, FIRST KNOWLEDGE, FIRST SORROW
1
To that which is born, death is certain; to that which is dead, birth is certain.
My eyes flashed to the rain-swollen stream, and then to the swirl of water that geysered out of the gray rocks of the defile. Heavy clouds melded with the granite to the north. Mist droplets clung to my hair, and water seeped down my neck and back. Sweat and fear enveloped me, a combined odor that the rain could not wash away, that would guide my pursuers through the ancient trees to me.
'The Demons' Caldron.' The words mumbled from my chilled and chapped lips, and I looked eastward, seeing again the cart road.
A thousand meters or so to the right was the cart path that headed northward toward Rykasha and the Demons' Niche - one thousand, seven hundred and ten point four meters jumped into my thoughts, reminding me again of the demon I had become or was fast becoming. The paved path followed the once-larger road of the ancients, or so the maps showed, although it supposedly ended short of the boundary markers, and only a trail continued north into Rykasha.
I shook my head. Too close by far. I had thought I had been jogging farther westward, moving away from that serviceway, but my feet had betrayed me and carried me gradually downhill and back toward the gliders that tracked me. Back toward Foerga?
My eyes burned, and I shook my head. Poor Foerga, linked to a man who had become a demon, yet still loving him to the end, against the tenets of Dorcha, against the Townkeeper and the Shraddans. Against the Shraddans I had trusted and upheld in all my teachings of Dzin.
Underfoot the ground grew hard, with the ancient pavement that still endured around the Caldron. My stomach growled, a reminder that I had gone through all the food in the rucksack I had discarded kilos behind me, enough food for a normal man for weeks. It had scarcely lasted days for me.
An image of a vast glowing ball of light - an intense, yet peaceful, spinning pinwheel - rose before my eyes, and the grayness and the rain vanished for a moment. Just as suddenly, the image vanished, and I shook my head as I beheld the darkness of firs and rain-damped oak and maple trunks, and rain.
Rain ... the mist was turning into rain, and I had no time to think about mysterious balls of light appearing. I forced my eyes back to the wet and gray granite and the twisted trees before me. From the Caldron, the green-and-white stream water swirled up in a foaming cascade, then subsided. I paused and took a deep breath.
Whrrrrr ...
A glow of silver flashed through the trees to my right, the silver teardrop shape of a rough terrain glider - one with self-induction risers. I turned away from the stream and the Caldron and sprinted uphill.
The rain burst down in gusted waves interspersed with the near-continual rumbling of thunder, as I ran westward and then neared the crest of the first low rise, northward, trying to keep an even pace ahead of the gliders and the grim-faced Shraddans they contained.
So long as they could not get in front of me before I reached the border ... I had to reach the border, if only for Foerga's sake.
The ground rose and smote me, doubtless because I had been thinking more of geography than where my feet should go.
I staggered up, ignoring the line of fire across my forearm, the blood that mixed with rain, and dull aches too numerous to count. Then I had to bend and untangle the boot laces from the root that had tripped me, retying them before straightening. The mustiness of damp leaves and mud filled my nostrils.
Two more gliders whirred out of the mist and over the stream south of the Caldron and began to climb the low hill.
I began to run once more, tired as I was, running like a hare compared to how I had once run, even in my younger years.
Benefits of becoming a demon ...
The hill and granite outcroppings seemed to slow the Shraddans and their gliders, and the whining and whirring faded. Faded but did not disappear, lingering in my hearing, lingering in too many perceptions that had become too acute.
I slowed to a jog, insisting that one foot follow the other, then lead the other - any sort of mental imagery to keep moving, keep ahead of the Shraddans and what they wanted to do to me.
Lines of golden red fire filled the skies like arches holding back the depth of the void beyond the planet. That sky was not purple, nor blue, but nielle, blackness beyond black, with stars that jabbed like knives of light. I shook my head, concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other, and the vision vanished.
Some time later, when my legs ached into cramping, my lungs heaved, burning so that I could barely breathe, I lurched to a halt beside the dark-trunked fir. For a moment, all I could do was pant, although I tried to force deeper breathing.
Before I had taken much more than a dozen breaths, the silver teardrop shape of the first rough terrain glider loomed out of the rain to the east, whining and groaning as it forced its way through the undergrowth, not dodging bushes as I had done, but still weaving to avoid the man-thick pine and hardwood trunks.
With a gasp that was half sob, I dodged uphill around an outcrop of rain-stained rocks and back into the darkwood forest, forcing my legs, gasping for air, ignoring the agony that stabbed through my lungs with each breath.
Anything was better than starving in a stone cage. Than dying quickly by slow grams entombed in immovable stone. But I wasn't supposed to die. I couldn't let them kill me ... not after everything that had occurred.
I pushed my body, using every Dzin technique I had ever learned. Once more, the whining and whirring faded to the edge of consciousness as I plunged northward, knowing another set of gliders followed the road to the east, ready to slide in front of me should I falter.
Did they wish to capture me? Or just drive me out of Dorcha?
Containment pattern, ninety-nine percent probability ... Was that the demon, or was the demon liberating my own demons?
Having no answers, no time for answers, I avoided the berry patches, but even the other bushes ripped at my already-rent gown, and my boots skidded across clay and damp leaves and slick needles.
How had it all happened?
Less than a month earlier, I'd been a respected master of Dzin in Hybra. A low-level master tasked to educate the children of the town, but a master. Not quite a decade earlier, I'd been a candidate scholar in Henvor, learning the way of Dzin, learning the very skills that had stabilized the world and reclaimed it from the unbridled selfishness and chaos of the demons.
Now I was being hunted ... as a demon ... as an outcast and hated remnant of a despicable past forced on today's world by the unspeakable depravity of the ancients.
I slowed somewhat on a level stretch, a trail carpeted in rain-slicked needles, trying to catch my breath, to let jarred shins and fatigued muscles recuperate ever so slightly.
Me? A demon? Because I suddenly could think more clearly, run more quickly?
The long baying of a hound to the right spurred my flagging steps. Hounds were not used for herding and containment. Hounds were for the kill.
The blood on scratched arms forgotten, the cramps in over-strained legs ignored, I stepped up my pace, continuing to run up a gradual incline through the hills that never seemed to end.