He was squatting on the ground, beside the dry pit of the septic tank and the heap of dug-out earth, looking at the earth and not the face, and not seeing the earth. He saw a day of sun at the beach, sea and sky bright beyond the coconut grove, the girl bleeding on the fender of the car, accepting water from his cupped hands, and love coming to her frightened eyes. But the eyes below him were closed. They knew nothing; they acknowledged nothing; they had taken away everything with them. He entered a void; he disappeared in that void.
Then he was lost, lost since the beginning of time. But time had no beginning. And he was disembodied. He was nothing more than this sense of loss that grew deeper and deeper as he awakened to it; he would have liked to scream, for the relief. The world cleared up, time defined itself. He was himself, in a stone room, full of incense, with stone coffins on stone shelves, where dead women lay without being dead among white lilies. A woman sat up in her stone coffin; the lilies tumbled off her. She was Sudanese, like those he had seen in London: he could tell from her fine white cotton dress, her pallid brown skin and the healed slashes on her cheeks. She had the wanton face, the leer, the degraded mouth of a French prostitute he had seen in a pornographic photograph at school, sitting clothed but with her skirt pulled up, her legs open, her great hairiness exposed. She sat up in her roughly chiseled coffin, leering, the lilies falling off her, and she said, holding out her hand, “Nigger, give me a dollar.”
So that even here, though he had been lost since the beginning of time, though he was lost in time itself, and didn’t know who or what he was, he was betrayed, his secret known.
The secret recalled him to himself, and his desolation was complete. He was squatting beside the girl on the edge of the dry pit, its crumbling walls still carrying fork marks, and Bryant, the cutlass in his hand, was crying, like a man who at any moment was going to scream.
“Jimmy, Jimmy.”
He stood up and held Bryant by the arm. He said, “Bryant!”
“Jimmy, Jimmy.”
“In here, Bryant.”
“In the latrine, Jimmy.”
“No. The corbeaux will come.”
And Bryant looked up with Jimmy at the pale sky.
They put her in the pit, with her dead hair, still loose where it was not stained and stiff, with her necklaces, her open bag. The heaped-up earth beside the pit, dug out weeks before, had settled and seemed hard; but it broke up and crumbled at a touch, red-brown below the straw-colored, powdery crust. At first with their hands and feet alone, then with concrete blocks, then with a spade, they broke up the earth and shoveled it in, until there was nothing to be seen; and there remained only dust and labor, burning faces and arms, sweat and the stinging sun.
Far away, from the road, it seemed, there came the sound of whistling. No recognizable tune, and it stopped almost as soon as they heard it.
They looked up at the sky: it was empty.
Then the whistling came again, closer. Bryant looked at Jimmy. Jimmy said, “Bryant.” Bryant ran for his cutlass. Jimmy said, “Bryant!” And this time Bryant obeyed. He began to do what he saw Jimmy doing: rubbing clods of red-brown earth on his trousers and shirt. Jimmy undid the buttons of his Mao shirt, and the two men, Bryant with his cutlass, walked to the back door of the main building, into sudden shade.
A young man was coming up to the building from the road. He was small, his blue shirt slack and bulging above his tight striped brown trousers. He was wearing white-rimmed shades; his shoes, too tight for him, gave him a dainty walk; a white airlines bag hung from his shoulder.
Bryant said, “Mannie.”
Jimmy said, “Nowhere to go. They’ll start coming back. All of them. But it’s too late.”
“Jimmy, Jimmy.”
“It’s too late for them now.”
“Let me take him out, Jimmy. Let me take him out!”
Jimmy didn’t reply. He went into the building and walked halfway down between the empty beds. Bryant remained in the back doorway.
Mannie came in out of the sun. He took off his white-rimmed shades: his nose was shining and there was sweat all over his face. He looked at Jimmy and said shyly, “Mr. Ahmed,” and looked down. His small black shoes were extravagantly pointed; the points tilted up, the heels were worn. He went to his old bed and sat on the edge of the bare mattress, with his back to Jimmy and Bryant. He opened the airlines bag and began taking out small green tomatoes and laying them on the concrete floor.
Bryant said from the back doorway, “Let me take him out, Jimmy.”
Mannie didn’t turn.
Jimmy sat on one of the empty beds and said, “Mannie.”
Mannie turned. “Yes, Mr. Ahmed?”
“You come back?”
“I walk down from the highway, Mr. Ahmed.”
“That’s a long walk for a hot day. We’ve been working.”
“Mr. Ahmed.”
“And now you come back. And you start picking my tomatoes.”
Mannie’s face went small and closed. Little beads of sweat began to grow on his shiny nose.
Jimmy stood up. He slapped his hand hard on his right trouser pocket and said, “Mannie!”
Mannie stood up. The corners of his eyes were red.
“I lose my pen, Mannie.”
“Mr. Ahmed.”
“My red biro. Yellow with a red cap. I think I drop it outside somewhere. I don’t want to lose it. Go and look for it for me.”
Mannie came out into the aisle. He hesitated there. He looked at the bright front door. Then he began to walk slowly toward Jimmy, Bryant, and the back door.
Jimmy said, “Go and look by the septic tank.”
Mannie walked daintily in his tight shoes, his buttocks high and hard in his tight trousers, his loosened handkerchief bulging in his hip pocket, with one corner hanging out.
Jimmy said, “I don’t want to lose that pen, Mannie.”
Jimmy sat on another bed. Bryant remained standing in the doorway.
After some time they heard light steps. They saw Mannie. As soon as he saw them he stopped, about five or six feet away from the back door. There was dust in his hair; his blue shirt was dark with sweat around the collar and below the arms; dust discolored his trousers from the knees down.
Jimmy said, “Mannie.”
“Sorry, Mr. Ahmed.”
“You didn’t see anything?”
“No, Mr. Ahmed.”
Jimmy said, “Lie down, Bryant. Take a rest. Come in, nuh, Mannie.”
Mannie came in, his sweated face tight, his eyes burning, his walk still dainty.
Jimmy said, “But you spoil all your pretty clothes, Mannie.”
Mannie didn’t seem to hear. He went to his bed and, not dusting his hair or trousers or hands, sat on the mattress. He looked down at the concrete floor and his eyes began to water.
Jimmy said, “We’re all tired. We all have to rest. But what about you, Mannie? Where you going to go? No food here now. The Grange is closed.”
Mannie, his eyes still watering, didn’t turn.
Bryant got up from the bed nearest the back door. He said, “Somebody coming.”
Jimmy, going to the wall and tiptoeing to look through the louvers, saw the car far away on the road, beyond the last cleared field. There was dazzle on the bonnet, but the windscreen was in shadow and the driver could not be seen.
Jimmy said, “Lie down, Bryant. Save your strength. Mannie, I’m going to clean up.”
He went out through the back door. Bryant put his cutlass on the concrete floor between the wall and his bed and lay down flat on the bare mattress. The coconut-fiber filling bristled through the ticking. Bryant looked up at the corrugated-iron roof, so new still, with the cockerel emblem and the name of the manufacturers, far away in Canada, stenciled in blue.