Qhora sighed for the tenth time.
“Trouble sleeping?” a woman asked.
The nun again.
Qhora swallowed. “Enzo always said you had a bad habit of appearing behind him, back before you were trapped in the medallion. He said you scared him half to death, popping up behind his back in the dark with no warning. I hope you don’t plan on doing the same to me, Sister.” She rolled over and looked at her visitor.
Sister Ariel stood at arm’s length, her hands folded demurely in front of her, her dress and habit as immaculate in death as it had been in life. “I’ve been afraid for you nearly every minute of the last two days, Dona Qhora. Hm. And I thought Lorenzo was reckless. He gave me more than a few frights over the years, but he was only as reckless as a little boy who refuses to believe he can be hurt. You, on the other hand, are an entirely different sort of lunatic. Charging in blindly, surrendering to your enemies, leaping into the darkness.” The ghost stepped closer. “I’m scared for you, Qhora. And I’m scared for your son.”
“I know.” Qhora lay flat on her back and stared up at the cobwebbed ceiling of the cellar. She wrapped her fingers around Enzo’s old triquetra medallion on her chest. Its warmth sank softly into her flesh. “So am I.”
“Did you mean what you said before?” Ariel asked. “That you no longer want to find Lorenzo’s killer? That you’re ready to go home?”
Qhora nodded. “Yes. I miss my baby. And that old man was right. Javier will need a father. A living father. And one day I may even be ready to take another husband.” She paused. “I can’t imagine that. Even now, when I think about going back to Madrid, I keep thinking that Enzo will be there, as always. And now…I can’t remember the last time we didn’t spend the night together. Not since Cartagena. I think we’ve spent every single night together. Except for this one. And last night. Two nights without him. Tomorrow will be another, I suppose.”
Ariel nodded. “There were others, you know. There was a certain evening in a jail cell in Zaragoza, for one.”
Qhora glared across the room at Salvator’s sleeping form.
I can’t believe I’d already forgotten that.
Then she looked away. “I was stupid,” she said. “I was angry, and that made me stupid. I gave Javier to Alonso and just left them behind so I could kill some filthy idiot. And now I might die before I see my baby again. Mirari might never see Alonso again. Taziri might never see her family again. Even Tycho lost his foster father because of me. Because I was angry and stupid.”
“That’s hardly fair. Philo was killed by men. It was their fault, not yours,” Ariel said. “So what will you do now?”
Qhora yawned. “In the morning, we’ll find the others and go home. And then when we’re safely home, maybe I can hire someone to find this Aker El Deeb and his sword. I don’t know about that part yet. I can’t save Enzo. But I can still save everyone else. So I will.”
“I’m glad to hear it,” the ghost said. “And Lorenzo would have been glad to hear it, too.”
Qhora nodded. She felt the slight rise in temperature that signaled the ghost’s departure and she closed her eyes and slept.
Chapter 24. Taziri
“No, we’re not going to build anything tonight. It’s already way past my bed time,” Taziri said. She lifted up a few loose boards in the rubbish pile to peer at the older trash underneath the newer trash, but the pale starlight didn’t reveal anything useful. She let it all fall back down to the ground again. “Let’s just try to scrounge up some materials while everyone with an ounce of sense is asleep, and then we’ll pick things up in the morning where we left off.”
Bastet sighed. The girl with the cat mask on her head hadn’t actually been helping so much as just following and talking. “So what exactly are we scrounging for?”
“A cowl and a hose.”
“What’s a cowl?”
Taziri paused, balancing precariously on top of the wobbly trash pile at the end of the alley. “It’s like a funnel, but we need it to fit over the entire propeller assembly. Like a hood. It could be metal, or wood, or sealed leather or even canvas.”
“Oh.” The girl stood well away from the trash and walked up and down a long crack in the bricks in the ground, balancing with her arms as though on a high wire. “Did you always want to be an engineer?”
“I think so, yeah.” Taziri continued flipping through the loose bits of wicker and moldy fabric. “I always liked building things. I spent a lot of time in my mother’s shop. She was a seamstress, and she had one of the first mechanical sewing machines in Tingis. One night when I was about nine, I snuck into the shop and opened up the sewing machine to look inside it. I didn’t take it apart or anything, but for a whole week I would go downstairs to look at the parts and make little drawings, trying to figure out how it worked.” She smiled as she pictured the crude pencil drawings that had made her mother so proud. “What about you? What do you want to be when you grow up?”
“I used to want to be a princess,” Bastet said. “My aunt said that was silly, but I still want to be one. To wear the dresses and the jewels, and to have parties and music and feasts. To have a thousand friends. I’ve seen princesses, so I know all about them. It’s so much better than being a stupid goddess.”
Taziri slipped and fell knee-deep into a pile of prickly broken baskets. She twisted around to look at the girl. “I’m sorry. Did you say goddess?”
The girl shrugged her thin shoulders. “I mean, I know we’re not real goddesses, but it amounts to the same thing in the end. Not that it matters anymore. We have to live in the undercity now where no one ever goes, so no one even knows we exist anymore.”
“Wait, wait, wait.” Taziri pulled her leg free and climbed down off the rubbish heap. “Go back. Now, when you say goddess, you mean…?”
Bastet raised an eyebrow. “You know, goddess. Immortal. Divine. Holy. Magical. You know, you’ve seen me.”
Taziri made several thoughtful faces as she tried to frame her answer as diplomatically as possible. “I’ve seen you move through a cloud of aether, that’s true. But I’ve been to the north where it’s so cold that the aether pools in every hole in the ground and ghosts are as common as sneezing. I’ve even seen a demonic ghost called a water-woman.”
“Oh? What was she like?”
“I didn’t really get to talk to her. She turned into a flock of ravens and attacked my friend, so I shot her.” Taziri absently rubbed the medical brace under her left sleeve. “Bastet, tell me, are you a ghost? Are you dead?”
The girl laughed. “No, I’m not dead. I can’t die.” She tapped the little golden heart pendant on her chest. “I told you, my grandfather made these for everyone in my family. They’re made from sun-steel. This holds a piece of my soul, but just a piece. Not the whole thing, of course. Dividing the soul creates an immortal bond between the flesh and the steel. So as long as the steel exists, so do I. And with my soul permanently stretched through the aether between my body and this little gem, I can do all sorts of things with the aether, like move through it.”
Taziri nodded along slowly. “Okay. I think I follow all that. Divided soul. Immortality. So, how old are you exactly?”
“I don’t know.” Bastet pouted. “Four thousand, I think. I stopped counting when I got to two hundred. Birthdays really stop being important after a while.”
“Four thousand?” Taziri leaned against the wall of the alley. “And you don’t age, or get sick, or anything?”
“Nope.”
“Doesn’t sound too bad.”
The girl grinned. “It’s not awful. Plus I have all the cats a girl could want to boss around.” As if in answer, a pair of gray and white cats sauntered into the entrance of the alleyway. The girl rolled her eyes. “Not now.” The cats left.