“Don’t make me say things I don’t mean.”
“Remember what we talked about in San Francisco? About letting things go? Apologizing to her will keep her out of your hair.”
“I don’t care.”
“Drea, she took us into her home, and she didn’t have to. Do you understand that? She’s tough to be around, yes. But right now, she’s all we have.”
I understood why I was supposed to appreciate Grandma. And I did—a little bit. But it didn’t mean she could force me to do things. “Fine, I’ll do it. For you.”
“Thank you.”
“But I’m not vacuuming. I can’t. It hurts.”
She sighed. “Okay, I’ll talk to her. But you have to finish the rest of your chores.” She held up my phone. “Then you’ll get this back.”
Grandma ignored me when I walked into the kitchen. That’s how I knew she was really angry. She almost always had something to say.
I focused on the beige tile below my feet. Pale brown lines carved out triangles and squares. “I’m sorry I said that to you. I appreciate you letting us stay here.”
She nodded but kept her eyes on the television. Her shoulders were hunched, and her mouth turned down at the corners.
I waited for a few moments. Nothing. She didn’t even look in my direction. It made my stomach hurt. “I said I was sorry.”
“I heard you,” she said, still not looking at me.
“Okay.” I turned around and left to clean the bathroom.
My day didn’t get much better when Naomi finally showed up. She insisted on dragging me to the mall with her, which was as bad as Grandma making me scrub the bathtub three times—if not worse.
“I hate malls,” I said, avoiding eye contact with the hordes of people walking in the opposite direction. All the faces and chatter made me dizzy.
Whoever came up with the idea of food courts needed their head examined. The smell of sugary dough did not mesh with teriyaki sauce. Add cheap tomato sauce to the mix, and it had the same effect as ipecac.
“Scott wants to hang out tonight. I need something sexy to wear.”
“What about painting and the movie?”
Naomi rolled her eyes. “It’s only five thirty. Scott isn’t coming to get us until at least eleven or midnight.”
“Us?”
She grabbed my arm, pulling me close. “Yep. He’s racing tonight.”
“Racing?”
She let me go and bit her lip. “You’ll see. There will be lots of hotties there.”
“I’d rather just stay home like we’d planned.”
“What? And do each other’s makeup and hair all night? God, Drea, I was only kidding about the slumber-party thing. We aren’t ten.”
A lump formed in my throat as I followed her into a store filled with fancy underwear, bras, and lingerie.
“I know you think he’s this big jerk,” Naomi said. “You know how guys are, though—they talk like pigs to each other, but they don’t mean anything by it.” She rummaged through the piles of underwear, plucking out a lacy red pair. “Justin might like these.” She thrust them into my chest, grinning.
I dropped them back into the pile. “Well, I don’t like them.”
Naomi tore a silky black slip from a hanger and held it against her body, fingering the plastic security tag. “What do you think? Pair it with some thigh highs maybe?”
I checked the price. “It’s almost fifty dollars.”
She leaned into my ear. Her breath smelled like mint gum and cigarettes. “No worries—they’ve got the cheap non-ink security tags here. Easy to remove.”
“Can I help you ladies with anything?” a girl with bleached teeth asked. She eyed Naomi from head to toe, pausing on her baggy jeans.
Naomi grabbed a pink gauzy thing and what looked like a doll gown off the rack. “Yeah, can you start a fitting room for us?” She handed the garments over to the clerk.
“Certainly—two rooms?”
“We can share,” Naomi said.
The girl scanned me up and down before flashing a quick smile. “Let me know if you need anything else.” She walked away.
“Okay, bitch,” Naomi whispered. “Did you see the way she looked at us? It’s why I don’t feel bad ripping them off.” She glanced at the other clerk before stuffing the black slip down her jeans. “I just wish this place was busier. It usually is on Saturdays.”
“What are you doing?”
“Shhh.” She looked over her shoulder before cramming a white lacy slip down the other side of her jeans. The oversized band T-shirt she wore covered the bulge.
Mom said she’d never resort to stealing. Even if that meant living on gas-station food. I picked up a silky corset with fraying laces—$110. “I could make this stuff for a lot cheaper. You don’t have to steal anything.”
“I was going to ask if you made your clothes,” she said in a louder voice. “They’re really awesome.” The salesclerk who’d started our fitting room had come back out. She straightened racks a few feet from us.
“Kinda have to—not much fits me otherwise.”
She nodded at my white skirt. “Did you make that?”
“I added the lace hem to this one.” I leaned closer to her. “Put them back, Naomi!”
She put her finger to her lips, her eyes widening. “So what do you think Justin would like? I’m betting on something innocent.”
Heat ran up my neck at her words. “Do you really think he likes me that way?”
“I swear, Drea. Sometimes you act like you’ve never had a boyfriend before.”
“I’ve had plenty of boyfriends.” My pulse throbbed through my ears and my fingers ran cold. She’d caught me.
“And didn’t you have to make the first move with at least a couple?” She took my hand, pulling me toward the fitting rooms. “We’re ready,” she called over to the clerk.
The salesclerk smiled. “Okay, let me know if you need a different size.”
We squeezed into the fitting room. It smelled like roses and sweat.
Naomi pulled the white lacy slip out of her jeans and tossed it at me. “This will look so good on you. Sweet and sexy.”
I unraveled the light material. A pale ribbon swirled around the high waist, and it was barely long enough to cover my butt. What exactly did she expect me to do with this? “How do I act like I’ve never had a boyfriend?”
She took off her T-shirt and gave me a sidelong glance. “Mostly, it’s the way you act around Justin. You blush a lot—and you get all shy and giggly.”
“He’s different from most guys I’ve been around.” At least that much was true.
“I figured. Were most of them jerks?”
“Yeah.” I thought back to some of Mom’s boyfriends. “A couple drank a lot, and they’d get violent and break stuff sometimes. One of them stole our—my money and gambled it all away.”
Naomi smoothed the black slip over her baggy jeans and raised her eyebrows at me. “Like, online?”
“In Vegas.”
“Was he older?”
Oh, crap. “Yeah.”
She nodded. “I’ve dated a couple older losers too.”
“Like Scott?”
“He’s really sweet when we’re alone together. Oh my God, I didn’t tell you what he did last night.” Naomi’s cheeks practically glowed as she twisted in the mirror, eyeing her behind. “He brought yellow tulips—my favorite—and took me out to this really nice restaurant in Seattle. Like the kind that gives you warm bread before the meal.” She gazed up at the ceiling. “Anyway, he told me he wouldn’t see other people if I don’t.”
“I’d rather a guy not see other people because he doesn’t want to.”
“You and every other girl. Guys just think differently, you know?” She sucked her stomach in. “Do you think I’ve got too much tummy for this?”
All I saw was a huge chest, a small waist, and curvy hips—the perfect female figure. Everything mine wasn’t. “You look beautiful,” I said.
“Aw. Try yours on.”
“No thanks. I’ve got no reason to wear it.”