“I was…” Elizabeth started, nonchalantly making sure her long shirt sleeve covered her arm. “In bed. I must have missed your call. Plus, after having no customers yesterday, I didn’t think I needed to rush in.”
“You didn’t hear the noises?”
“What noises did you hear exactly?”
“Oh, terrible ones. There was the usual growling, but…it was louder, a lot more vicious. And that screaming…Sheriff Taggart’s been roaming the forest all morning, making sure there weren’t any deaths. It was awful, gave us the chills up our spines.”
Elizabeth inserted the key in the lock and pulled back as she turned; even that reminded her of Henry. Regina followed her inside, and before she could put her apron on, Eustace slammed through the door.
“Dagnabbit, Beth!” With breaths labored and chew in his mouth, he lifted his hands. “You had us all worried sick!”
“I’m…sorry, Eustace, I was just sleeping in this morning. Didn’t see a need to come in early like usual.”
With a hand on his hip, he narrowed his eyes in suspicion. “Sure, sure.”
“Look, Eustace.” She tied her apron behind her back then freed her hair from beneath the strap. “I’m desperate for customers, and so far all I have is Regina. Will you make number two? I’ll even give it on the house this time if it means you’ll start coming back.” After starting the grinder, she entered the kitchen, preheated the oven, and pulled a pan of uncooked apple turnovers and Danishes from the refrigerator.
When she returned to Eustace and Regina, he sighed, lowering himself to a chair. He spit into the Dixie cup he held. “You know I’ll keep coming here. I just…” He looked to Regina only briefly, who sat next to him. Then cautiously, he ventured, “I have to know.”
Elizabeth swallowed hard, her eyes warning.
“Were you…out there last night? When all that was going on? ’Cause if he hurt you…”
“He didn’t hurt me,” she blurted, subconsciously pulling her sleeve low.
Regina’s eyes shot to hers. “You were out there?”
She scrunched hers. “No. I mean…”
“You were, weren’t you?” Regina rose.
“I didn’t mean to be. It was…an accident. It wasn’t what you think. And I’m all right.”
Regina’s eyes travelled slowly up and down her, taking her in. “Why?”
“Regina, look me in the eyes.” She did. “I need you to trust me. And I need you to leave it at that. Can you do that? Can you keep this between us?”
Regina looked back at Eustace and he shrugged. “I already knew,” he said.
After looking back to Elizabeth, she swallowed and nodded. “All…all right, then.”
Elizabeth’s eyes flitted back and forth between them, attempting to penetrate. “I also need you to believe me when I say something awful has been out there. The beast isn’t who we need to worry about. That other noise you heard, she’s the real threat. I…don’t think she’ll be coming back anymore, but I need you to know. I need you to know it’s not him.”
“If you’re right,” Eustace said, and she knew he believed her, “why don’t you think it’s coming back?”
“Because…I won’t be out there anymore.”
“You seem sad about that,” Regina guessed, her usually round eyes slim.
With a blink, Elizabeth looked to her work. “I can’t say more. I’m sorry.”
Eustace sighed. Then, with resolve, he made eye contact. “All right, Beth. I’ll leave it alone. This will stay between us. Won’t it, Regina?”
She nodded. “’Course. Your secret’s safe with us.”
A hint of pressure lifted from Elizabeth’s shoulders.
The bell on the door jingled again and two more familiar faces stepped through: Sheppy and Bill Thurman. “We’ve come to say sorry,” Bill said, removing his hat and wringing his hands around it.
“There’s nothing to apologize for. Will you boys be having your usuals?” Bill liked his mochas with extra cocoa and Sheppy’s only preference was lots of foam in his espresso.
“I will,” Sheppy said with a giant smile on his face. It made her realize that even when no one had been on her side before, Sheppy hadn’t really been on a side at all, just gone with the flow of the crowd. Probably he would have always smiled that smile at her. She would always have a friend in Sheppy, because his innocence made it possible. It made it impossible for her not to like him.
“Extra foam, right, Sheppy?” she asked with a smile just as wide.
***
The sun had just risen, leaving the almost-summer air cool and damp. Henry stood on Elizabeth’s back porch, letting his recently scorched skin absorb the drizzle in the air as he wore nothing but the pants he’d left out the night before. The morning rain had a way of calming his transformation, of putting out the fire. It’d been less than twenty-four hours since he’d woken from his poison-induced coma, and his muscles still held a trace of fatigue; but for the most part he had healed, his stitches removed the night before. He’d taken them out himself, when the irritating itch told him it was time.
During the night, he hadn’t gained the courage to approach Elizabeth’s house, and it wouldn’t have mattered anyway because every drape appeared to be pulled tight. Was she staying away because she thought it was what he wanted, or had she simply realized he was right—that he was a monster?
He couldn’t blame her for thinking it was what he wanted, though, since he hadn’t given her a reason to think otherwise.
Either way, he had no right to be here. But right or not, he couldn’t help himself. After he’d made her leave his mansion the morning before, he hadn’t planned on seeing her again. Finally, it seemed he’d won—that he’d been able to push her away successfully. It wasn’t long after Arne’s lecture, however, that things began to sink in. She knew everything, but was that really so bad? She had already accepted it, weeks ago, back when he’d been consumed with worry that she would find out.
He’d come to terms with the reality that a life without her wasn’t what he wanted at all, no matter how much safer it made her or how much he didn’t deserve her. He’d never experienced internal pain at such levels, or such depleting loneliness, even after years of wandering alone. And just maybe, the need she claimed she had for him compared to the one he harbored for her.
Put simply, his life had been altered drastically since she’d been in it, and there was no going back. The longer he tried forcing his skin to be thick and his heart indifferent, the more he realized he needed her. The more he realized he’d never been more wrong in his life.
And the more brutally he hit rock bottom.
His fist was against her door before he could stop it, knocking quietly. He deserved to die for everything, deserved to live every day of his life without the sight of her face, but the ache in his heart trumped his self-hatred; just one more chance was all he needed.
After no answer, he rested his forehead on the doorframe. He almost knocked again but lowered his hand, along with his shoulders. It wasn’t until he turned away that the door unlocked, and when he turned back, a thousand minutes passed within a matter of a second. Her hair wetted the shoulders of her white robe, and the rest of her was damp too, the silky material clinging to her curves and accentuating the details that left his abdomen heavy with heat.
“Henry,” she said, “are you all right?” Her vision shifted to his waist, to his nearly healed wound, then back to his eyes, and he realized what she saw. His eyes were afire, her image swimming in his tears. He didn’t know how long they’d been there, perhaps just since seeing her.
With an inhalation both painful and as refreshing as the sight of her, he stepped in and ran his hands into her damp hair, cradling her face. She smelled of soap and clean air, and her warm skin revived the life only she could give him. He lacked the drive to remove the desperation from his voice when he managed, “I don’t want to be alone anymore, Elizabeth.” He’d said it to her before, in his other form. He wanted to say more, wanted to apologize over and over again, but couldn’t gather words.