Crawford remembered her despair, at their last meeting, and he suspected that she had taken up with this spoons seller out of that despair, out of that self-disgust.
He sighed, emptying his lungs. “How long can you stay?”
“I don’t — not long, he gets jealous, and I don’t want him spending any money on — but Johanna!” She threw Crawford an uncharacteristically helpless look. “Can she live here?”
“We’ll need garlic and mirrors aplenty,” said Johanna. “And soon.”
“Yes, of course she can stay here,” said Crawford.
McKee nodded. “Does that watch work?” she asked Johanna.
“No. And it’s been in the river a few times.”
McKee glanced at Crawford and then away, and he remembered her saying, I owe you a lot of time. A debt to be written off, he thought.
“God knows what time it is,” she said, and got to her feet. She looked yearningly at Johanna and said, “I’ll be back soon.”
“Tomorrow?” said Johanna with some eagerness. “Morning?”
McKee smiled. “Yes. I promise.”
“Bring some mirrors and garlic, and some of your old man’s spoons, if they’re silver. I’m not going to dare sleep a wink tonight, with just these.” She patted her shirt and pants pocket, indicating the knife and, presumably, some garlic.
McKee nodded, tight-lipped. “He sleeps late. I’ll tell him he sold the spoons and spent the money on rum,” she said. She glanced again at the inert watch. “Unless he’s already done that by now.”
“Never mind,” said Crawford hastily, “I’ve got crowns and shillings — plenty of silver.”
“I knew somebody did,” said McKee. She took a cloth-wrapped bundle from her handbag and set it on the table; from inside it Crawford heard a muffled cheeping. “Take that now. A goldfinch — if he really yipes, duck and get your garlic ready.” She started to say something more, but exhaled and turned away. Finally she said, “I’ll see you tomorrow.”
Then she was gone, tapping rapidly up the stairs. A few moments later Crawford and Johanna heard the front door close, and, through the broken window, McKee’s metallic footsteps receding.
Johanna was swinging her feet under her chair. “The last thing you said to her, before, was asking her to marry you?”
Crawford stared at her and managed to smile. “Yes.”
“That’s a man’s coat she’s got on, much mended, and the boots don’t match.” She rolled some cheese and onion in a piece of ham as Crawford had done and bit off half of it.
Crawford got up, found another mug, and filled it with beer. As he sat down, he said, “I can show you to your room after we’re done with this … supper. I’ve got probably half a dozen mirrors around the house, and you can have them.”
She nodded, chewing. “And,” she said finally, “after he bites you, he’ll know about the mirrors and not look at them. No, we neither of us should sleep tonight, especially with a window broken. Fetch the mirrors down here and we can make a wall of ’em. And bring your shillings! We’ve got knives, and—” she added as she dug a jar out of her trouser pocket, “here’s garlic.”
“Stay down here all night?”
“Why not? It’s partly underground.” She grinned. “We can tell stories till dawn. What happened to your cats? I saw another one in the hall, and it only had three legs.”
He stared at her for several seconds, then shrugged. “I’m a — an animal doctor,” he said. “When I find hurt cats, I bring them home and take care of them.” He took a sip of beer and then began cutting up more ham and onion. “I’ve got a blind one too, and she knows every corner of the rooms and furniture; she can run from one end of the house to the other and not bump into anything.”
Johanna nodded. “She should have married you. My mother should have.”
“Not the cat,” Crawford agreed. The thought of his poor cats had reminded him of something. “Uh … have you been — by any chance — baptized? — since we saw you last?”
Johanna had taken another bite of the rolled ham, and she nodded as she chewed. “The Mud Lark man has all the Larks baptized before they can scout for him.”
Crawford wondered who this Mud Lark man might be, and what sort of scouting he had his young charges do; but there was all night in which to ask.
“Good, good.” He got to his feet. “I’ll fetch the mirrors and silver — don’t eat all this before I get back.”
CHAPTER FOUR
Ah, not as they, but as the souls that were
Slain in the old time, having found her fair;
Who, sleeping with her lips upon their eyes,
Heard sudden serpents hiss across her hair.
IN HIS DRAWING room in Upper Brook Street, Algernon Swinburne stood staring out through the open windows at the still-dark houses in the stale night. He had come home hours ago, but he was still dressed in the flannel trousers, white shirt, and woolen sweater that he had worn on his latest visit to the Verbena Lodge in Circus Road, when the evening had been fresh and full of anticipation.
Ordinarily he would have indulged himself now in the opportunity for mild pain by sitting and leaning back in a chair, but this evening’s drunken excesses at Verbena Lodge had left him slightly — only slightly, and certainly only temporarily — disgusted with the formal pretenses he engaged in there. None of the whippings and spankings that went on ever caused any actual injury, or even any real hurt.
He turned his back on the window. By the light of two gas jets on the far wall, for the fire had gone out while he’d been gone and he hadn’t the energy to fetch more coal, he surveyed the room’s ornate furnishings — the rosewood chairs, the imported Herter Brothers sofa, the gold-stamped book spines vertical and horizontal on the shelves — finally noting, hung on the walls above the bookshelves, the token whips and birch rods; and even, for the bravura of it, a pair of crossed rapiers over the mantelpiece.
Sad evidences, those were, of his gallingly restrained inclinations, which were unlikely to be really indulged while he still lived.
He sighed. The only satisfactory thing about it all, he thought — as he faced the window again and peered out at the dark patch that was Grosvenor Square and listened to the whir of a distant cab out in the night — is that my vigilant Miss B. cannot mistake the activities at the Verbena Lodge for anything having to do with love.
Girls in staged schoolrooms being struck with birch rods on their behinds by women pretending to be strict governesses — other girls taking money to spank patrons like Swinburne who took the roles of boys needing punishment — none of it would engage Miss B.’s inhuman attention, rouse in her that response which was comparable to homicidal jealousy in humans, and the spankings Swinburne received were far too mild for her to perceive them as attacks on him. The girls at the lodge were safe. Swinburne certainly didn’t love any of them, nor did they love him.
He hadn’t loved any woman since Lizzie, and she — her ghost, at any rate — had refused his offer to let her inhabit his living body. Since her refusal he had surrendered himself to the strenuous and enervating affection of Miss B., and, on the side, the largely symbolic Sadean activities at the Verbena Lodge.
He didn’t dare love anybody, nor even seem to. He had loved his sister Edith, and she had died only a year after he had committed himself to Miss B., and immediately afterward he had persuaded his parents to take an extended Continental tour; since then he had avoided them, and so they were still alive. And when Gabriel Rossetti had arranged for Swinburne to take a mistress in the conventional way, the woman died less than a year later, in spite of precautions Swinburne had thought would be adequate; he hadn’t loved her — she had complained that “spanking was no help” in making love — but even his unsatisfactory behavior with her had effectively mimicked it, to the woman’s fatal misfortune.