"I painted this living room. Kate picked the color. I didn't like it too yellow-and we argued. Remember, Kate? We fought over the yellow paint right there in the Home Depot, and she won. So I painted it.
And she was right. It's sunny in here. She was right."
Living Room, Phoebe wrote on her pad, circling it. "You did the painting. I'm terrible at painting. Can't get the cutting-in part. Have you and your family lived here long?"
"Ten years. It's a good place to raise children. That's what we thought. Good neighborhood, good schools. We need a bigger house, but…"
"Your family's grown." Family, family, family, Phoebe told herself. Focus on family. "How many children do you have?"
"Three. We have three. We didn't plan on Penny. We couldn't really afford…"
"Penny's your youngest, then? How old is Penny?"
"Two, Penny's two."
Phoebe heard an excited child's voice calclass="underline" "Daddy!"
"Is that her I hear?" Now she heard a choked sob from Brinker and kept talking. "She sounds very sweet. I have a little girl. She's seven, and I just wonder where the years went. I love her more than anything. She sure keeps me busy, though. I imagine your family keeps you very busy."
"I've done my best. I don't know why it's not enough. If I'd gotten the full professorship, we could afford a bigger house."
"You sound discouraged. It must be hard. You have an older daughter, is that right? Jessie, and then a boy in the middle, Aaron. Your wife, Kate, and you must be very proud. Still, it's a lot of work. I understand that. A lot of worry."
"I needed that professorship. I needed tenure. I needed Kate to understand."
The use of past tense, and the despair, set off alarms. "Tell me what you need Kate to understand, Mr. Brinker."
"That I can't do any more than I can do, or be more than I can be. But it's not enough. I'm the husband, I'm the father. I'm supposed to make it work. But things fall apart; the center cannot hold."
"That's Yeats, isn't it?" She closed her eyes, hoping she hadn't made a mistake.
There was a beat of silence. "Yes. You know Yeats?"
"Some. And I think sometimes that's true, things do fall apart, or seem to. The center can't always hold it all. But I also think things can be rebuilt, or reformed, and the center shored up again to hold it all differently. What do you think?"
"Once it falls, it's not the same."
"Not the same, but still there."
"My family's fallen apart."
"But they're still there, Mr. Brinker, and I hear how much you love them, every one of them. I don't believe you want to hurt them. Or that you want to hurt them by hurting yourself. You're the father."
"Weekend father. Perish instead of publish."
"I hear you're discouraged, and you're sad. But you're not ready to stop trying. You and Kate, eighteen years together, and those beautiful children you've made together. You don't want to stop trying. You love them too much."
"She doesn't want me anymore. What's the point? We made it all together. I thought we should end it all together. Here, in our home. The five of us, going together."
Thought we should. This time his use of past tense told her they might be turning a corner. "The five of you need to come out together, Mr. Brinker. Your children sound frightened. I can hear them crying now. You and your wife are their parents, you and your wife are responsible for keeping them safe and well."
"I don't know what to do anymore."
"Look at your children, Mr. Brinker, look at your wife. I don't believe anything's more precious to you. You don't want to hurt them. You can make the center hold. Look at the yellow walls. You gave them that sunny room, even when you weren't sure it would work. Put the guns down now, Mr. Brinker. Put them down, and bring your family out. You said you'd done your best. I believe you. Now, I believe you'll do your best again, and put the guns down. Bring your wife and your babies out."
"What's going to happen? I don't know what's going to happen."
"We're going to help you. You and your family. Will you come out with your family now? It's the right thing to do for them."
"I don't want to go into the black without them."
"You don't need to go into the black at all. Will you put the guns down, please?"
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
"I know. Can you listen to me now, Mr. Brinker?"
"Yes. Yes."
"Put the guns down. Please put them down and step away from them. Will you do that?"
"Yes. All right. I'm sorry."
She wrote Coming out. Surrendering. Signaled that message to Tactical command. "It's going to be all right. Did you put the guns down?"
"Yes. I put them on the shelf. High, where Penny can't reach them."
"That was the right thing to do. I want you to come to the front door. You and your family. Don't be afraid. No one's going to hurt you. I need you to keep your hands up, just so everyone can see you did the right thing and put the guns down. There'll be police outside, but no one's going to hurt you. Do you understand?"
"I can't think."
"It's all right. Will you bring your family out, please?"
" I… I can't keep my hands up and talk on the phone."
Phoebe closed her eyes, took a breath. "That's fine. Why don't you give the phone to Kate now? And you can all come outside together."
"All right. Kate? You need to take this call."
"God. God." The woman's voice wrenched out the words. "We're coming out. He doesn't have a gun. Please, please, don't shoot. Don't hurt him. Don't hurt him."
"No one's going to hurt him. No one's going to get hurt today." When they came out, what struck Phoebe right to the bone was the sound of the little girl crying for her daddy.
In what had become his workroom, he drank cold, sweet tea with a small sprig of fresh mint and watched the media coverage of the crisis in Gordonston.
He hoped they'd all die.
He didn't care about the Brinkers-they meant nothing to him one way or the other. But if that whining college guy put bullets in his family, then himself, Phoebe would take a hell of a hit.
That would be worth the airtime.
Then again, if she took too hard a hit, he might not get the chance to pay her back, his way.
Bitch would probably slide out of it anyway, even if she fucked up and the idiot put a bullet in the brain of the fat-cheeked toddler whose picture they'd shown on screen half a dozen times already.
She wouldn't take the blame for it, no matter how much she'd earned it.
With the tea, he sat down at his workbench. He'd heard the call come through on his police scanner while he was finishing up breakfast. It had given him a hell of a lift. Guy, wife, three kids. A bloodbath like that would get lots of attention.
He'd been right, and on his workroom TV, he watched while the local station preempted the Today show with live at-the-scene coverage.
And he'd seen Phoebe stride by the cameras, ignoring reporters in that superior, I'm-so-fucking-important way of hers.
He'd thought about putting a bullet in her brain. Oh, he'd thought about it, even dreamed about it, just the way he figured Mr. College Professor was thinking about putting one into his whole stupid family. But that was too easy. That was too quick. Bang! And it's over.
He had a much better plan.
He kept the TV on while he worked. Usually, he had the spare scanner on down here, and maybe the radio. Television was too distracting when he was working. But he considered this an exception.
His lips thinned as the reporter on screen announced the Brinker family had come out, safe and sound, that the asshole surrendered peacefully.
"Pulled that one off, didn't you?" he muttered to himself as he turned screws. "Yeah, that one was easy. Didn't have to break a sweat, did you? Nice family, nice neighborhood. Just some stupid shit looking for some attention. You got them out just fine, didn't you? Phoebe. " He had to stop, put his tools down, because the anger, the rage, made his hands shake. He wanted a cigarette. Actually yearned for one. But he'd made himself quit. It was a matter of willpower, and practicality. He didn't need crutches. He couldn't afford to need crutches. He couldn't even afford the rage. Cold blood, he reminded himself. Cool head. When payback came, he'd need those, and a strong body, a clear purpose.