THE NEXT MORNING JACK OFFERED TO READ TO HIS father, and the old man was pleased. “Yes!” he said, “that will pass the time!” So they thought they might make a custom of taking him into the porch early every morning, after he was bathed and shaved, when the warmth would be tolerable to him, and the breeze would be pleasant.
“What would you like to hear?” Jack asked. “We’ve got The Condition of the Working Class in England.”
The old man shook his head. “Read it in seminary,” he said. “It was very interesting, but as I remember, the point was clear. I don’t feel I need to return to it. I’m surprised we still have it. I thought I gave my copy to the library.”
Jack laughed and glanced at her. He said, “Here’s one Luke sent. Something of Value. It’s about Africa.”
His father nodded. “I had a considerable interest in Africa,” he said. “At one time.”
Glory said, “Luke sent me a note about that one. He says the critics raved.”
Jack said, “I’m a little bit interested in Africa, myself.”
“Yes, well, Mozambique, Cameroon, Madagascar, Sierra Leone. Beautiful names. When I was a boy I used to think I’d go there someday. We can read that one.”
“It’s about Kenya.”
“Well, that’s fine, too.”
Jack lowered his head and began to read, leaning over the book almost prayerfully. He smiled at the parts he liked—“‘Somewhere out of sight a zebra barked, and along the edge of a stream a baboon cursed.’” Teddy used to say Jack was the bright one, that he, Teddy, was only conscientious. And in fact there was a kind of grace to anything Jack did with his whole attention, or when he forgot irony for a while. It was always a little surprising because it was among the things about himself he shrugged off, concealed when he could. But his voice was mild and warm, courteous to the page he read from, and his father looked at her and lifted his brows, the old signal that meant, He is wonderful when he wants to be. Really wonderful.
The old man laughed over the cook’s pagan version of “Jesus Wants Me for a Sunbeam,” listened with interest to the household arrangements of the McKenzies, marveled at the killing of the elephants, and nodded off. Jack continued reading to himself. He said, “I think I can see how this is going to end.” He turned to the last few pages. “Yes.” He read, “‘Peter hunched his shoulders close to his neck and took a deep, sobbing breath and squeezed. Kimani’s tongue came all the way out past his teeth, and his eyes suffused in blood as the tiny vessels broke. There was a slight crick and then a sharp crack, as if a man had trodden on a dry stick, and Kimani’s body went limp.’”
Their father roused himself. “Kimani is that child he’s playing with at the beginning, isn’t he? Those two children are playing together.”
Jack nodded.
“I guess he killed him.”
Jack closed the book. “I guess he did.”
“A pity,” the old man said. “That seems to be how it is, though. So much bad blood. I think we had all better just keep to ourselves.”
Jack laughed. “I have certainly heard that sentiment before,” he said. “I know a good many people who agree with you about that, believe me.”
“Yes. We might want to try another book, Jack, don’t you think? It seems there’s nothing in that one that’s going to surprise us.”
“Not a thing.”
He nodded. “The fellow writes well, though. The elephants were very interesting.”
THE DAY SEEMED TO BE PASSING IN THE WAY THAT HAD become customary, Glory tending to household things while her father slept and Jack made himself useful around the place, making small, patient inroads on dishevelment and disrepair. Or so she assumed. Then she realized that she hadn’t seen him for a while. Usually he found some reason to speak to her from time to time, to joke with her a little, as if to assure himself again that she was kindly disposed toward him. She looked out at the garden, then she walked to the shed, looked into the barn. Jack was nowhere to be found. This is ridiculous, she thought. I can’t worry this way. An hour passed, then two. She had glanced through the mail and the new Life magazine. She had answered letters from Dan and Grace. Then the screen door closed and there was Jack, coming through the porch, looking disheveled and yet a little pleased with himself. He was in his undershirt, having made his shirt into a bundle of some kind which he set on the table and opened. “Mushrooms!” he said. “Morels! Right where they always were!” Sand and leaf mold and that musky smell.
“Where were they?”
“In a remote area, my dear. Far from the haunts of men.”
“Honestly! I’m your sister! Your only friend in the world!” “Sorry. No dice. Just look at these beauties. We eat mushrooms tonight, Glory!”
“What is that?” their father called. “What are we talking about?”
Glory said, “Go show Papa. He loves morels.”
“I think I’d better clean up a little.”
“You don’t have to clean up. Just go show him.”
So Jack carried the bundle into his father’s room and spread it open on the old man’s lap. “Ah,” his father said. “Ah yes. You’ve been out foraging.” He drew a deep breath and laughed. “‘See, the smell of my son is as the smell of a field which Jehovah hath blessed.’ Morels. Dan and Teddy used to bring me these. And blackberries, and walnuts. And they’d bring in walleye and catfish. And pheasants. They were always off in the fields, down by the river. With the girls it was always flowers. So long ago.”
Jack stood back and watched the old man study the mushrooms, sniff them, turn them in the light. He rubbed his bare arms as if he felt the way he looked, thin, exposed. He said softly, “Bless me, even me also.”
“No,” his father said, “that’s Esau. You’re confusing Esau and Jacob.”
Jack laughed. “Yes, I am the smooth man. How could I forget? I’m the one who has to steal the blessing.”
His father shook his head. “You have never had to steal one thing in your entire life. There was never any need for it. I have been searching my memory on that point.”
Glory said, “Papa, while I was in the hardware store the other day—”
But Jack said, “No, don’t. Don’t.” And smiled at her, and she knew she had come near shaming him. He had not robbed the dime store. How painful for this weary man to need exoneration from the mischief of bad children. “So good to be home,” he said to her afterward. “No place like it, the old song says.”
“Can I get something for you? Coffee?”
“Sure. Coffee. Why not?” He said, “You are a good soul, Glory. That fellow who did not marry you was a very foolish man.”
She shrugged. “Not altogether. He was a married man.”
“Oh.”
“So he said.”
“Oh.”
“Of course I didn’t know it at the time. Particularly.”
He laughed. “Particularly.”
“You know what I mean. I could have figured it out if I’d wanted to.”
He nodded. “Ah, that’s hard. I’m sorry.” After a moment, “And no child was born of this union, I take it.”
She shook her head. “No.”
“So you were spared that, at least.”
She drew a deep breath.
He said, “I’m sorry! Why did I say that? Why don’t I just stop talking? Why don’t you tell me to stop?”
“Well, Jack, you didn’t know her. So I suppose it isn’t surprising that you’d think about her that way. As something we might have wished to be spared.”
“Yes, the little girl.”
“Your little girl.”
“My little girl.” He stood up. “I’m not much good at — I stayed away all that time — it was the best I could do—”