Dressed this way, a clown's version of Marilyn Monroe, he was forced to lie face down on the bed. Wearing thigh-high leather boots and surgical gloves, Kendra manipulated him, then sodomized him with her strap-on dildo. She was so ferocious that, though Dickstein moaned and protested, he was hardly able to form a whole word.
Room 710 of the Hotel Honolulu was transformed into a mistress's dungeon in which Kaniela Dickstein in a prom gown was spanked, humiliated, pissed on, and sodomized. "You slut," Kendra would say as she slipped the panties on him, and she repeated the insult with the long stockings, the high heels, the ridiculous brassiere. She made him kneel. Some of the names she called him were words she hardly knew, or ones she had never before uttered.
Though he was greedy for it, the sessions so exhausted her she could not face him afterward. She always left my hotel feeling wrecked. That part of it was not gossiped about, and no one talked about what lay behind it. Dickstein was a sissy — a pantie, in the local slang.
No one understood that this was just another example of his bullying. The script was Dickstein's; everything that happened in the room was done at his command. Kendra had to learn precisely what to do, and if she failed in any detail, Dickstein was furious. He dominated her by forcing this pretty and submissive island girl to be his dominatrix.
"I couldn't take it anymore," Kendra said. "I thought maybe I could just do it the way you do stuff in hotels, like clean guests' bathrooms, but it just got worse."
No one would listen to Kendra's accusation of sexual harassment.
She tried to get Dickstein into court. Her argument was "He made me hit him." Her case went nowhere, nor was she able to prove her claim for workers' comp, for her sore arm that developed bursitis, her insomnia, and
her panic attacks. And Kendra was still in counseling in a clinic in Mapunapuna when Dickstein got his promotion.
47 The Dream House in Kahala
Overhearing a request for monthly rates, I knew it was either a Canadian escaping the winter or a local man who had been thrown out of his house, his marriage gone bad. The man, Alex Holt, who was local, winced at the rate, but after I heard his story, I lowered it and was tempted to give him a free room. It was that sad. In his soft voice, he had an oblique and apologetic way of describing the reverses in his life: "I'm pretty much broke," and "She kind of destroyed me," and "It was pretty much kind of a disaster-type thing."
"My wife's quite a bit older than me," he had said.
Why did that sort of admission always sharpen my curiosity?
"Ex-wife, I mean," he added, and I thought, Of course.
Becky, the ex-wife, had a troubled ten-year-old girl, Kristen. The child had liked Alex Holt, and the promise of a bond had been part of the reason Becky had married him. She wanted security for the child, she wanted to stay in Hawaii, and she wanted a house in Kahala. She was a dental hygienist.
"Becky kind of dreamed of living in Kahala," Alex said.
Of the high-priced Honolulu suburb of Kahala, Buddy always said, "Kahala is a pig farm. I know it's full of millionaires, but as far as I'm concerned it's still a pig farm. It's flat and uninteresting."
Alex Holt was in advertising at a time when the agencies in Hawaii were going broke, the 1980s slump. And yet by getting some mainland clients, he had managed to find the money for a corner lot, three streets off Kahala Avenue. Becky was successful in her work, and she had contributed to the down payment. The idea was that they would knock down the existing house and build a new one in stages — prepare the lot, draw up the plans, complete the building. It might take five years or more. As Becky said, "That's what marriage is all about, building for the future. Having a time line that's also a dream."
Alex felt that way about the child, too. Kristen needed a good education. He enrolled her in Iolani and paid half her fees. Kristen joined the volleyball team and the drama club — one year she had a small part in Our Town. She said she wanted to write poetry, and wrote a poem that Alex printed, making it into a greeting card with the office copier. It was called "A Love Letter to My New Dad." Alex legally adopted her and took full responsibility for her tuition. He sometimes drove her and Becky to Kahala and parked near the teardown house on the corner lot. Together they tried to imagine how their dream house might look.
An architect was found. He was one of Becky's patients. She asked Alex, "Are you comfortable with that?" This was the way she talked. Alex
said he needed to meet with the architect first to see if he was right for them.
When Alex was satisfied, he hired the man. The architect entered completely into the spirit of the dream house. He said, "You can save money by getting generic windows, but remember, you're near the ocean. If this were my house, I would get Wadsworth's Weatherproofs — they're vinyl-clad, double-glazed, hurricane-proof. ." The tile roof with a wide hip for the rain and sun, the screened lanai, the extra bedroom, the track lighting, the Sub-Zero refrigerator, the Viking range and dishwasher, the Mission furniture — all of it, he said, was the sort he would buy if it were his home.
"Home" was the word he always used, never "house."
"Don't think of this home in terms of time," the architect said. "Just think quality. Think permanence. A home has a soul."
Such quality implied the high six figures. More clients had to be found on the mainland. Alex was away a great deal, traveling constantly. He saw himself as a modern version of a hunter-gatherer. The value of his sacrifice was apparent each time he returned home: the sketches became plans, the plans became blueprints, and soon they were deep into what the architect referred to as the "permitting process."
"He's good," Alex said. He did not comment on the architect's youth -
— how he was uneasy hiring someone younger than he was.
Becky said, "A person's teeth say an awful lot. I've worked on his teeth for years."
Alex was also delighted by the eagerness Kristen showed on his return. Kristen's reaction wasn't faked: Becky had the whole family she had always sought. He had shown Becky that in becoming a faithful husband, attentive to Kristen, he had become the girl's father. What worried him were Kristen's early-teen spasms of rebellion, like a child sticking a finger in a flame. Kristen tried smoking, stole a book from school, put up lurid posters of tongue-wagging men in evil makeup in her room. "It's a rock group, Alex!" Kristen loved horseplay, especially liked to wrestle on the floor with Alex, or sometimes at the beach he would fling her onto the sand and she shrieked as though she were being tickled. And sometimes she sneaked a cigarette.
Alex was happiest when they all sat around the kitchen table in the rented apartment in Kaimuki studying the floor plans of the dream house. They mentally moved into the flat white spaces.
The architect said, "Let's work through this," and praised their vision — the contours of the double-pitched roof, the proportions of the lanai, the privacy fences, the way each room was selfcontained, the kitchen as a family focal point. Alex had an office; Becky had the dressing room and closet space she had always wanted; Kristen's room was to be soundproof.
"I got the big family room idea from the Dillingham House in Mokuleia," Becky said. "That's where we had our wedding reception."
"Your house will have your look," the architect said. "Very Unique."
Hearing the architect say "very unique," Alex wanted to correct him, as when he said "home." But Alex knew that as an advertising man he was more word-conscious than the architect, who thought in pictures, using the left side of his brain.