Ronnie wasn’t. That only made it worse, and his arm really hurt. He hadn’t asked for this. She was supposed to be his girlfriend, and she’d been acting as if he were a nuisance.
The crisp, clear weather of the first few days ended with a cold front, clouds, and drizzle. It made no difference what the weather was—lessons and hunts went out on schedule. Ronnie hated the cold trickle down the back of his neck, the horrid dankness of wet boots, and he didn’t want to get used to it. Tradition be damned; why couldn’t they wear proper weather-sensing clothing like the Royal Service did on maneuvers?
At dinner each day, the Main House crowd seemed to divide naturally along hunt lines. The greens, his Aunt Cecelia quite prominent among them, had their favorite rooms and corners, and so did the blues. The reds condescended subtly to those not yet assigned, but knew their place compared to the other hunts. Bubbles left them, pointedly showing off, Ronnie thought, her ability to mingle with ease as well as her white shoulders. The only young women among the unassigned were too young for him, and too gawky—a pair of earnest cousins so obviously overawed by their surroundings that they blushed if anyone came near. Bubbles had introduced them as “Nikki and Snookie; they used to come a lot back when I was a kid” and then walked off.
When Captain Serrano showed up with a foxtail one evening (“Not the tail, stupid, the brush!” Bubbles hissed) after her first hunt with the blues, Ronnie was disgusted. He had spent five hours that day riding three different horses in boring circles, trotting over boring little fences in a boring ring. He’d been told he might be allowed on the outside course in a couple of days, if he concentrated. And she—twenty years older, if a day—had been allowed to skip the red hunt altogether, go into the blues, and had had a good first hunt. It wasn’t fair. For the first time since his lessons on the ship, he thought of revenge, but he resisted. It wasn’t worth it.
His only solace in these trying days was Raffaele, of all people. George dragged her away from a group of blues one night, and gave a humorous account of their day’s lessons. Ronnie felt humiliated—he didn’t fall off that often, and George didn’t mention any of his own mistakes—but Raffaele’s glance at him was sympathetic. After that she came of her own accord every evening, for a few minutes at least. She asked once where Bubbles was, and Ronnie shrugged. She asked no more, but he noticed that she talked to both of them, not just George. And when George was taken up by a group of older men who knew his father, Raffaele kept coming, chatting quietly with Ronnie in a way he found more and more soothing.
By the time he finally got his pass to hunt with the reds (two days before George, a minor triumph which by then he didn’t enjoy), he expected no pleasure. The morning dawned murky and cold with vague clots of mist hiding the low places; Ronnie felt stiff before he even got to the stables. Buttons, spruce and cheerful, grinned at him as he stumped into the yard where the hunt gathered.
“Good for you!” he said, too loudly for Ronnie’s taste. “I knew you’d beat George out of the lesson pit. It’s a good day for scent, anyway.” He wore the red coat and insignia of the M.F.H. of the reds, and looked as if he’d been born in it.
“Oh . . . George will be along soon enough,” said Ronnie vaguely, looking around. “Where’s Bubbles?”
Buttons laughed. “Taking a vacation. She’s riding with the blues today. We decided George could survive without a family member for one lesson.”
This reminder of his situation did not help. Ronnie grunted, and looked around again. A groom waved to him, and he went over to get on the dark, heavy animal that was his for the day. “Thumper,” he was told, “is good, solid, reliable, and not too fast. Bring him home safe.” Ronnie noticed nothing was said about his safety.
They rode out into the cold murk. Thumper seemed to think his place was the back of the field; Ronnie kicked vigorously and got him up to the middle. “Eager, aren’t you?” asked someone sarcastically. Ronnie ignored him. They all milled around in a wet meadow while the hounds cast about for a scent. No one spoke to Ronnie, and he knew they were all eyeing him. His neck felt hot. When the hounds began to speak, he urged Thumper in that direction, but the others were faster. He trotted along near the back of the group, getting well spattered with mud the other horses kicked up. Thumper slowed, and Ronnie couldn’t blame him. It must be worse for the horse, he thought, getting mud in his face and not just on his legs.
After awhile, the horses ahead of him sped off at a canter. Ronnie followed. Now the mud flew higher; he could see it spattering the ground ahead of him. A hedge appeared from the murk, and Thumper lifted to it. On the far side, a ditch gaped; Thumper stretched, and Ronnie clung, slipping a bit at the rough landing. But he regained his seat and urged Thumper on through a flat field after the others. He wished someone had seen—it was a larger jump than he’d ever taken in a lesson.
After some minutes of this he was breathless and sore. It was much harder than the lessons, even the ones on the outside course. He couldn’t tell what kind of obstacle was coming. There never seemed time to plan an approach, to get himself ready for the jump. Thumper had a rough, lumbering stride, and while he jumped safely, never hitting anything, he took off with a lurch and landed hard each time. He was doing better than some (he had seen riders sprawled on the wet ground, loose horses, people remounting) but he couldn’t get Thumper to catch up with the field.
Far ahead, the horn rang out again. Thumper knew that signal, and churned ahead faster. Now they passed stragglers, riders whose strained faces showed that they found this as tiring as Ronnie did. He wondered why they bothered. . . . Were there that many bossy aunts in the universe? He saw a rail fence coming up, and braced himself. . . . They were over safely, but another loomed up. With a curse, Ronnie grabbed mane, and survived that one too. Thumper plunged on, into the rear of the slowing field. . . . The dogs had caught the fox, though Ronnie couldn’t see it. He pulled on the reins, and Thumper slowed to a walk, then stood, sides heaving. No one seemed to notice them now; the red-coated hunt staff in the center were doing something, and then everyone laughed and cheered.
The crowd spread out, as the riders walked their horses slowly around. “Made it, did you?” asked someone Ronnie had seen in the red hunt group at dinner. “Must have been pretty far back. Too bad you weren’t up. You might’ve had a chance at the brush, being as it’s your first day.”
“Well, I made it,” Ronnie said. He meant to say it blithely, but it came out sounding disgruntled. The man rode off with a shrug. Thumper heaved a great sigh, and shook his head a little. Ronnie noticed others getting flasks out of their saddlebags. He started to reach for his, and remembered that he’d forgotten to bring it. It seemed suddenly darker, and the first cold drops of the day’s rain splashed his hot neck.
By nightfall, he had ridden too many hours, fallen off twice (both times some helpful stranger caught Thumper and brought him back) and was wet to the skin with both sweat and rain. His throat felt raw, his nose was running, and his knees and ankles felt as if he’d played the finals of some dismal professional sport involving large angry men pounding each other to mush. He managed to stay on Thumper until he guided him through the gates of the yard, and then slithered off, staggering as he landed.
“Do you need assistance?” asked the groom, with a quick glance at him. She was already pampering Thumper, he noticed.
“I had a fall,” he said, through gritted teeth. “But nothing’s broken.”
“Good day, then,” she said, leading the horse away. “If nothing broke.”
He stumped up to the house, hoping to make it to a hot bath without meeting anyone, but of course there was George, dapper and witty, with Raffaele on his arm.