“I’m going upstairs,” he said.
“Better to stay here,” said Lars. “Who knows what’s out there?”
The boat reversed its roll. The ship groaned.
“I’m going!” said Radar. “I’ll be right back.”
Back in the stairwell, he staggered upward. His load was lightened, but it seemed as if the higher he went in the ship, the worse the pitching became. He finally made it to the top corridor, staggering, falling, grabbing hold of a stowed fire hose. He could see the hallway literally twisting and torquing like a Slinky.
Everyone up here must be dead! Thrown overboard or smashed to smithereens!
After some desperate balletics, he managed to make it to the doorway of the bridge and threw it open, expecting carnage.
But there was no carnage. The scene was one of remarkable serenity. And there was Ivan, standing at the helm, feet planted like a matador, nine fingers upon the wheel.
Oh, sweet, sweet Ivan!
Ivan’s face was completely calm, his eyes betraying no sense of unease as his gaze held fast into the very depths of the storm. It was a standoff — man versus nature — and seeing him like this, Radar could not bet against man.
Next to him, the chief mate, Akaki, was hunched over the radar, his face barely six inches from the screen. Several paces away stood Captain Daneri in his crisp white uniform. He looked as if he were attending a funeral. One hand firmly gripped the bridge console, but otherwise none of the three seemed particularly bothered by gravity’s complete disintegration.
Radar opened his mouth to convey his simultaneous terror and joy at seeing them. He wanted to tell them about Otik, about the water in the hold, about the twisting hallway, about seeing his own death.
“Blow me shivers!” he called out.
The needle in the room did not flicker. No one paid him any heed. Ivan, hands on the wheel. Akaki, studying his computers. Daneri, staring grimly ahead. It was as if he didn’t exist.
Radar took hold of a chair, then the bridge console, then made it to the helm.
“Ivan,” he said. “Ivan. What’s going on?”
“A squall,” said Ivan. “Big squall. Radar didn’t see it.”
“Radar never sees it,” said the captain.
“Radar did see it,” said Akaki.
“Only once we’re inside the goddamn headwall,” said the captain. “And then radar sees nothing.”
Radar was briefly confused, until he realized they were referring not to him but to the object of Akaki’s attention. The technology, not the person.
“How does she feel, Mr. Kovalyov?” the captain said. “Tell me something good.”
“She’s pushing three, four to starboard. I can hold,” said Ivan, gripping the wheel. “But if wind changes we are buried.”
The captain nodded. “What’s your height, Mr. Akakievich?”
“Twelve meters,” said the chief mate. “Fifty-three knots from the north-northeast. Holding. Gusting.”
“Hijo de puta,” hissed Daneri. He lifted the phone to the engine room and said, “Full ahead, Mr. Piskaryov. Give me more. I want more. We need to cut these down.”
“There’s a band ahead,” said the chief mate, staring at the radar.
The captain hung up his phone. “Keep her steady, Mr. Kovalyov. Pull port if you need, but don’t let her get turned. I don’t want to lose one goddamn box, you hear me? Not one goddamn box!”
“There is a band ahead, captain!” the chief mate said again.
“I don’t care what you see on that cursed machine!” shouted the captain.
“I have never seen this,” the chief mate said, almost contemplatively.
Radar looked out through the windows, across the great deck of the Aleph. The windshield wipers squeaked away, back and forth across the glass — a pathetic show of resistance, given the immensity of the storm that surrounded them. At first he could not see much. The deck lights were all ablaze, but his visibility was still limited by the thrashing rain to a series of glimpses of a huge and unrelenting sea. And then there was a clap of lightning and he saw it all. What before had simply been a series of fantastic rolls and pitches now revealed itself to be a maelstrom of wind and rain and great white-capped waves that rose out of the darkness before crashing wildly against the deck, the stacks of containers lurching and leaning beneath the savagery of the ocean. The ship — once so big in port — now seemed so utterly small and helpless against this raging sea — a slight little dagger of a thing. And then the rain came at them again, pounding against the windows like a volley of bullets, the windshield wipers persisting but doing nothing to dispel the chaos outside. Having glimpsed the magnitude of their foe, Radar saw the odds now swinging back firmly in favor of nature’s eventual triumph, even with a wizard like Ivan at the helm.
“Dios mío,” said the captain.
Radar looked up. At first he could make out nothing through the blur of wind and rain. The boat bent toward its bow, and it was as if the great sea had taken a moment to rest, a moment to contemplate the extent of its destruction. And then Radar saw it: a mighty, incomprehensible wall of water rising above them, higher even than the bridge upon which they stood, thirty meters above the Plimsoll. The Aleph, stupefied, helpless to the world, was headed directly for it.
“Mr. Kovalyov—” the captain hissed.
“I see it, I see it,” said Ivan. “What do you want? There’s nothing I can do. .”
The chief mate looked up from his radar.
“Mater bozhya,” he whispered.
The boat churned up the flank of the giant wave, doing its best to climb into the sky, but eventually she lost her momentum, for there was only so much her propeller could manage against the laws of physics. The wave, previously content with existing as a mountain of potentiality, finally lost its patience with the ship. The tremendous cornice of white water at its zenith exploded like a volcano and let loose a thundering avalanche of sea down onto the Aleph’s deck.
There are few sights as impressive as a wave breaking across a ship. It is the truest of force equations, an honest meeting of liquid and solid, where solid is forced to wonder what liquid might do, where solid resists, re-tabulates, converses, barters, prays, and then reemerges triumphant. Or not. Radar sensed such a negotiation only for a split second before the shockwave from the impact shook the bridge and he was tossed like a doll to the floor.
When he stood up again, he could see nothing through the windows. For an instant, he thought that the boat had simply vanished, that the wave had acted like a giant eraser and banished them from existence, but then he realized that they were still on the ship, and they still existed, so the ship must exist, too. Maybe she had split off and sunk, taking all of her cargo with her? Maybe they were sinking already and they had precious few moments together before the ocean burst through the windows. But no, there she was: with great effort, the outline of the Aleph surfaced from the grim sea like an ancient sea creature heaving itself from the depths. She was still intact. She had made it through.
“How many boxes?” the captain was yelling.
The chief mate was at the window, counting, fingers touching fingers.
“How many boxes are gone, Mr. Akakievich?!”
“At least fifteen, sir,” he yelled. “Maybe more.”
Radar peered out into the storm, the green and red bow lights still glimmering through the rain. He could see the patchwork quilt of boxes, so small and vulnerable against the sea. Most were still in place, but he could also see what the first mate was looking at: two stacks in the bow were shorter than the rest and now were tilting dangerously with each swell.