"What in the name of God is happening?"
Molly would not look at me. The man with the basin could not hold my eyes.
"Phoebe," I said.
"Poisoned," she said, and tried to laugh.
My first and strongest inclination in the face of these conspirators was to hit someone, to bend a nose, crack a tooth, bang a head against a floor.
"What poison?" I shouted and even Molly would not look up. She stared at her daughter's cold white feet. "What poison?" I asked the fat head. I gripped the iron bed with hands on which I had written the price of a limited slip differential.
Phoebe opened her mouth to answer, then changed her mind, moaned, and leant towards the stranger's basin into which she discharged a long stream of green liquid.
"I am your husband," I said, rocking the bed.
The man I later knew as Horace Dunlop opened his child's mouth and then closed it.
Phoebe pulled herself half up and leant on her elbow. "I am pregnant", she said, "and I have taken poison."
I pushed my way round to the head of the bed, my eyes half closed, my brows hooded. I would have unchaired the poet and trampled on him if he had not been wise enough to vacate his position swiftly.
I held the basin.
"No baby," Phoebe said wearily.
I shook my head.
"No baby," she said and tried to smile. "No nothing. No Phoebe either. Poor Herbert."
"Get a doctor," I said to the poet who was hovering at the doorway, "whoever you are."
"No doctor," Phoebe said, and took my hand.
"They'll charge her," the poet said. "She won't die. Don't call a doctor."
"Who is this man?" I demanded. "Why is he here? Did he give you this poison?"
"No, no," Phoebe said. "Only the Rawleigh's man."
"She won't die," Horace said, taking a tentative step back into the room. "She is losing the foetus."
"How dare you," I roared, standing up and spilling bile down my trouser leg. "How dare you call my child a foetus."
"It is the name…"
"It is not the name of my child you scoundrel and she will lose no child while I am here."
"It is the scientific name of the unborn child."
"And unborn it will stay, until its time. You mark my words Mr Man-or-Beast, she will lose no child. She will lose nothing."
"Poor Herbert," Phoebe moaned.
"It is a criminal offence," Horace said, plucking miserably at his cravat.
"There has been no poison here," I said. "There is nothing in the house. My wife is ill. She will not lose anything." And if you had been there, had you seen me, you would not have doubted that I would keep the foetus clinging to the placenta by the sheer force of my will.
"You get a doctor," I told the Rawleigh's man. "Now, get your horse out of the dungheap and go."
"It is lame," said Horace. "It threw a shoe."
"Then drive my car, man. This is 1921. Only a fool rides a horse."
"I can't drive," he stammered. He had the look you see in public bars when a man knows he is about to get a beating.
"I'll drive," Molly said.
"You can't drive," I said, "you don't know how."
"I can", she said simply, standing and patting her daughter on the knee, "and I will. Come, Horace," she said, "you come with me."
And she took Horace by the sleeve and led him from the room.
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It was still twelve years before Molly McGrath would come to public notice by refusing to sell her three electrical utilities, those of Ballarat, Geelong and Bendigo, to the newly formed State Electricity Commission. In 1921, however, we had no inkling of Molly's abilities. I did not doubt her passions. One had only to see her gazing at the electrically illuminated cross she had donated to the Catholic Church at Moonee Ponds – her eyes shone with that ecstatic light one sees portrayed in pictures of all the female saints – to see that she had as much enthusiasm for the electricity as she had for God himself.
But we thought her silly. She encouraged us to think her silly. She was the half-mad wife of Jack McGrath, and had I known she was spending her days with realestate agents examining the books of businesses for sale, I would have done everything I could to protect her. As for driving a car, I would have judged her totally incapable. However I was not there to stop her.
She had looked at the Hispano Suiza for a long time before she finally approached it.
"It's my car," she said at last, and having gone for a pee and put some lipstick on, she rushed up to the vehicle and climbed in behind the wheel. She taught herself (noisily) the principles of clutch and gears; Phoebe came running from the distant Morris Farman to discover the driver of the car that circled round and round the bumpy tussocked ground was none other than her mother.
When Phoebe recovered from her disapproval, she begged to be taught as well.
Somehow they never got around to telling me, but the two women spent less time in the house than I had imagined. They were forever touring here and there – fast, unlicensed, but only sometimes reckless. It was this that gave Molly the idea about the taxi business, but that comes later on.
My mother-in-law did not drive well on the night of Phoebe's poisoning. She stalled three times and lurched across a garden bed. She left huge wheel ruts in excess of anything her late husband could have managed. She could not understand why Phoebe would wish to kill her child. This writhing daughter was a stranger to her. She prayed to the Blessed Virgin who claimed more of her attention than the car she carelessly controlled. She prayed her daughter would not die. She prayed the child would survive.
"I cannot understand her," she said to Horace as they crashed across on to the track to Newmarket. "Why would she ever contemplate such a thing?"
Guilty Horace did not answer. He sank miserably into the big leather seats of the Hispano Suiza, too unhappy to be afraid of the consequences of such erratic driving.
"She loves him," Molly told the poet. "She is infatuated with him. She worships him. Why would she do such a thing? What did she imagine would come ofall that business?"
The poet did not ask what all that business might be, although he guessed that aeroplane wings would do little to muffle the creaks of the marital bed.
"She is a poet," he said (as they rattled over cobblestones towards Footscray in search of a doctor's light), but it seemed a poor defence in the face of the evil bile the victim spilled forth from her once pretty mouth.
"I don't understand. He is so good to her. Poor Herbert," she said. "Poor man. She's broken his heart."
She would never understand, although perhaps she should have. If they had taken three hours to find Dr Henderson's light the conversation would have continued its circular course, like an early-morning dream where the same problem spins on the edge of an off-centre black disc.
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I sat by the head of the bed and wiped her brow with a water-wet handkerchief. I wiped it to soothe, to erase, wiped slowly, sadly, as I willed my child to remain exactly where he was.
My wife wept and explained, argued, told the truth, lied and apologized while the spasms wracked her and I held her head above the basin.
"The doctor will come," I said, "the doctor will come. He's coming now." I manufactured that damn doctor in my mind. I built his car and gave him road. I turned on his headlights and drew him towards me. Sweat ran from my forehead and caught in the creases of my eyes and coursed down my cheeks in imitation of the tears I could never easily shed.
There were sounds locked tightly in my throat, sounds barely human, steel springs of misery which once released would have filled the room, speared the walls, and lacerated the smooth white skin of my bride and wife. I screwed them down with a lock nut and pierced the shaft with a cotter pin. I wiped.
"Why?" I whispered. "Why?"
Phoebe was stunned by the question.
"Why?"
"No good," she said. "Can't have children."