“They believe,” added Betara, “that there is always a way where few suffer. That belief is an illusion, and it is deadly. We Pharsi have learned that deadliness through too many years of too many deaths.”
What could I say to that, especially since Ryel was proving that very point to me?
“Horazt has suggested you’d make a good Patrol captain for the taudis area. That’s not likely, is it?” Diestra covered her mouth, blocking what sounded like a racking cough.
I waited until she finished. “There’s nothing prohibiting it, but the Collegium-not to mention the Council-might well be opposed to an imager serving officially in the Civic Patrol.”
“Is it that impossible?” asked Seliora, her voice guileless, yet teasing.
“It’s not impossible, merely exceedingly improbable.”
Betara and Shelim laughed.
After a very filling brunch, complete with another glass of cheerful conversation, Seliora and I walked through the back hall and down the back stairs into the courtyard and across to the stables. We stepped inside, and at the south end of the stable I saw a trap, covered with a canvas tarpaulin. I walked toward it.
“Rhenn . . . I thought we were riding,” Seliora said. “Traps like that are more dangerous than the way you ride. That hasn’t been used in years, anyway.”
“Thank you, dear lady.” I half turned and inclined my head. “We are riding, but I need to look over the trap first.”
Seliora joined me, watching as I squatted and studied the wheel and axle assembly. When I’d first come to the Collegium, I’d had to learn about various axle assemblies and even how the drive train of an ironway locomotive was constructed and operated. The trap’s wheels and bearings didn’t look that different from those I’d studied.
“Do you know if all traps have wheels and axles like this?”
“I don’t, not for sure.”
I’d have to work from that. I rose and smiled. “Let’s see if I can still saddle the mare.” I was certain I could, not because I was that good at it, but because the mare was. Even so, it was close to two quints later before we were mounted and headed northeast on the Boulevard D’Este under a sky that had finally begun to clear, even if the sun had not quite broken through the thin clouds. The wind was light, if chill, but by the time we reached the Plaza D’Nord, I was glad that I’d worn my heavy winter cloak and gloves.
“Are you warm enough?” I asked, turning in the saddle to glance at Seliora, riding beside me and wearing a black leather riding jacket over her vest. Her gloves were also black.
She was entirely in black, and I was in gray, except for black belt and boots. Black and gray . . . If I were a poet or a philosopher, I could have made something out of it.
“I’m comfortable. I’m wearing silks under the riding skirts. How about you?”
“I’m more than warm enough.”
There were almost no riders on the road, except for a private messenger who passed us heading into L’Excelsis at a good clip, not at a gallop, but at something less than a canter.
Another three quints or so brought us to the crest of the hill south of Ryel’s estate, and as we descended into the small depression or valley through which the stream ran, I studied his lands again, especially the walls around the stream, and the small turnout on the west side of the road about halfway up-or down if one happened to be headed south.
Then, as I rode up the hill, keeping the mare on the right side of the road, as close to the estate wall as I could, I attempted to image a small stone into being near the tower off the south terrace. I could just barely do that. That confirmed that for any serious imaging, I’d have to be closer and on the estate grounds. That could subject me to Ryel’s low justice, were I discovered, and that was something I’d need to avoid at all costs.
“Be careful. The mare won’t keep you on the road if you’re guiding her off it,” Seliora warned me.
“I’m sorry. I was trying something.”
She just nodded.
All the way uphill to the turnaround, I kept studying every aspect of the grounds that I could see, as well as the road itself, particularly on the steeper downslope below the gates to the estate. Then, while we ostensibly let the horses rest, I studied the chateau proper.
On the way back, I concentrated on the road, at least until we reached the crest of the rise south of the one on which the estate stood.
“Can you talk now?” asked Seliora.
“Now? Yes? Was I that intent?”
“More than that,” she said with a smile. “Did you find what you were looking for?”
“I think so, but time will tell.” Time and the effectiveness of what I planned.
When we finally returned to the courtyard at NordEste and unsaddled and groomed the horses, I was more than ready for the hot tea and cakes and cheeses that Betara had waiting for us in the breakfast room off the kitchen, a breakfast room larger than some formal dining rooms I’d been in. But then, I reminded myself, close to a triple quint of Seliora’s family and relatives might fill the room for breakfast.
Once we were settled at one end of the long table, I said, “Thank you.”
“You’re more than welcome.”
“If it’s all right, could I borrow the mare on Mardi, possibly on Meredi, or even Jeudi? Is that possible?”
“Whenever you need her. You’re not hard on her. You actually ride fairly well for someone with no experience before now.”
“I won’t be able to get here until close to half past eighth glass on Mardi.”
“Just come to the family entrance. Someone will find me.”
“Thank you.”
In the end, I didn’t return to Imagisle until close to time for Solayi services. I missed dinner, but that mattered little. I’d eaten more than enough having afternoon tea with Seliora.
Once an imager was a master, the anomen services weren’t mandatory, but most masters went. I didn’t mind going, because Chorister Isola’s homilies were usually thought-provoking. Unfortunately, this Solayi was one of the few times I wasn’t exactly enthralled by her homily.
I could tell that from almost the first few words after the offertory, when Chorister Isola stepped to the pulpit. “Good evening.”
“Good evening,” came the reply.
“And it is a good evening, for under the Nameless, all evenings are good.” She paused as she always did. “All of you here are imagers or those close to imagers. Being an imager carries a special burden. You have all been told that. It is a special burden, but there is a tendency for all of us to hear what we want to hear. Too seldom do we concentrate on the important word of those two. The important word is ‘burden,’ not ‘special.’ Yes, we can do what others cannot, but thinking that because we have an ability, a talent, that we are in some way special . . . that is no more than another case of Naming. We name ourselves as ‘special,’ without understanding that this talent, like all great abilities of all those who possess them, demands equally great responsibility. . . .”
I didn’t mind great responsibility, but it seemed to me that as a result of my special and great talent, I had been put in a situation where if I failed in the slightest, I’d be before a Collegium hearing and shortly thereafter rather thoroughly and specially dead. If I did nothing, my entire family would be slowly and specially ruined and many of them equally specially dead.
I was Namer-well aware that I had a special burden, and it had been dumped on me by Master Dichartyn and Maitre Poincaryt. My greatest problem would not even have existed if either of them had had the guts to deal directly with Lord Ryel’s excessively spoiled son. But no, I had to do that, and ever so inexorably, events were pressing in on me, and as a result, one way or another, people would die, and one way or another, I would be responsible.
After the final prayer, I was still angry when I left with the others. Instead of heading back to my quarters, I slipped off to the walk along the west side of Imagisle and followed it to the Bridge of Stones, which I crossed. I kept walking southward along West River Road for almost a mille to the abandoned and burned-out shell of an old mill that I’d noticed earlier.