He took his hands away and I put on my gloves, picked up my helmet. Inside my suit there seemed a great barrier between me and the room and the ordinary things in it. The uneven stack of books and papers on the floor near my feet, the soft covers on the bed, the round porthole with silt swirling outside it.
Then his hands were back, flat and firm and still on my shoulders. I flexed my fingers in my gloves. I put my helmet on, locked it, and listened to the pop and suck of its seal.
53
At minus sixty-five minutes I strap myself into my seat. I begin my prelaunch checklist and call off tasks as I complete them to Amelia and Simon and Rachel, who are close enough to touch. Their bodies are large in their suits, their heads small. The fuel and oxidizer turbo pumps begin to whine as I finish my list. There is a strong smell of rocket fuel, mixed with rubber sealant and recycled air. Minus five minutes is announced and I check my helmet’s seal. At one minute to launch the whine grows; I feel a shuddering vibration through my chest and jaw.
A roar comes from below us and the rocket sways. My breath is hot and loud inside my helmet but my hands are steady as I flip a switch to check the flow of oxygen. The rocket supports fall away and the roar grows; a second passes, two seconds, and then—we leap into the air. My body slams against my seat; my visor fogs. The second-stage rockets fire and my chest presses hard against my restraints. We separate from the rocket, and as it falls away its reflection passes across my crew’s visors, briefly changing them from black to white. The air turns silent, cool. My body lightens in my seat, and things float by: dust, bits of fabric, small bolts.
The communications feed crackles and fizzes and I wait for a human voice on the other end of the line. Outside the porthole the Pink Planet isn’t visible; there is only an expanse of deep black and it seems to unfold, and unfold, dark and infinite. More dust floats by, hundreds of white pinpricks that match the explosion of stars outside.
The feed crackles on and on.
And on and on.
Then—a voice in my ear, soft and low, slightly tinny. It’s James’s voice; he is saying my name, June. With the sound the unfolding expanse collapses. Now it’s no more than the width of a thread. I say his name too and undo my restraints and let myself float free.
For Bennett and Sullivan
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Books have no life without readers and I’m deeply grateful for the incredible early readers of this noveclass="underline" My agent Brettne Bloom, who knows how I feel about her, and my wonderful editor Andrea Walker. I am blessed with their intelligence and insight.
Thank you also to my longtime writing partners, Lindsey Lee Johnson, Kevinne Moran, and Rita Michelle Pogue. Nine years running, they are always right. Thanks to Danya Bush, who read more permutations of June and James than anyone else. And to my dad David Johnson, who read early drafts and lent his sharp editorial eye.
In preparation to write this novel I read a lot about living in space and am particularly indebted to two memoirs: Diary of a Cosmonaut: 211 Days in Space by Valentin Lebedev and Endurance: My Year in Space, A Lifetime of Discovery by Scott Kelly. I could not have written this book without Space Camp and the U.S. Space and Rocket Center, where I gained hands-on experience with the equipment and technology I describe in this book. A special thank you to Erin “Clover” Shay and the members of Pioneer Team.
Thank you also to: Everyone at Random House, most especially Emma Caruso, who is always behind the scenes getting things done. Everyone at Transworld, including my U.K. editor Jane Lawson and Alice Youell. Everyone at The Book Group, with extra gratitude to Hallie Schaeffer, who was a perceptive early reader. Jenny Meyer and Heidi Gall at Jenny Meyer Literary. Jason Richman and Nora Henrie at United Talent Agency.
Corporeal Writing, Lidia Yuknavitch, and Domi Shoemaker. Daniel Torday, Courtney Sullivan, Eowyn Ivey, and Danya Kukafka. Grass Roots Books and Music, The Book Bin, and the Corvallis Public Library. Everyone at Tried and True Coffee.
Perpetual gratitude to:
My husband, Kevin Day, who always supports me, and who helped me keep writing even in the midst of a pandemic. My children, Bennett and Sullivan. Our talented caregiver Camille Carrington. And of course my amazing mom, Jean Johnson.
BY KATE HOPE DAY
If, Then
In the Quick
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Kate Hope Day is the author of If, Then. She holds a BA from Bryn Mawr College and a PhD in English from the University of Pittsburgh. She was an associate producer at HBO. She lives in Oregon with her husband and their two children.
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In the Quick is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
Copyright © 2021 by Kate Hope Day
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Hardback ISBN 9780525511250
Ebook ISBN 9780525511267
Book design by Alexis Capitini, adapted for ebook
Cover design: Anna Kochman
Cover art: Jeremy Geddes
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