He caught her stare. “Gorgeous, isn’t it? Cost me a pretty penny, I’ll tell you. About a million and a half.”
“Dollars? I think you got ripped off,” she said, frowning, and thought, A million and a half for a print?
He snickered. “Watch this,” he added, sounding pleased with himself.
His hands hovered over the desk for a moment, and then lightly placed an index finger on a specific spot in the middle of the desktop. He then steepled his fingers and stared into her face for a reaction. She tried to look over the surface of the desk, but she could not figure out what he was doing. Then something happened that made the whole room shift slightly. She felt her equilibrium momentarily shudder.
The grid on which the ants walked began slowly turning, in high definition, and the ants crept over it, inside and out, tirelessly. When it turned a certain way, a tiny spark of artificial sun beamed off an edge, giving it a definite metallic look, gleaming gray-green. The entire wall was a projected image, although no one ever guessed that at first glance. All were fooled, equally. And, she silently observed, it was not her imagination that it appeared stereoscopic; there was great depth in the graphic. She gasped and thought Escher would have been pleased with the wonders of modern technology as his print had, quite literally, sprang to life.
“Love Escher,” was her simple reply.
“I stare at it all the time. The entire wall is covered with a very expensive lenticular lens, so no 3-D glasses are needed. It couldn’t really exist, of course, because one of these realities simply isn’t there. Not real. Not ‘true’, is a better way of saying it. Maybe none of them are real.” He recollected the remarks he was going to make the moment she entered his office, and decided to start there. “Your appearance here, Dr. Begels, is surprising.” He laughed nervously. “I’m sure you’ve heard that a thousand times.” When he saw that she was not looking at him, but had continued to stare at the Escher display, he touched the surface of the desk again, and the walking ants and the revolving grid stopped, but did not seem flat like ordinary paintings. “Too distracting, you see.” And tittered, proud of this modern marvel.
She smiled/winced. “And the other one.”
“The ‘other one?’”
“’Your father must have wanted a boy.’ And before you ask, yes, it is my real name.” She brushed a long strand of hair back that had escaped her ponytail. And sighed.
“Ah,” he said, sizing her up. He tapped his fingers on the boxed manuscript that was positioned neatly on the right corner of his desk. Leaning forward, he asked suddenly, “Dr. Begels, do you understand the importance of this find, this manuscript? I really don’t know what to make of it, actually. Of course, it’s too controversial not to publish. You say you have submitted it to no one else?”
“That’s right,” she said, with a sly grin. “We agreed on a set price — rather steep — and that is all I ask. Well, actually, I shall expect my share of the royalties, should this hideous little tome become popular. I have my doubts, though. I have lived with this hellish book for more years than I care to think. I have fulfilled my part of the bargain. The rest is up to you.”
“What do you mean?”
“I have promised a certain group — who I will tell you more about later — to do my best to get it published. I have done my part. They believe that it is not important that the book becomes popular, but that it does exist as a serious reference for posterity, or something like that. They said something about the manuscript being an important key of some sort. I do not understand that — the thing about a ‘key’ — even though I translated the book. And I promise you, I won’t pursue trying to understand it either.” She brushed a trembling hand beneath an eye, and then put it stiffly in her lap with the other one.
“I see. In your” (slight, painful grimace, she noticed), “quite lengthy cover letter, Dr. Begels, you say that you personally unearthed seventeen bound leather volumes in, um, let me check some notes I made… in 1989. Is that right?”
“That’s right. Before we are permitted to dig in an area, we must show just cause. I went before my team and conducted a few preliminary digs.” She blinked several times. He nodded, believing it was a nervous twitch, or better yet, a mild form of Tourettes syndrome.
“Is that, uh, legal?”
“No, not at all, but I did it anyway. I had a funny feeling about this one. Anyway, when I found a few volumes, I begged my father to purchase the land so that the find could be mine alone.”
“Clever,” the publisher said. “I have a question about the person who received this uh, unedited manuscript in the form of, uh, apparently automatic writing, isn’t that right?”
“Unfortunately, I cannot tell you what would amount to concrete evidence. Everything I’m about to share with you, in one degree or another, is educated conjecture. Reliable guess-timates, you see? Whether it was male or female, there was simply no historical record. There was none with any of the bound manuscripts. I can only surmise — without data — that the person was driven quite insane. To have this hideous stuff just appear in your head… horrible! The compulsion to write it all down would have been maddening, I’m sure. The reason I think it was written in pretty much an automatic style, as do the others in the group, is because much of it is written in a rushed hand. The same rushed hand, the words jammed together — unbroken. It gave me the impression that great parts of it were written at once. Not thought over, not plotted, like a novel, but rushed. We thought it might hint at the fact that it was written as if dictated.
“And let me assure you, sir,” she said grinning wryly, “there are no more volumes, so please don’t think that if the book becomes popular, that a few million dollars might make me mysteriously ‘find’ some more that, whoops! we just overlooked the first time, thus creating sequels. The royalty checks, if there are any, can be sent to my attorney, who will forward them to me.
“But I will tell you what I think happened, if you like.” Her face lost its disinterested stare, he noted. This was obviously born of conviction.
“Uh, yes, I wish you would.”
“I think it was forced upon some young girl just blossoming into womanhood, or -”
“Or,” he interjected, “someone of a strict religious order.”
“You’ve thought of that one, too,” she said, smiling, then hurriedly chewed on a bit of fingernail.
“How cruel that — I’m just guessing on the method of transcribing, mind you — every time you sat down to write your lessons or perhaps to painstakingly write out a page of illuminated manuscript… and this came out!”
“But, in the unedited manuscript, which is impossible to imagine in print,” she added, “if this were the case, she either buried the manuscript herself, or kept it hidden from everyone. A woman writing this kind of literature up until modern times was considered unstable, at best, if they wrote this kind of thing. Worst-case scenario, she could have been burned at the stake or tortured, depending on what era she actually lived. If it were kept by a dark order, her identity could possibly have been kept secret.”
“You keep saying ‘she.’ Is that intentional?”
“I’ll get to that in a minute. Now, all of this is pure conjecture. It’s frustrating, because the mind naturally plows this ground, seeking answers. The person who received all of this, who was mentioned in the manuscript only briefly, is never referred to by name or sex.”