A twitch of the shoulders, a subtle hunch forward quickly hidden by turning down a rug-lined hall. “My brothers work the selium mines, sir.”
“Ah,” was all Detan could manage. The night he’d escaped from Aransa, he and Pelkaia had burned the mine’s Hub to the ground – and with it Aransa’s economic stability.
Welkai stopped. He stood perpendicular to the wall, his body stiff all over with repressed emotion – emotions Detan didn’t even want to guess at. Welkai knew who he was. And even though Thratia had made it clear as a blue sky to all of Aransa that Detan Honding hadn’t actually been responsible for the fire at the Hub after all, it’d been the doppel… well. That hadn’t been the story she’d spread originally. Originally, she’d let the truth fly through the streets, had let the people of Aransa learn to hate him. Didn’t matter what she said now. Rumors were rumors, and anger was a real hard thing to let go.
“Sir.”
Detan flinched. He’d braced himself subconsciously, preparing for a strike – physical or verbal – that he knew, really knew, that he deserved.
“I – I’m sorry,” he stammered. He knew he owed them all an apology. Knew words weren’t really sufficient.
Welkai shifted his weight, lips pressed hard together as if he were holding something back. Probably he was. Probably his family couldn’t afford to lose one more source of income due to Detan fucking Honding.
“Your room, sir.” Welkai unlatched the door that stood between them, let it swing open. “If that is all you need…?”
He hesitated, hating to ask this man for any more than he’d already taken from him. But if he were going to see Hond Steading safe from Thratia, he needed to leverage everything he had. Even if that meant leaning on a man he’d already taken far too much from. With a false smile plastered over his face, as if they were old friends and not potential enemies, Detan leaned on the door frame and tried to look abashed.
“Thank you for the escort, my good man. Tell me, I docked here with two other companions – Forge and Clink are their names. What rooms did they end up in?”
Welkai’s brow furrowed in legitimate confusion. “I’m sorry, sir. Only yourself, Aella, and her staff took rooms here. If there were others, they may have sought rooms in the city. Perhaps the Oasis hotel.”
Detan forced his smile wide to keep from grimacing. “Thank you, I’ll check for them there.”
Welkai bowed, all rigid formality, which was somehow more hurtful to Detan than outright anger. Anger he knew well. Polite indifference was another weapon altogether.
He let himself into the room and shut the door, hands shaking from more than exhaustion. Welkai. Renold Grandon. The faces of the havoc he’d wrought the last time he’d blown through Aransa haunted him. One he’d targeted simply because he hadn’t liked his manner, the other an innocent casualty of his desperation to escape.
But not just to escape. He’d been trying to do some good. Trying to save deviants, if he at all could, from the same horrors he’d experienced locked up with the whitecoats. Trying to get his friends clear of the terror, too. How many people had he harmed, trying to set things right? What right had he, to decide what was best for a city?
He’d failed Aransa. Failed this city in a variety of ways he was now certain he wasn’t finished discovering. But he wouldn’t fail Hond Steading, too. Wouldn’t let the city his mother had loved and his dear auntie protected fall under Thratia Ganal’s control.
No matter her so-called reasons – and he wasn’t yet convinced he believed her – she was a woman who couldn’t be trusted. A woman who traded lives into torturous ruin just to reach her greater cause. A woman who let Bel Grandon bleed out at her feet, just to make life more difficult for Detan.
No. Thratia may think she was doing the right thing, but she was no salvation. Not for Hond Steading. Not for the Scorched. Not for anyone. He’d stop her. He had to.
And he was going to have to convince her he was willing to marry her to do it.
When he’d stopped trembling, Detan stripped off his dusty, sweaty clothes and pitched them to the floor, scarcely taking in the room he’d been appointed for his stay here. Bed, rug, wardrobe, window, wash basin. Wasn’t too much different from Thratia’s room, save the lackluster view looking out on the dusty warehouse district, but it was plusher than a lot of hovels he’d spent his time in. And still, somehow, more oppressive than the stinkiest jail cell he’d ever been locked in.
Methodically, he washed and dressed again, trying not to think too hard about the fancy clothes that’d been stuffed in his wardrobe. Trying not to think too hard about how well they all fit him, and how they’d been tailored in shades of ash and stark carnelian. Flame and smoke. Thratia knew what he was, what he could still become. And though she claimed she did not need his deviant sense to gain control of Hond Steading, she was no fool. She’d let her enemies know, through whispers, that little Lord Honding was all grown up, and hadn’t lost his sel-sense at all. No, he’d been forged into something else. Something dangerous. Dangerous enough that not even the empire – though skies knew they tried – could keep him on a leash. He’d never be able to hide from the fire in his veins again.
Which meant he must own it, must truly master his own temper, to survive what was coming next. For Valathea would be coming for him in force, now that the secret was open, and he had no doubt that the simple fact of his existence would create for him enemies he’d never dreamt of. And worse, never see coming.
As he dressed, he recalled old lessons his mother had drilled into him before her death. Thought long and hard about duties he’d promised to uphold long before he’d blown the selium pipeline he worked to cinders and found himself a guest of the Bone Tower.
Power is no gift, she’d told him as her breath rattled in her chest. Power is a burden that must be leashed, always, to the good of those who do not hold it.
He’d never questioned her. Never dared to press her for deeper meaning. Everything she told him he absorbed like a sponge, hoarded it greedily in the vaults of his memory. His mother had never been well, not in his living memory. The bonewither took her early, set her trembling and pale and fragile. He’d used to hug her by circling his arms around her waist, and marveling how he could touch his hands behind her without ever touching her at all.
And now, dressing in the formal clothes she might have picked for him had she lived to see him through to adulthood, he wondered: did she know? Was she as prone to fire as he, though she hid it a thousand times better?
Pelkaia had intimated as much. Had claimed that his bloodline was meant to be extinct, that the only possible reason for his existence was a Catari exile who must have ended up in Valathea, fleeing those hunting them for the strength of their sel-sense.
What secrets haunted his family? What had his mother been trying to tell him, in all her quiet lessons on power? He had thought she meant the rule of Hond Steading. And she had, at least on the surface. But… But his auntie had never given him such lessons, and certainly never in the tone of voice his mother had used. And his auntie had not a hint of sel-sense in her body.
Detan stared up at the sky through his sliver of a window and asked the smeared clouds, “Did you know?”
He’d pushed himself away from her lessons after he’d escaped the Bone Tower, assuming he’d never take his old family throne. But now he faced it, faced that future, and wondered if he’d ever really known his family at all.
He shook himself. One thing was as certain as the pits were molten, his mother would have slapped him upside the head for ever allowing Thratia Ganal to get within a step of Hond Steading’s reins.