She looked at him levelly, hands on hips, the spoon with which she had been stirring the contents of the wok jutting from one of them.
Her severity was offset by a trace of a smile. “I said my good glasses, Ralph Roberts, not my best glasses.”
“Yes, ma’am,” he said, grinning, then added: “From the way that smells, I guess you still remember how to cook for a man.”
“The proof of the pudding is in the eating,” Lois replied, but Ralph thought she looked pleased as she turned back to the wok.
The food was good, and they didn’t talk about what had happened in the park as they applied themselves to it. Ralph’s appetite had become uncertain, out more often than in, since his insomnia had really begun to bite, but today he ate heartily and chased Lois’s spicy stir-fry with three glasses of apple cider (hoping uneasily as he finished the last one that the rest of the day’s activities wouldn’t take him too far from a toilet). When they had finished, Lois got up, went to the sink, and began to draw hot water for dishes. As she did, she resumed their earlier conversation as if it were a half-finished piece of knitting which had been temporarily laid aside for some other, more pressing, chore.
“What did you do to me?” she asked him. “What did you do to make the colors come back?”
“I don’t know.”
“It was as if I was on the edge of that world, and when you put your hands over my eyes, you pushed me into it.”
He nodded, remembering how she’d looked in the first few seconds after he’d removed his hands-as if she’d just taken off a pair of goggles which had been dipped in powdered sugar. “It was pure instinct. And you’re right, it is like a world. I keep thinking of it just that way, as the world of auras.”
“It’s wonderful, isn’t it? I mean, it’s scary, and when it first started to happen to me-back in late July or early August, this was-I was sure I was going crazy, but even then I liked it, too. I couldn’t help liking it.”
Ralph gazed at her, startled. Had he once upon a time thought of Lois as transparent? Gossipy? Unable to keep a secret?
No, I’m afraid it is a little more than that, old buddy.)’On thought she was shallow. You saw her pretty much through Bill’s eyes, as a matter of fact: as “Our Lois.” No less… but not much more.
“What?” she asked, a little uneasily. “Why are you looking at me like that?”
“You’ve been seeing these auras since summer? That long?”
“Yes-brighter and brighter. Also more often. That’s why I finally went to see the tattletale. Did I really shoot that thing with my finger, Ralph? The more time goes by, the less I can believe that part of it.”
“You did. I did something like it myself shortly before I ran into you.”
He told her about his earlier confrontation with Doc #3, and about how he had banished the dwarf… temporarily, at least, He raised his hand to his shoulder and brought it swiftly down. “That’s all I did-like a kid pretending to be Chuck Norris or Steven Seagal.
But it sent this incredible bolt of blue light at him, and he scurried in a hurry. Which was probably for the best, because I couldn’t have done it again. I don’t know how I did that, either.
Could you have shot your finger again?”
Lois giggled, turned toward him, and cocked her finger in his general direction. “Want to find out? Kapow! Kablam!”
“Don’t point dat ding at me, lady,” Ralph told her. He smiled as he said it, but wasn’t entirely sure he was joking.
Lois lowered her finger and squirted joy into the sink. As she began to stir the water around with one hand, puffing up the suds, she asked what Ralph thought of as the Big Questions: “Where did this power come from, Ralph? And what’s it for?”
He shook his head as he got up and walked over to the dish drainer. “I don’t know and I don’t know.
How’s that for helpful?
Where do you keep your dish-wipers, Lois?”
“Never mind where I keep my dish-wipers. Go sit down. Please tell me you’re not one of these modern men, Ralph-the ones that are always hugging each other and bawling.”
Ralph laughed and shook his head. “Nope. I was just well trained, that’s all.”
“Okay. As long as you don’t start going on about how sensitive you are. There are some things a girl likes to find out for herself.”
She opened the cupboard under the sink and tossed him a faded but scrupulously clean dishtowel. ’Just dry them and put them on the counter. I’ll put them away myself. While you’re working, you can tell me your story. The unabridged version.”
“You got a deal.”
He was still wondering where to begin when his mouth opened, seemingly of its own accord, and began for him. “When I finally started to get it through my head that Carolyn was going to die, I went for a lot of walks. And one day, while I was out on the Extension.
He told her everything, beginning with his intervention between Ed and the fat man wearing the West Side Gardeners gimme-cap and ending with Bill telling him that he’d better go see his doctor, because at their age mental illness was common, at their age it was common as hell. He had to double back several times to pick up dropped stitches-the way Old Dor had showed up in the middle of his efforts to keep Ed from going at the man from West Side Gardeners, for instance-but he didn’t mind doing that, and Lois didn’t seem to have any trouble keeping his narrative straight, either.
The overall feeling Ralph was conscious of as he wound his way through his tale was a relief so deep it was nearly painful. it was as if someone. had stacked bricks on his heart and mind and he was now removing them, one by one.
By the time he was finished, the dishes were done and they had left the kitchen in favor of the living room with its dozens of framed photographs, presided over by Mr. Chasse from his place on the TV.
“So?” Ralph said. “How much of it do you believe?”
“All of it, of course,” she said, and either did not notice the expression of relief on Ralph’s face or chose to ignore it. “After what we saw this morning-not to mention what you knew about my wonderful daughter-in-law-I can’t very well not believe. That’s my advantage over Bill.”
Not your only one, Ralph thought but didn’t say.
“None of this stuff is coincidental, is it?” she asked him.
Ralph shook his head. “No, I don’t think so.”
“When I was seventeen,” she said, “my mother hired this boy from down the road-Richard Henderson, his name was-to do chores around our place.
There were a lot of boys she could have hired, but she hired Richie because she liked him… and she liked him for me, if you understand what I mean.”
“Of course I do, She was matchmaking.”
“Uh-huh, but at least she wasn’t doing it in a big, gruesome, embarrassing way. Thank God, because I didn’t care a fig for Richie at least not like that. Still, Mother gave it her very best. If I was studying my books at the kitchen table, she’d have him loading the woodbox even though it was May and already hot. if I was feeding the chickens, she’d have Richie cutting side-bay next to the dooryard.
She wanted me to see him around… to get used to him… and if we got to like each other’s company and he asked me to a dance or the town fair, that would have been just fine with her. it was gentle, but it was there. A push. And that’s what this is like.”
“The pushes don’t feel all that gentle to me Ralph said. His hand went nvoluntarily to the place where Charlie Pickering had pricked him with the point of his knife.
“No, of course they don’t. Having a man stick a knife in your ribs like that must have been horrible. Thank God you had that spray can. Do you suppose Old Dor sees the auras, too? That something from that world told him to put the can in your pocket?”
Ralph gave a helpless shrug. What she was suggesting had crossed his mind, but once you got beyond it, the ground really started to slope away. Because if Dorrance had done that, it suggested that some (entity) force or being had known that Ralph would need help. Nor was that all. That force-or being-would also have had to know that (a) Ralph would be going out on Sunday afternoon, that (b) the weather, quite nice up until then, would turn nasty enough to require a jacket, and (c) which jacket he would wear. You were talking, in other words, about something that could foretell the future. The idea that he had been noticed by such a force frankly scared the hell out of him. He recognized that in the case of the aerosol can, at least, the intervention had probably saved his life, but it still scared the hell out of him.