… different, and so very, very hard. He wasn’t just a junior destroyer captain anymore, who only had to follow orders. His job had changed profoundly. For a moment he envied men like Silva, men who did their jobs but were free to leave the care and responsibility to others at the end of the watch. Matt’s watch never ended. He was the job. He only hoped no one else would have to die before he figured out what, exactly, it had become.
He replaced his shirt with a dry one, ran a comb through his greasy hair, and put his hat back on. He searched the mirror above his little desk for signs of the anxiety that threatened to overwhelm him, and with a wary snort, he shouldered through the curtain to become captain of DD- 163 again.
Dennis Silva leaned against the vegetable locker between the number three and number four funnels while Stites, Campeti, and Jamie Miller worked. They were sewing Marvaney into his mattress cover, and blood glistened black against the white cloth where it soaked through from his gruesome wound and dried in the afternoon sun. Silva felt.. . depressed, he guessed, and that was an emotion he’d never experienced before. He always said he had only four “feelings”-horny, hungry, happy, and mad-and he was less than half joking. Now he knew a fifth. Mad was part of it, sure. But it was deeper and less focused and had already lasted longer than the others ever did. He’d felt it since Marvaney was killed, and that had been what? Almost three hours ago? Must be depression, he told himself with a sigh. No tellin’ what I’ll be pinin’ over next.
He would miss Marvaney. They’d been shipmates for four years and raised hell from Cavite to Singapore-until the dummy got married and reformed. But they had a lot of laughs and busted a lot of heads, and he’d always been a good man at your back. Now he was dead and Silva realized he’d lost one of the few people that his loose definition of “true friend” applied to. He wished he had a drink.
“Don’t forget ‘the object,’” he grumped, referring to the item that he’d chosen to carry his friend to the depths.
Campeti glared at him. “Can’t you think of nothin’ else? Christ, it ain’t hardly fittin’! And besides, what are we gonna listen to?”
“The object” was a bundle of about fifty records, part of a large collection Marvaney had aboard and often played on a portable wind-up turntable. The 78s were plenty heavy, more than sufficient to carry him down.
“Relax, Sonny. I only picked the old stuff nobody else likes. He liked ’em, though, and he ought’a keep ’em.”
Campeti shook his head. “All right, Dennis, but when they’re gone, they’re gone. We might never hear them songs again.”
“Suits me. I like dancin’ to livelier tunes. Them waltzes and shit is for grandmas.”
“Dancin’!” snorted Campeti, a general, growing concern on his mind. “Who with?”
They were silent while “the object” was solemnly placed at Marvaney’s feet and the last stitches finished. Finally, the young pharmacist’s mate spoke tentatively. “Chief Bashear said he killed six lizards. How many did you get, Silva?”
Dennis snorted. “Six, huh? Where I was standin’, I didn’t see him kill any. Well, one, maybe. Give him an assist.”
“How about you?” Miller prodded. Silva shrugged. “Two or three, I guess. Hell, everybody was shootin’. Who knows?”
Stites glanced at Campeti and then looked at Silva again. “How about the Skipper? Boy, he sure looked mad!”
Silva nodded. “Yeah, he got one or two. With his pistol. He just stood there and let one run right up to him and bam!” He clapped his hands. “Right in the eye! The Skipper’s got guts, I’ll say that.” He looked thoughtful. “He was mad, though. I never seen him that mad. I don’t know if he was madder that they got Mack or that we ran out’a lizards to kill. He wasn’t even that mad that time in Subic when me and-” He stopped, and a huge grin slowly spread across his face. “Well, never mind, boys. I got that rocker back later anyway.” The others laughed as they finished preparations to send their friend to his watery grave.
That evening, as the sun touched the horizon, there was a small, forlorn splash alongside the lonely, rust-streaked ship. For a while, it remained still as the gloom deepened and the running lights snapped on. It must have been a strange, alien image to any creature watching from shore. Puffs of smoke rose from the aft funnels and hung motionless in the calm evening air. Then, slowly, it began to move. Most of the creatures paid it no heed; their interests were wholly devoted to packing vegetation into their large, multiple stomachs. If they’d witnessed the strange events of the day, they’d already forgotten.
Not all had forgotten, however. Some watched intently and continued to stare at the lights as they moved through the slot and into the strait beyond, long after the shape of the ship itself was lost to view.
Keje-Fris-Ar sat on a stool beside his breakfast table in the ornately decorated chamber that was the foundation for the central tower of Home. It was the largest chamber on the entire ship that wasn’t given over to livestock or cargo, and it was tastefully adorned with colorful tapestries and finely carved figures. Puffy pillows clustered in the various discussion areas, and in the center of all towered a nearly mature Galla tree, growing from a basin of earth that extended down to the very keel. Ample sunlight for it to thrive flowed through colorfully decorated hatches that were usually, as now, flung wide. A gentle breeze circulated to rustle the long, green-gold leaves. The only thing marring the dignity and splendor of the chamber was the small, plain table, set to one side, where Keje-Fris-Ar, High Chief of all the clans of Salissa Home, and his companion, High Sky Priest Adar, enjoyed their morning meal. The splendid hall was Keje’s personal office, throne room, and council chamber rolled into one, where matters of great importance to all the clans were discussed. On such occasions, the ceremony and dignity were solemn indeed. But for everyday use, when there were no great matters to attend in proper form, Keje preferred his little table. Besides, he knew it amused Adar to dine with him thus.
The High Chief was the absolute monarch of Home, but the three towers supporting the great wings were controlled by their various chiefs, who enjoyed a degree of autonomy. An autonomy that could grow tiresome. Sometimes, the Sky Priests acted as intermediaries between the clans, because they were of no clan and all must serve the Heavens. Because of this trust, and because the Sky Priests-at least on Salissa- weren’t oppressively spiritual, they enjoyed a position of esteem and a reputation for impartiality when dealing with the everyday squabbles among the several chiefs. But their efforts in this regard were subordinate to their primary duty. Their charge was to read the Heavens and ponder the stars and interpret them to others, who saw only points of light. The Sky Priests told them where they were, where they were going, and how to get there. They relayed the truths of the Heavens, which were above all things.
It was the High Chief who had to cajole, inspire, or force the clan chiefs to cooperate to do what the Heavens decreed if the Sky Priests couldn’t help them agree, with him or each other. That was one of the reasons he generally declined the pomp of his exalted office, at least in everyday life. He didn’t demand the near deification some High Chiefs of other Homes enjoyed, through constant ritual and an untouchable attitude, but he enjoyed a higher, more genuine status than many of his peers through respect for his abilities and wisdom. There was always contention, but his Home suffered less from the incessant squabbling that sometimes plagued other Homes because he led by example and was followed by the willing.
That didn’t mean he didn’t enjoy his status. He believed he was a good High Chief, and the People of Salissa Home prospered under his rule. What it did mean was he felt more comfortable eating at a small table, with his Sky Priest, whenever important rituals didn’t interfere.
“So tell me, my lord,” spoke Adar, delicately dabbing at his whiskers with an intricately woven kerchief, “have you given more thought to our visitors on the quick, smoky vessel?”