Stay with at that point was another question. Adapt to it, was a very serious question. He didn't think so, not in the long term.
More, he didn't want to sleep with her again. It had become a settled issue, Barb's self-interest, Barb's steel-edged self-protection: the very quality that had made her his safe refuge raised very serious questions, with Barb brought into the diplomatic interface, under the stress the life necessarily imposed —
And the constant security. And the fact — they needed each other more than they loved each other. Or loved anyone at all, any longer. They'd damaged each other. Badly.
"So?" Tabini asked him.
"Barb is a question," he said. "Let me think about it, aiji-ma, with my profound gratitude."
"And your household, not?"
"My mother —" He'd spoken to Tabini only in respectful terms of his mother. Of Toby. "She's very human. She's very temperous."
"Ill-omened gods, Bren, I have grandmother. They could amuse each other for hours!"
He had to laugh. "A disaster, aiji-ma. I fear — a disaster. And my brother — if he couldn't have his Friday golf game, I think he'd pine and die."
"Golf." Tabini made a circular motion of the hand. "The game with the little ball."
"Exactly so."
"This is a passion?"
"One gambleson it."
"Ah." To an atevi that explained everything — and restored Tabini's estimate of Toby's sanity.
"My relatives are as they are. Barb — I'll have to think. I fear my mind right now is on the ship. And the business last night. And Hanks-paidhi."
"Forget Hanks-paidhi."
That was ominous. And he resolutely shut his mouth. Protest had already cost two lives.
"I trust," Tabini said then — but Naidiri came in, bowed despite Tabini's casual attitude, and presented a small message roll, at which Tabini groaned.
"It came with a cylinder," Naidiri said. "Considering the source, we decided security was better than formality."
"I certainly prefer it." Tabini opened it and read it. "Ah. Nand' paidhi. Geigi sends his profound respect of your person and assures you his mathematicians find great interest in the proposed solution to the paradox, which they believe to have far-reaching significance. He is distraught and dismayed that his flowers were rejected at the airport, which he believes was due to your justified offense at his doubt. He wishes to travel to Taiben in person to present his respect and regret. The man is determined, nadi."
"What shall I answer this man?" Bren asked. "This is beyond my experience, aiji-ma."
"Say that you take his well-wishes as a desirable foundation for good relations and that you look forward personally to hearing his interpretation of the formulae and the science as soon as you've returned to the capital. Naidi-ji, phrase some such thing. Answer in the paidhi's name before this man buys up all the florists in Shejidan. — You've quite terrified the man, Bren-ji. And quite — quite uncharacteristically so. Geigi is not a timorous man. He's sent me very passionate letters opposing my intentions. What in all reason did you say to him?"
"I don't know, aiji-ma. I never, never wished to alarm him."
"Power. Like it or not." Tabini gave back the message roll, and Naidiri went back, one presumed, to the little staff office Taiben had in the back hall. "On my guess, the man doesn't understand why you went personally to the observatory. He doesn't understand the signal you sent — weknow your impulsive character. But lord Geigi — is completely at a loss."
"I couldn't rely on someone to translate mathematics to me when so much was riding on it. Third-hand never helps on something I can hardly understand myself. — Besides, it was nand' Grigiji's work. Banichi said he baffles his own students."
"That he does," Tabini said. "I've asked what we should do for this man. He professed himself content, and took a nap."
"Did he?"
"The emeritus' students, however, begged the paidhi to give them a chance to write to the university on Mospheira."
Bren drew in a breath and let it go slowly. "Very deep water."
"One believes so."
"Access to atevi computer theory discussions? The university would be interested. It might move the cursed committee."
"Possibly."
He couldn't help it, then. He gave a quiet, rueful laugh. "If Mospheira's speaking to me. I've yet to prove that. And the ship — will change a lot of things."
"Ah. No challenge even for my 'possibly.' So sad."
"I will challenge it. But I won't tell you how in advance, aiji-ma. Leave me my maneuvering room."
Tabini laughed silently. "So. You and I were to go fishing. But I fear there's a business afoot —"
He didn't know how he could drag himself out of the chair. Or, in fact, sleep at night. "One understood back in Shejidan, aiji-ma, that the fish might have to wait."
"You look very tired."
"I can look more enthusiastic. Tell me where and when. Otherwise I'll save it for the landing."
"I think we should have a quiet supper, the two of us. We should talk about the character of our women, share a game of darts, and drink by the fire."
"That sounds like a very good program, aiji-ma."
"The fish can sleep safely this evening, then. Possibly the paidhi will get some rest."
"The paidhi certainly intends to try."
It was, as Tabini promised, a quiet supper. Other people were very busy — Banichi and Jago had gone off duty for the last quarter of the afternoon and, one assumed, fallen facedown and slept like stones, Bren told himself: it had to be rare that they could sleep in the sure knowledge they were absolutely safe, absolutely surrounded by security, and the primary job wasn't theirs.
He certainly didn't begrudge them that.
And after supper, Tabini defeated him soundly at darts — but he won three games of ten, whether by skill or the aiji's courtesy, and they sat, as Tabini had promised, by the fire.
"I'd imagine our visitors are well away by now," Bren said in the contemplation the moment offered. "I'd imagine they'll board the lander at the very last — ride out in whatever craft will take them to the brink, and perform their last-minute checks tomorrow. Everything has to be on schedule, or I'm sure they'd have called."
"These are very brave people," Tabini said.
"Very scared people. It's a very old lander." He took a sip of liquor and stared into the endless patterns of the wood fire. "The world's changing, aiji-ma. Mine is, the mainland will." Tabini had never yet mentioned Ilisidi's presence in the house. "I have a request, aiji-ma, that regard for me should never prompt you to grant against your better judgment. They tell me the dowager was here last night. That she's with the Atigeini. — Which I do not understand. But I would urge —"
Tabini was utterly quiet for the moment. Not looking at him. And he looked back toward the fire.
"In my perhaps mistaken judgment, aiji-ma — the dowager, if she is involved, seems more the partisan of the Preservation Commission than of any political faction. At least regarding ideas expressed to me. Perhaps she was behind the events last night. But I don't think so."
"You don't think so."
"I think if Cenedi had meant to do me harm, he had far subtler means. And they wouldn't guest with the Atigeini if they'd shot up the breakfast room. That's all I'll say this evening on politics. But I want to speak for the dowager, if I have any credit at all."
"Your last candidate for favor was Hanks-paidhi."
"True."
"Well, trust grandmother to find a landing spot. I offered her a plane. Which she declined."
"It's, as I said, Tabini-ma, the limit of my knowledge. I only wish to communicate my impression that she viewed the experience of atevi before humans came as an important legacy to guide the aiji in an age of change and foreign ways. I realize I'm a very poor spokesman for that viewpoint. But even against your displeasure I advance it, as my minimal debt to what I believe to be a wise and farseeing woman."