Henry wracked his brain for a proper response. Caro was awfully cheerful considering the bent of their conversation. Not that he had particularly wanted tears or a tantrum, but this blithe unconcern—he felt he saw only a mirror. She reflected what those around her wanted to see, but who was she really? The uncertainty made him uneasy.
And that, more than anything else, was reason enough to stop writing the letters. He needn’t stop them for Frances’s sake. He would stop them for his own. “My feelings for any other lady don’t affect my decision, Caro. I’m truly sorry if it causes you pain.”
To his surprise, she smiled again, wide and lovely. “You have nothing to apologize for, Henry. You needed something for a short time, and I was happy to be a part of it. Now you find you need something else. Who can fault you for that? Your life has been unmade, and you are remaking it.”
Henry’s mouth opened, but he could think of nothing that he ought to make it say. Finally, he managed, “You are very perceptive.”
“I am indeed.” She settled back against her long sofa again. “More than the world realizes, Henry. For example, this lady for whom you will not admit your regard. It’s Frannie, yes?”
He flailed for the cool dignity he’d often sported as Captain Middlebrook of the First Foot Guards. “I’d prefer to discuss my feelings for Frances with Frances herself.”
“So you do have feelings for Frannie.”
Well, there was no point in denying it now. “Yes. I hope you are not offended.”
“Offended?” She propped herself up on one elbow. “I am the farthest from offended that you can possibly imagine. I am more offended that you are the first man since we came to London a year ago to see Frannie’s worth.”
Her lithe figure stretched beneath the sleek fabric of her gown, and Henry again thought what a wonderful subject she would make for a portraitist. Other than an artist’s admiration, her beauty roused him not at all.
She subsided onto the sofa again and shook her fan from the ribbon around her wrist. Turning it between her hands, she said, “This is Frannie’s fan.” She flipped it open and displayed the painted surface.
Henry recognized it at once as a fair copy of Primaticcio’s Odysseus and Penelope. The old soldier, bearded and gruff, caressed the chin of his pale and proud wife as they sat entwined in postcoital sheets, recounting their adventures to one another—passionate, like-minded.
Without thinking, he tried to reach out for the painting, but his shoulder only flexed, his right arm immobile in the grasp of his left.
Caroline flipped the fan closed, then open again, and turned the painted face toward her own countenance. “Frannie admired this painting very much. She always wanted to think that some soldiers came home and found happiness again.”
With a quick snap, she closed the fan a final time. “She gave this to me after I carelessly broke my own fan. I’ve forgotten to give it back to her, or maybe I just didn’t want to.” Her forefinger traced the ivory guard. “That is as good a summary of Frannie’s character, and mine, as any I could imagine. And that is why you are much better off choosing her.”
Henry made himself smile, knowing that she expected him to feel relief and certainty. But doubt shadowed his thoughts: Even if I choose her, she might not choose me.
As a younger son rather than an heir, Henry had never commanded the money or influence that Jem held in an effortless grip. He had little enough responsibility either, until he went into the army. Even there, for too long, he’d made his way on charm and his brother’s connections. Now he must make his way on his own, just as he was. No secrets; no hiding.
The thought terrified him, perhaps even more than pity did.
“Don’t you agree?” Caro prodded. “I assume you do, or you wouldn’t have come here today.”
“I’m sorry, I didn’t follow.” Henry frowned, distracted by his own confusion.
A carefully arched brow lifted. “I wondered if you agreed that Frannie was eminently worth the pursuit. I considered it merely a rhetorical question, but then you worried me with your lack of response.”
“Again, then, I must apologize.” Henry rolled his shoulders, trying to relieve the tension that yanked at them. “Your cousin’s appeal could never be in doubt. I’m only wondering about my own.”
“That’s for her to decide, isn’t it?” She smiled, superior and sly as the Mona Lisa. Then a thought seemed to strike her, and her expression turned sharp. “You’re not asking for my blessing, are you?”
Henry considered. “Not exactly. I’m asking for your understanding. And for a bit of solitude with the lady. There’s rather a lot that I need to explain.”
This was, apparently, the right thing to say, for Caro beamed at him. “That, you may have. I don’t have the right to give you my blessing. But if you’re ready to speak with Frannie now, we can see what she has to say.”
“Yes,” Henry said. He nodded to underscore his words. To give the appearance of a courage that was lacking.
Oh, he was certain of Frances, of her worthiness of his trust. But was he ready to repose it? To reveal his secrets, his shame, his weaknesses old and new?
He must, or he could never be sure of her. He would not court under false pretenses again.
“Yes,” he said again. “Thank you, Caro.”
“You are very welcome.” She rose to her feet, and he stood too. “Let us go find her. She’ll probably be in the morning room.”
***
After Caroline left Henry at the doorway of the morning room, she mounted the steps to her bedchamber. This was her haven, quiet and luxurious in its dark woods, delicate plasterwork, green damask.
She invited men to share her bed sometimes, but just now, she was happy to be alone.
If a month ago, someone had told her she would be delighted to hear that a man had no interest in her, she would have been surprised.
If a month ago, though, someone had revealed that Caroline would soon engage in an elaborate plot to marry off her cousin, that would have surprised her less.
The man who could choose Frances over Caroline was a man who could see all the way to their hearts. The ton was quite sure that Caroline had none; perhaps that was why it had taken to her so well this season. She was blithe and careless and amusing, and as long as she was very amusing, very blithe, and very, very expensive—that was all most men in London were looking for.
It was enough for Caroline for now. She had nine years of marriage, of quiet patience and solitary nursemaiding, to put behind her. The chaotic, empty amusements of London were exactly what she wanted.
But they were not enough for Frances. They were not enough for Henry. Thus the secret letters.
The letters had been hazardous to begin with; secret correspondences simply weren’t done by ladies of quality. They’d become still more dangerous once Frances confided that Henry thought they were from Caro.
It had seemed ridiculous to Caroline at first, because she knew quite well she could never ensnare anyone with words on a page. Her weapons were flicking fans and practiced smiles. Eventually, Caro was sure, Henry would figure out the truth: that it was Frances’s vivid soul to which he responded.
Caro had always muted her own reactions to Henry; she made sure to give him as many hints as she could without spoiling her cousin’s secret. Talked with him alone only when he wanted to fashion a gift for Frannie, and even then only within a room full of people. Hoped that the deception would be at an end, and Frances would find her way to happiness as Caro had not.