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the angry imprecations of his swollen heart. Then: ‘Believe me, I’d far rather die, and I would have died

long ago

if the will of mortals were a match for the will of the

gods. But alas!

they’ve got us all by the bellies. They throw a crumb,

a bone,

keep us alive, howling with hunger, and keep us too

weak

to raise our daggers to our wrists, crawl down to the

river … But enough.

Let’s get on with it, play out our parts! If I may forestall your question, Jason, son of Aison—’ I cleared my

throat.

He stretched out his hands to stop me. ‘Don’t ask!’ he

implored. ‘Don’t drag

it on and on and on! The answer to your question is: I’m a victim of curses. Not only has a fury quenched

my sight—

an affliction bitter enough, God knows — and not only

am I

forced to drag through the years far past man’s usual

span,

aging, withering, no end in sight — but worse than that, Harpies plague me — eaglelike creatures with human

heads.

When my neighbors, or strangers from across the sea,

come here to my house

to ask of the future, or of hidden things, and leave

me food

as payment, no sooner is the food set out on my plate

than down

from the clouds — dark, swifter than lightningbolts—

those Harpies swoop

snatching the food from my fingers and lips with their

chattering teeth.

At times they leave me nothing, at times a gobbet or two to keep me alive and screaming. They imbrue with their

sewage stench

all they touch. I would rather die than consume the stuff those Harpies leave — so I rant to myself. But my belly

roars,

tyrannical; I submit. Yet this one curse will pass, if my name is Phineus. The Harpies will soon be driven

away

by two of your number, the lightswift sons of the

Northern Wind.

It has taken place already in the mind of Zeus.’

“So he spoke.

We stared in pity and disgust. Then Zetes and Kalais,

sons

of the wind, went closer, gagging from the stench but

generous;

and the noble Zetes reached for the foul, filth-shrivelled

hand

and said, ‘Poor soul! There’s surely no man on earth who

bears

more shame, more sorrow than you! Heaven knows,

we’ll help if we can.

But first, tell us—’ Before he could finish, the old man

cringed.

‘I know, I know! What’s the cause? you’ll ask. Have I

done some wrong?

Have I rashly offended some god by, for instance,

misusing my skill?

If you help me and foil the justice of some great god,

will he turn

on you? Say no more! I give you my vow, it’s your

destiny.

No harm will come! I swear by Apollo, by my own

second sight,

by my cataracts, by the home of the dead — may the

powers of Hades

blast me to atoms if I die! No ultion will fall on you, no vengeful alastor seek you out by decree of the gods.’

“ ‘Very well,’ Zetes said. And now the brothers backed

off from Phineus,

ready to faint from his stink. At once, we prepared a

meal

for the poor old seer — the last the Harpies were to get.

And Zetes

and Kalais took up their watch, knees bent, a short way

off

from the prophet who squatted by the steps. Before he

could reach for a morsel,

down came the Harpies. They struck and were gone with

no more warning

than a lightning flash — the meal had vanished — and

we heard their raucous

chattering far out at sea. It seemed the whole world

had turned

to stench. But Zetes and Kalais too were gone, we saw— vanished like ghosts. They nearly caught them—

touched them, in fact.

But just as their fingers were closing on the creatures’

throats, the sky

went white, and a voice said: ‘Stop! The Harpies are

the hounds of Zeus!

Don’t harm them! They’ll trouble your friend no more,

swift sons of Boreas!’

And so the brothers turned back, and the curse was

ended.

“We cleansed

the old man’s house with sulphur fire, and washed him

in the creek,

then picked out the finest of the sheep we’d gotten from

Amykos

and made them a sacrifice to Zeus. We set out a banquet

in the hall

and sat with Phineus to eat. He ate like a man in a

dream,

astounded, baffled by the sweetness of life.

“When we’d eaten and drunk

our fill, the old man, sitting among us by the fireplace,

said:

‘Listen. I can tell you many things. Not all I know, but a good deal. I was a fool, once. I used to tell people the whole nature of the universe. Deeper and deeper I plunged into things long-hidden, until for some

strange reason

(which I understand) those Harpies came, called down

from the sky

(not “sent,” mind you: called—called down as surely

as if

I’d raised my hands and cried, “Harpies, snatch away

my food!”). Since then I’ve

learned my place, so to speak, or learned my weakness,

which is

the same: my strength. As the glutton eats till it kills

him, the visionary

sees. (My father, by the way, had a truly amazing eye for omens, though nothing like mine. But I’d rather not

speak of that.)’

He glanced past his shoulder, furtive, then smiled again

and gazed

at the flames with his chalk-white eyes. ‘I could tell you

many things,’

he said again, and smiled. His corrugate hands and

cheeks

glowed in the firelight, shining with joy of life like the

eyes

of a lover. We waited. He said, ‘I knew a man one time who suffered in a somewhat similar way. He murdered

his father

and married his mother, unwittingly. It was a classic

case.

I spoke to him many years afterward. I said, “Come,

come, Oidipus!

Surely you recognized the man you killed! Surely,

in the hindmost

corner of your mind you saw your image in his face

and remembered

his shadow between your mother’s breast and you.”

The king

considered me — or considered my voice (he was

blind) — then answered,

“Doubtless, Phineus. Clearly I was fooled, one way or

another:

if not by reality, then clearly by something in myself.

There are shadows

more than we dream, in the ancient cave of the

mind — dark gods,

conflicting absolutes, timeless and co-existent, who

battle

like atoms seething in a cauldron, each against all, to

assert

their raucous finales. Gods illogical as sharks. We roof their desperate work with the limestone and earth of

reason, but the roof

has cracks: as seepages, springs, dark meres push

through earth’s crust,

those old, mad gods burst through the mind’s thick

floor, mysterious

nightmares, twitches, accidents perverting our gentlest

acts.

I’ve made my peace with them.” I saw that events had

made him

wise. I said: “Perhaps the old man was not your father, merely another of reality’s tricks.” He smiled. “Perhaps. I’ve heard much stranger things. I’ve learned that the