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Athena’s

fear and helplessness. Aphrodite kept quiet, her dark eyes large. Hera waited — stern, but not tyrannical,

at last;

and at last Athena spoke, head bowed, her lovely arms stretched out, imploring. “You’re wrong, this once, to

reproach me, Goddess.

I do know the holiness of things. I know as well as you the hungry raven’s squawk in winter, the hunger of

nations,

the stench of gotch-gut wealth, how it feeds on children’s

flesh.

I’ve pondered kings and ministers with their jackals’

eyes,

presidents sweetly smiling with the hearts of wolves.

I’ve seen

the talented well-meaning, men not chained to greed, able to sacrifice all they possess for one just cause, fearless men, and shameless, earnestly waiting, lean, ready to pounce when the cause is right — waiting,

waiting—

while children die in ambiguous causes, and wicked men make wars — waiting — waiting for the war to reach

their streets,

waiting for some unquestionable wrong — waiting on

graveward …

Precisely because of all that I’ve done what I’ve done,

raised men

to test this lord of the Argonauts. I have never failed

him

yet, and I will not now; but I mean to annoy him to

conflict,

badger till he racks his brains for a proof he believes,

himself,

of his worthiness. I mean to change him, improve him,

for love

of Corinth, Queen of Cities. You speak of Space and

Time.

No smallest grot, O Queen, can shape its identity outside that double power: a thing is its history, the curve of its past collisions, as it locks on the

moment. What force

it learned from yesterday’s lions is now mere handsel

in the den

of the dragon Present Space. And therefore I raise

opposition

to Jason’s will, to temper it. His anguine mind, despite those rueful looks, will find some way.”

The queen

seemed dubious. It was not absolutely clear to me that she perfectly followed the train of thought. But hardly knowing what else to be, she was

reconciled.

Gray-eyed Athena, encouraged, and ever incurably

impish,

turned to the love goddess. “You, sweet sister,” she said

with a look

so gentle I might have wept to see it, “don’t take it to

heart

that the queen of goddesses turns on you in her fury

when I,

and I alone, am at fault. If my motives indeed were

those

she first suspected, then well might I call to my dear

Aphrodite—

sitting graveolent in her royal hebetation, surrounded by

all

her holouries — for help. Such is not the case, however. Let there be peace between us, I pray, as always.”

So speaking

she raised Aphrodite’s hands and tenderly kissed them.

The love goddess

sobbed.

Then everything moved again — the branches in the

windows,

the people, the animals, wine in the pitcher. Then Kreon

rose.

The roar died down respectfully.

“These are terrible charges,”

the old man said, and his furious eyes flashed fire

through the hall,

condemned the whole pack. “I’ve lived many years and

seen many things,

but I doubt that even in war I have seen such hostility. When Oidipus sought in maniacal rage that man who’d

brought down

plagues on Thebes — when Antigone left me in fiery

indignation

to defy my perhaps inhuman but surely most reasonable

law—

not then nor then did I see such wrath as has narrowed

the eyes

of Paidoboron and Koprophoros. It’s not easy for me to believe such outrage can trace its genesis to reason!

However,

the charge, whatever its source, requires an answer.”

He turned

to Jason, bowed to him and waited. The warlike son of

Aison

sat head-bent, still frowning. At last he glanced up, then

rose,

and Kreon sat down, gray-faced. The smile half breaking

at the corners

of Jason’s mouth was Athena’s smile; the dagger flash

in his eyes was the work

of Hera. Love was not in him, though his voice was

gentle.

“My friends,

I stand accused of atrocities,” he said, “and the chief is

this:

I have severed my head from my heart, a point made

somehow clear

by dark, bifarious allegory. I have lost my soul to a world where languor cries unto languor, where

cicadas sing

‘Perhaps it is just as well.’ In the real world — the world

which I

have lyred to its premature grave — there is love between

women and men,

faith between men and the gods. If you here believe all

that,

believe that in every condition the good cries fondly to

the good,

and the heart, by its own pure fire, can physician the

anemic mind,

I would not dissuade you. Faith has a powerful

advantage over truth,

while faith endures. But as for myself, I must track

mere truth

to whatever lair it haunts, whether high on some noble

old mountain,

or down by the dump, where half-starved rats scratch

by as they can,

and men not blessed with your happy opinions must feed

on refuse

and find their small satisfactions.

“My art is false, you say.

I answer: whatever art I may show is the world itself. The universe teems with potential Forms, though only

a few

are illustrated (a cow, a barn, a startling sunset); to trace the history of where we are is to arrive where

we are.

There are no final points in the journey of life up out of silence: there are only moments of process, and in some

few moments,

insight. Search all you wish for the key I’ve buried, you

say,

in the coils of my plot, Koprophoros. The tale, you’ll

find,

is darker than that — and more worthy of attention. It

exists.

It has its history, its dreadful or joyful direction. The

ghostly allegory

you charge me with is precisely what my tale denies. The truth of the world, if I’ve understood it,

is this:

Things die. Alternatives kill. I leave it to priests to speak of eternal things.

“And as for you, Paidoboron,

if I claim that the world has betrayals in it, don’t howl

too soon.

Every atom betrays; every stick and stone and galaxy. Notice two lodestones: notice how they war. But turn

one around

and behold how they lock like lovers embraced in their

tomb. So this:

some things click in. Some sanctuaries, at least for a

time,

are inviolable. What fuses the metals in the ice-bright

ring

of earth and sky, burns mind into heart, weds man to

woman

and king to state? What power is in them? That,

whatever

it is, is the golden secret, precisely the secret I stalk and all of us here must stalk. I’ve told you failure on

failure,

holding back nothing. But I still have a tale or two to

tell—

meaningless enough in the absence of all I’ve told

already—

that you may not mock so quickly.”

He was silent. Had he tricked them again,