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my trust,

for saving your hide from the breath of the bulls, your

head from the swords

of giants! And the fleece! Flattered like a goose-eyed

country wench

I granted what should have been sacred, what may be

no more, for you,

than a trophy, a tale for carousing boys — but for me

the demise

of honor, the death of childhood, disgrace of my

womanhood!

I tell you I am your wife, Jason — your daughter, your

sister,

and no man’s whore. And I’m coming with you to

Hellas. You swore

you’d fight for me — fight come what may — not leave

me alone

as you diddle with kings. Jason, we’re pledged to one

another,

betrothed in the sight of gods. Abide by that or draw your dagger and slit my throat, give my love its due.

Think, Jason!

What if this king who judges me should send me to

Kolchis—

supposing — incredibly — that my brother keeps his

word, refrains

from sheathing you all in fire before he drags me home to protect his own poor head from my father’s rage.

Can your mind

conceive the cruelty of my father’s revenge? — As for

yourself,

If the goddess of will, as you say, is your protector—

beware!

When was she kind toward cowardice?’ Raising my

arms and eyes

to heaven, I cried, ‘May the glorious Argonauts reach

not Hellas

but Hell! May the fleece disappear like an idle dream,

sink down

to Erebus! And even in Hades’ realm, may howling

furies

drive false Jason from stone to stone for eternity!’ And then, to Jason: ‘You have broken an oath to the

gods. By your own

sweet standard, Reason, my curses cannot miscarry.

For now,

you’re sure of yourself. But wait. I’m nothing in your

eyes, but soon

you’ll know my power, my favor with the gods. Beware

of me!’

“I boiled with rage. I longed to fill all the ship with

fire,

kindle the planking and hurl my flesh to the flames.

But Jason

touched me, soothing. I had terrified him. ‘Medeia,

princess,

beware of yourself!’ And again that voice, still new to

me,

had uncanny power. ‘You begin with complaints,

appeals, but soon

your own blood’s heat makes a holocaust. Call back

your curses.

It’s not finished yet. Perhaps I may prove less vicious

than you think.

Look. Look around you at the Kolchians’ ships. We’re

encircled by a thousand

enemies. Even the natives are ready to attack us to be rid of Apsyrtus as he leads you home to Aietes.

If we dare

strike out at these hordes, well die to a man. Will it

please you more,

sailing back to your father, if all of us are slaughtered,

and you

are all we leave them as a prize? This truce has given

us time.

We must wait — and plan. Bring down Apsyrtus, and his

force — for all

its banners, its chatter of bugles — will clatter to the

ground like a shed.’

“My eyes widened, believing for an instant. The

next, I doubted.

Was he lying? I was sick with anguish. His look was

impenetrable.

I who moved at ease with the primal, lumbering minds of snakes, who knew every gesture of the carrion crow,

the still-eyed

cat, who knew even thoughts of the moon, stared

humbly, baffled,

at the alien eyes of Jason. It seemed impossible that the golden tongue, those gentle hands, could lie.

Searching

vainly for some sure sign — his hands on my arms—

I felt

a violent surge of love, desire not physical merely, but absolute: desire for his god-dark soul. I whispered: ‘Jason, plan now. Evil deeds commit their victims to responses evil as the deeds themselves. If what you

say

is true — if my brother’s forces will collapse when my

brother falls,

and if that, as you claim, was your hope when you

sealed that heartless truce—

then once again, I can help you. Call Apsyrtus to you. Keep him friendly. Offer him splendid gifts, and when his heralds are taking them away, I’ll speak and

persuade them to arrange

a meeting between us — my brother and myself. They’ll

do it, I think.

They no more wish me sorrow than does my brother.

When we meet,

slay him. I will not blame you for it. The murder’s our

one

last hope.’

“And still Lord Jason’s eyes were impenetrable, studying me. His swordsman’s hands closed tighter on

my arms,

as if horrified. But at last he nodded, the barest flick, revealing no sign of his reasons. My anguish was

greater than before:

on one side, terror that he scorned me for the plan,

seized it merely

as the skillful, methodical killer I knew he was; on

the other,

sorrow for Apsyrtus. He’d thrown me up on his

shoulders as a child,

had shaken snow-apples down for me from hillside

trees.

Despite all that, he would drag me to my father’s

torture rooms.

Was I more cruel? But my mind flinched back. It was

not a question

for reason. There was no possibility of reason, no

possibility

of justice, virtue, innocence, on any side.

“So that,

mind blank, heart pounding in terror and

self-condemnation, I watched

as Jason in his scarlet mantle, all stitched with

bewildering figures,

laid out gifts for Apsyrtus, with the Argonauts’ help.

Black Idas

watched me, smiling to himself, and soon the trap was

set.

I watched Lord Jason debating in his mind the final

gift—

the mantle of scarlet that Argus wove, majestic but

gloomy—

it sent out a dull, infernal light — or the sky blue mantle King Thoas gave to Hypsipyle when she wept and

spared him,

sending him out on the sea. The son of Aison chose the blue, hurled it on the pile as if in anger; then, suddenly smiling, transformed, he came where I stood.

The heralds

approached. My mind went strangely calm, as calm as it

was

when I charmed the guardian snake. They left with the

message. When I

had come to the temple of Artemis — so the message

ran—

Apsyrtus must meet me, under cover of night. I would

steal the fleece

and return with the treasure to Aietes, to bargain for

my life. Such was

the lure. I know pretty well how Apsyrtus received it,

sweet brother!

His heart leaped up and he laughed aloud. ‘Ah, Medeia! Brilliant, magnificent Medeia of the many wiles!’ He

could scarcely

wait for nightfall, pacing restless on his ship and

smiling,

beaming at his sister’s guile.

“The sun hung low in the heavens,

reluctant to set, but at last, blood red with rage, it sank. As soon as darkness was complete he came to me,

speeding in his ship,

and landed on the sacred island in the dead of night.

Unescorted,

he rushed to the torchlit room where I waited and paced.

He seized me

with a cry of joy, proud of my Kolchian cunning. And