Salimeh al-Hamati, his wife, had also reached her wits’ end.
She showed disdain for anyone who weakened, gathered and collected information about them, and publicised it in a loud voice wherever she went. She wasn’t afraid of anyone. ‘So-and-so’s wife took him to her family’s town so he could hide there under her skirt. What a pity of a man! So-and-so sold two boxes of ammunition instead of using them in battle so he could put the money in his pocket. So-and-so claims he’s sick every time they ask him to join the fight.’
She lashed at everyone with that tongue of hers, starting with her own ‘strong-armed’ relatives and her husband’s relatives. She blasted them with the harshest words, right to their faces if she saw them, whenever she found they were preparing to flee with their children to safer places.
‘Their children are in school,’ she’d say, ‘and they don’t want them to lose a single year of their life while our children are here in the barricades defending their honour.’
Her children’s job was to fill the sandbags with sand. They piled them up on the rooftops and watered them so they would be impenetrable to the bullets. Then they poured all the gunfire and curses they had over those sandbags.
For others, those were carefree and comfortable days, but for them, they were days of war.
People called them ‘Salimeh’s boys’.
There were five brothers: Hashim, Saeed who they called ‘Abu Ali’, Francis, Shakir (‘Abu Layla’) and DeGaulle. One of them — Saeed — had been killed in the early battles. He might have been the first casualty of the war of the barricades. A grenade he was holding and inspecting before throwing it at the enemy exploded in his hands. Another one of her sons was wounded, too — DeGaulle, the youngest. He was shot in the back and the injury left him crippled. Every day around noon he would leave his barricade to get lunch from the house and take it to his brothers. No doubt they had been lying in wait for him when they spotted him. They shot one bullet at him, from a longbarrel rifle; the shot came from Muhsin al-Semaani’s barricade, which was directly across from theirs. Muhsin al-Semaani was Husneh’s brother. Her day would come. Salimeh watched her son DeGaulle as he tried to get to the bathroom, tripping on his way. She called out to one of his brothers to help him. They had promised to get a wheelchair for him, but wheelchairs were very expensive. In the meantime, DeGaulle just lay there in front of her, flat on his back.
She pounded her chest and called for evil to befall whoever had shot him, prayed for whoever it had been to be paralysed by a stroke and live a long, long time.
They reached their wits’ end as the fighting went on and on… and they still wanted more… Until one day at the end of September, when a man stood in the doorway of the cobbler shop and asked, ‘Where’s Husneh?’
The man was one of those men who fought alongside Salimeh’s boys. He posed the question to all of us, all four of us sitting in chairs there in the store. Two of us were working — Abboud, the store owner, and myself, and the other two were regulars who were used to spending some of their time there in the mornings. Like us, they were no good at fighting or barricades. My father had wanted me to learn the trade young, and the fact of my young age also allowed him to say I wasn’t qualified for battle. Abboud used to look after me. He would let me do the gluing and the pounding of nails in the beginning, but he wanted me beside him at all times for another reason, too, which was to relate to him what the others were saying. I was his ears. We were in the middle of exchanging bits of conversation and the previous night’s news when the man appeared. Because the battles usually flared up at night and quietened down in the morning, the fighters slept during the day.
The others didn’t know the man who asked us the question, and I didn’t know him either. But it wouldn’t have been appropriate to ask who he was. As usual, I repeated the question in a loud voice into Abboud’s ear. ‘Where is Husneh?’
Husneh was his wife. I had just seen her a few minutes earlier carrying a bag of vegetables on her way into the house in the back of the store, but I decided to let her husband answer in whatever way he wanted to.
‘She’s inside.’ He was answering without raising his head from the piece of leather he was working with, believing I was the one asking about Husneh. When he noticed the man standing in the doorway holding a rifle, he stopped cutting and sewing the pieces of leather.
Everyone knew Husneh, to the point that people used to call Abboud ‘Abboud Husneh’ after his wife. They called him that when he wasn’t around and sometimes in front of him, too, since they thought he couldn’t hear. Husneh made all the decisions about everything — the house, the children, and she even categorised the customers according to who could be trusted to pay later and who couldn’t. All she lacked was to give advice about how to make shoes, too.
‘What’s Husneh doing?’ the armed man asked. The two guests of the cobbler shop exchanged glances with each other. I shouted into the ear of Abboud who was looking perplexedly at the source of that question. Abboud was going to be the first man ever to be asked by a stranger, ‘What’s your wife doing?’
Those were difficult times. Little kids carried weapons as did some strangers, too. Abboud felt he had to answer, so he faced me and said, ‘I don’t know, maybe she’s nursing the baby.’
He said it somewhat sharply, surrendering to the strangeness of the question. Abboud had said it loud enough that I didn’t have to repeat it for the man holding the rifle. Actually, the man with the rifle strapped to his shoulder looked like he was going quail hunting up on Amiriyya hill at sunset. He seemed to have stopped in at the cobbler shop on his way, the way lots of people stopped in every day, to order some shoes or just to join the open forum. He seemed to be asking just to ask. The deaf Abboud answered him, so he didn’t make a move and didn’t ask the next question.
Abboud stopped what he was doing, waiting for the next question. He might have thought the man added something that he hadn’t been able to hear, so he looked at me inquisitively but I gave him a blank look. The man didn’t look like he’d asked anything and was waiting for a reply. He was waiting for something else. He turned his back to the shop and looked towards the deserted main street. Perhaps he was unsure what his next step should be.
In his hand was a list of names. Women’s names. He looked at it as if he detested the mission he had been given. Husneh’s name was at the top of the list. The rifleman smiled and bared his teeth when he read it and showed it to us: Husneh, wife of Abboud Husneh.
I don’t think she was nursing the baby at that time, but rather was planning lunch. Seven people plus me. They fed me with them sometimes, especially during those days of fighting so I wouldn’t move around too much by going home at noon and then coming back to the cobbler shop. That would have been an unnecessary risk. She made good food, Husneh, and I’d guess in the end she would choose the easiest solution: lentils, chickpea kibbeh and fried onions and potatoes. It was Friday. Before the fighting started she used to buy fish on Fridays, but the fish sellers stopped bringing baskets of fresh fish up from Al-Mina in Tripoli.
Whenever Abboud was asked about Husneh he said she was nursing the baby, as if the baby never stopped nursing, or maybe that was what he hoped so that the baby would grow quickly. The baby wasn’t yet four months old, but Abboud was bent on forbidding his wife from weaning him until he could walk, so he could walk over and nurse on his mother’s breast, go run off and play with his friends and come back again to his mother’s breast. His mother told him he had done the same thing when he was a child.