"That's how the pack took care of things," I said. "T.J. ended up dumped in a mine shaft somewhere. I hate it."
"Me, too." He stared at nothing, probably mentally reviewing everything we knew, everyone we'd talked to, every fact and scrap of evidence, looking for something he'd missed, waiting for that one piece to slide into place that would fix everything. The check arrived, and I took it—Ben seemed to not notice it. I was about to go pay it when he said, out of the blue, "I should just quit."
"Quit what?"
"The lawyer gig. Too complicated. I should go be a rancher like my dad. Cows and prairie."
"Would that make you happy?"
"I have no idea."
"Don't quit. It'll get better."
A slow smile grew on him. "I won't quit if you won't."
"Quit what?" Now I just sounded dumb.
"Your show."
I hadn't quit. I'd just taken a break, why didn't people understand that?
Because it looked like I quit. Because if I wasn't making plans to go back to it, it meant I'd quit.
"Why not?" I said, feeling contrary. "They have Ariel, Priestess of the Night, now. She can handle it."
"There's room for both of you. You love your show, Kitty. You're good at it."
We were both leaning on the table now, within reach of each other, our feet almost touching underneath. Proximity was doing strange things to me. Sending a pleasant warmth through my gut. Making me smile like an idiot.
It was getting very hard for me to imagine not having Ben around.
I bit my lip, thought for a moment. Grinning, I took a chance. "Better be careful. You keep saying nice things about me I might fall for you or something."
He didn't even hesitate. "And you're cute, smart, funny, great in bed—"
I kicked him under the table—gently. "Flatterer."
"Whatever it takes to keep you coming after me when I go around the bend."
I touched his hand, the one lying flat on the table. Curled my fingers around it. He squeezed back, almost desperately. He was still scared. Getting better at hiding it, at overcoming it. But still scared, at least a little.
"Of course I will. We're pack."
He nodded, picked up my hand, brought it to his lips. Kissed the fingers. Then without a word he grabbed the check, slid out of the booth, and went to the front counter to pay.
Bemused, I followed.
Back in Walsenburg the next day, Espinoza was late for our meeting. The last meeting before the hearing. The last chance to convince him to drop the charges against Cormac. Ben had shaved, gotten a haircut, and looked as polished as I'd ever seen him. He had on his best suit this time. Even I put on slacks and a blouse and put my hair up. He paced along the wall with the window, in a conference room in the courthouse. Slowly, with measured steps. Not an angry, desperate, wolfish pacing. Just nerves. He held a pen and tapped it against his opposite hand, glanced out the window as he passed it.
I sat in a chair by the wall and watched him. He was a handsome, competent, intelligent, determined man. And none of that was enough to help Cormac.
The door opened, and the young prosecutor blazed in, like a general in wartime.
"Mr. O'Farrell, sorry to keep you waiting." He glanced at me, his look questioning.
Ben was right on top of things. "No problem. This is Kitty Norville, she's helping me with the case."
Espinoza nodded, and his smile seemed more like a smirk. "The infamous uninjured Kitty Norville."
"I heal fast."
"Real fast, apparently."
"Yeah."
"Too bad for Mr. Bennett. If you'd ended up in the hospital he might have had a case."
Of all the low, blunt, arrogant, shitty things to say…
"That kind of talk isn't really appropriate," Ben said, the picture of calm professionalism.
"Of course. I'm sorry, Ms. Norville."
My smile felt wooden.
"If you don't mind, I'd like to get moving on this," Ben said, handing Espinoza a written report.
Ben explained the report, a formal, legalistic retelling of everything we'd found in Shiprock. Somehow, between then and now, between his abrupt shape-shifting and our night in the desert and the drive back, he'd compiled our adventures into a narrative that sounded dry, believable, and even logical. He said that according to the local police Miriam had had a reputation for violence, that her younger sister Louise believed that Miriam killed her older sister Joan, that we'd been threatened by her grandfather Lawrence—in short, that the family's history and Miriam's character suggested that she was prone to murderous violence and it was entirely reasonable to assume that her motives here—against me and the others who'd witnessed the encounter—were violent. That Cormac had had no choice but to stop her.
Espinoza seemed to consider all this. He studied the report, tapping a finger on his chin, and nodded seriously.
Then he said, "And what of the fact that she had only her bare hands as a weapon? Was a naked woman dressed in a wolf skin really that threatening?"
That was where Ben's scenario fell apart. We had no way to prove that she wasn't just a woman in a wolf skin.
Ben said, "You have four signed statements from witnesses who swear she would have killed someone. Two more statements from Shiprock. All of them saying that she was more than a woman in a wolf costume."
"Four people at night whose perceptions were muddled by fear and the dark, rendering their testimony somewhat unreliable."
They were testing each other, I realized. Practicing the arguments they'd have to use against each other in court. This was a practice run, to see if each really had a chance of beating the other.
Espinoza tapped the pages. "You've got hearsay. You've got nothing."
"I have enough to raise a reasonable doubt in front of a jury. You'll never land a murder one conviction."
"None of this is verified. I'll have it all disallowed. As I said—you've got nothing, and I will land the conviction. Your client's use of excessive force removes any protection under the law he might have had."
Ben turned away and crossed his arms. He was through arguing. I waited for a growl, a snarl, a hint that the wolf was breaking through. His shoulders hunched a little, like hackles. That was it.
"Mr. O'Farrell, for what it's worth, I believe you," Espinoza said, his tone turning sympathetic. I couldn't help but feel it was false sympathy—he was getting ready to bargain, softening Ben up. "I believe this. The skinwalker story, all of it. I grew up in this area, I've seen things that make no sense in the light of day. But you know how it goes in court. No judge is going to let you stand there and say she was a skinwalker, and that's the only way you can justify why Mr. Bennett did what he did."
Ben turned back to him. "If you believe, then this doesn't have to go to court. A judge never has to see it. Drop the charges. You know the truth, you know he was justified. Drop the charges."
Espinoza was already shaking his head, and my gut sank. "Sheriff Marks is standing by his testimony. If I won't prosecute, he'll find someone else to do the job."
Ben said, "Marks threatened my client. He's a biased witness."
"That's for the judge to decide," Espinoza said, giving no doubt how he thought the judge would decide. "If both sides' witnesses are discredited, it'll come down to the coroner's report." The coroner's report that said Cormac shot a woman in the back, then killed her when she was already dying.
"So I guess that's it," Ben said curtly.
"No." Espinoza produced a paper of his own and handed it across the table. Ben read it while the prosecutor explained. "I can offer a plea agreement. It's very generous, and I think based on the circumstances it's the best any of us will get out of the situation."