He came back to his room, and to the realization that it was probably the last night he would ever spend there. His books still filled the shelves of a huge ramshackle book-case, the sort that runs up to the ceiling and down to the floor- the bottom shelf crammed with bound volumes of the Boys’ Own Paper; school prizes in the next, the kind you never read; and so on through the idols of his teens to long rows of small leather-bound editions at the top. Some of them he would want to take. For the rest, what did one do with the relics of one’s youth? They ought to have gone in salvage during the war, but he could just see Jimmy with his foot down and a peremptory “None of Mr. Antony ’s things!” If he couldn’t think what to do with the books, the pictures were much worse-an endless collection of school groups, college groups-rows and rows of faces, blazers, jerseys. A bonfire was really the only solution. The years of the war made an impassable gulf between himself and the face, the blazer, the jersey, which had been his on the farther side of it.
He stood looking at one or two of the later groups, and found it melancholy work. Bill Rogers, killed at Alamein- Jervis at Hellfire Corner-Mapleton in the blitz-Anstey in Burma – Danvers in France -Macdonald just gone, nobody knew where. No use looking back. Good fellows with whom he had had a good time, but you have to go on… He reflected that there was another side to it. Thompson was a Brigadier. Amusing in its way, because Thompson hadn’t really cut much ice with the crowd. Well, Antony Latter who had cut quite a lot of ice in his day was only a captain. It all depended on what you pulled out of the bag. He was lucky to be alive and sound after Alamein and the wound which had kept him on the shelf for two years. The thing he really resented was breaking his leg in France because he’d been given a lift in a jeep by a chap who had never driven one before and who had got off himself without a scratch.
He switched on to a plan for asking Julia to clear up his room, and then thought perhaps better not, because it might hurt Jimmy’s feelings. He had reached this point, when a very slight sound made him turn.
Besides the ordinary door of this room there was another. It wasn’t one you would notice unless you happened to know it was there, because it was papered to match the rest of the room and there was no handle on this side. This room had once been a double room, and the slip beyond the papered door its attendant dressing-room, but ever since he could remember, the dressing-room had been Marcia’s dress-cupboard. It was strictly forbidden to use it when they played hide-and-seek, but they always did. It was too tempting. The cupboard had its own door on to the main landing. It didn’t communicate with Marcia’s room, which lay on its farther side, but you could nip out of her door into the cupboard, and so into this room, and on to the back-stair landing, with a choice of going either up or down, or through the swing-door back to the main landing again. Very strategic.
All this was in Antony ’s mind as he turned-not very consciously, but as things are which you have always known. The paper-covered door was opening. In another moment it had opened and Lois came in.
She was a shock. He had been away back in the past-she wasn’t in the picture. She hadn’t any business in Marcia’s cupboard-that was the first instinctive reaction, changing to “Of course it’s hers now,” and obliterated by the crashing conclusion, she hadn’t any business in his room.
It was midnight. Probably everyone else in the house was asleep-he hoped so at any rate. He was in his pyjamas, and she in the sort of negligee which the vamp wears in every bedroom scene, something transparent and flesh-coloured, slipping at the shoulder. There was an atmosphere of scent and emotion. He was so angry that he could hardly find words or get them out. She didn’t wait for them, but said hurriedly,
“I must speak to you. Antony, please do listen.”
“Lois, are you mad? We can’t talk here-like this. For God’s sake go back to your room!”
She gave a muted version of her rippling laugh.
“Thinking of my reputation, darling?”
He said bluntly, “I’m thinking about Jimmy. You’d better think about him too.”
She came up close and said,
“I’d so much rather think about you, darling.”
“Lois-”
“It’s two years since you kissed me. Don’t you want to kiss me now?”
“Lois-”
“You used not to be such an icicle, my sweet.”
“You used not to be Jimmy’s wife. And I hate to remind you that two years ago is two years ago.”
“You were in love with me then.”
“I’m not the least in love with you now.”
She laughed and narrowed her eyes at him.
“Joseph!”
He was too angry to care what he said. If she asked for it she could have it.
“Are you really keen on being Potiphar’s wife? Definitely repulsive, don’t you think?”
The door moved again. The paper had a pattern of bunches of violets on a white ground. The bunches on the door were moving. He could see them over Lois’ shoulder-the shoulder from which that damnable garment was slipping. The door opened quite wide and Jimmy came in.
It needed only this to plunge them all into tenth-rate farce, but even through his swirling rage he was aware that the farce had a sinister slant. Jimmy, in pale blue pyjamas with his light hair wildly on end, ought to have fitted the part of the comic husband, but he didn’t. He was starkly tragic. He stood a yard inside the door and looked at them, his eyes pale and fixed between reddened lids, his face dead white and pouring with sweat. For the moment even Lois had nothing to say. It was Jimmy who spoke.
“Go back to your room!”
“Really, Jimmy!”
He spoke again.
“I heard what you said.”
She gave a short laugh, shrugged her shoulders, and walked past him.
To Antony the last crooked twist was given by the fact that though she almost touched Jimmy, he did not move to avoid her. She might not have been there. In a moment she wasn’t there. The door in the wall had shut behind her. But for Jimmy Latter she had been gone before that. There wasn’t any Lois any more.
It was all over between one minute and the next. Antony got hold of himself, and prepared to save anything that could still be saved. He said, “Jimmy, old chap-” and Jimmy turned those pale eyes upon him.
“I heard what she said.” And then, “She said, ‘two years ago.’ I’d like to know-what happened-two years ago.”
There was no expression in his voice, no trace of his usual manner. The words came with dreadful pauses between them. Jimmy-whose words tumbled over one another because there were always too many of them to pack neatly into a sentence! And now this dreary monotone-“I want to know-what happened-two years ago.”
“Nothing for you to mind. You’ve got to believe me. I was in love with her, and I asked her to marry me. She said no, and she married you. That’s all there ever was. I thought you knew.”
Jimmy nodded. He said, still in that difficult way,