I listened for a moment by the door of his room, straining for some hint that he was awake. There was no sound but that of the clock. Giving up, I headed back to my room. As I passed the hall mirror, I glanced at it, then froze.
There, in the antique glass, I saw her, more light than substance, a changing wisp of fog, the shape of a girl. I stared at the mist in the mirror, struggling to understand what I was seeing. Avril? I felt icy cold all over.
I ran for my room and pulled the door closed behind me. It didn’t catch. When I reached my bed, I heard the door swing open again, but I was too afraid to look back. Hands shaking, I pulled down my quilt in a rush to get in bed, then gasped with disbelief. She was there! She was lying there in front of me! No, it was me I was looking down on. And I was dead! I squeezed shut my eyes and put my hands over my mouth, barely muffling screams that echoed deep within me.
When I opened my eyes again, I was lying in bed, warm and safe beneath my quilt. It was a dream, I told myself, just a scary dream. Then I turned my head on the pillow and saw the door I’d latched earlier standing wide open.
As soon as I emerged from bed Sunday morning, I felt the draft, a river of icy air flowing between the fireplace and entrance to my room. I hurried across the chilly floorboards to close the door. Memories of last night washed over me.
It was just a dream, I told myself-the whisper, the ghost in the mirror-they were nothing more than a nightmare seeded by what a customer had said. As for the door being open, old houses weren’t airtight; it wasn’t surprising after a windy night.
I dressed quickly, glad my mother had made me pack a long-sleeved turtleneck and sweater. When I arrived in the kitchen, neither Grandmother nor Matt was around. I made a steaming cup of tea and took it out to the kitchen garden.
The river mist was suffused with early-moming sun light. In the garden every dew-drenched leaf, from the flat needles of rosemary to the smallest teardrops of thyme, shimmered. I walked to the picket fence that edged the garden, stopping at the gate, gazing toward the family cemetery. From a distance the roses looked like soft pink and white smudges against the brick wall. I thought of the voice from last night.
Was it possible-had the girl buried there come up to the house? I shivered.
“Need another sweater?”
I hadn’t heard Matt approach. “No, thanks.”
“You look cold.”
He was wearing a short-sleeved shirt with his jeans. I’d turn into an iceberg before admitting to him I had goose bumps beneath my sweater. “I’m not.”
“How did you sleep last night?” he asked.
“Fine. Great.”
I could see it in his eyes, he didn’t believe me. “Why wouldn’t I?” I asked.
He shrugged. “If you’re not used to an old house, it can be a spooky kind of place when the wind kicks up.”
He studied my face, and I, in turn, studied his.
“Guess I’m a solid sleeper,” I said. “How about you?”
“I’m a light sleeper. I hear just about everything.”
Like a girl’s muffled scream? I wondered. I took a sip of tea.
“So, did you have a good time last night?” I asked. “1 mean at the dance, not afterward.” I watched him over the rim of my cup. But if he had been up to something afterward, like whispering in a ghostly voice, he didn’t show it.
“No. I’ve always hated school dances.”
“Then why did you go?”
“Everyone expects you to,” he replied matter-of-factly.
“Do you always do what others expect?”
One side of his mouth pulled up in that smirky smile of his. “Not always.”
“You’re right about that. Most people would expect you to be friendly to a cousin you’d just met, or at least polite to a house guest.”
He glanced away.
“Listen, Matt, I didn’t want to come here.”
“Then why did you?”
“Grandmother asked me to,” I replied.
“Do you always do what others ask?”
“Not always,” I said, giving him the same smirk he had given me a moment ago. “My father talked me into it. And I’m not brownnosing Grandmother-l’m not here for her money, if that’s what you’re worried about. Dad’s hoping I can heal things between Grandmother and Mom. I think he’s wrong, but, as it turns out, I’m glad I’m here.”
Matt remained silent.
“I believe in making the best of a situation,” I added. “Why do you keep trying to make the worst of it?”
He didn’t reply, just stared down at my face as if he were searching for something.
“Too bad you have such beautiful eyes.”
Seeing him blink, I realized I had said that aloud.
“You have no problem speaking your mind,” he replied, those eyes now bright with amusement.
I turned away from him. “Grandmother’s standing in the window, waiting for us to come in, and looking annoyed.”
I headed toward the porch and Matt followed.
“Good morning, Grandmother,” I greeted her as we entered the kitchen.
“Good morning, Megan. Matt, you’re up early for Sunday. I heard you come in before midnight last night. Were you ill?”
“No.”
“Well, for once, you can get a good start on your studying,” she remarked.
He nodded, strode over to the kitchen cupboard, and got out a glass.
She turned to me. “Megan, your mother has written that you’re an honor student. Perhaps you can help Matt.”
I saw Matt’s hand tighten around the glass and I shook my head. “No, he’s a year ahead of me.”
“But you’re taking Advanced Placement courses and getting straight A’s,” Grandmother insisted.
I looked at her, surprised. Apparently she had more contact with my mother than I’d realized.
“Matt, most definitely, is not getting A’s or even B’s,” she went on.
Why was she comparing us? I doubted it was grandmotherly pride in my achievements.
“He’s never been a good student,” she continued.
Matt poured juice in his glass, his face expressionless.
“Perhaps you can motivate him,” Grandmother added.
This wasn’t about motivation, it was a comparison aimed at making him dislike me even more than he already did.
“Thanks for letting me have dinner with Ginny,” I said, deliberately changing the subject.
Grandmother nodded and began eating her banana.
“She was impressed with the way you handled customers.
Matt, did you hear that Megan was offered a job?”
He kept his back to us as he returned the carton of juice to the refrigerator. “I saw her working yesterday.”
“Did you know she was asked to continue?”
“That’s nice,” he replied.
“I have wanted Matt to get a job since last spring.”
“Well,” I said lightly, “I can’t really see him selling purses and lace handkerchiefs.”
She didn’t smile and wasn’t diverted from her goal. “He claims he has enough to handle with athletics and school, and of course his social life. I suppose it’s my fault for continuing to give him money.”
I wasn’t getting into that. And I wasn’t going to allow her to play me against him.
“Anyone want a muffin?” I asked, retrieving the bag from the counter where I had left it last night. “They’re from Tea Leaves.”
Matt didn’t reply. Grandmother glanced at the bag, then lapsed into silence, sipping her coffee. Had she said her piece, or was she resting before unloading another round of antagonizing comments?
She washed her dishes, then walked over to the shelf where I had seen her put the Bible the day before. “Where is it?” she asked, turning quickly to us.