‘Y’know,’ said Mingolla, ‘I believe you’re sincere, man. I really do. That’s what scares me. You’re so goddamn sincere, you think sincerity excuses everything. Every whim and atrocity.’
‘Your problem’s not with us, man.’ Ruy drew up his knees, rested his arms on them. ‘It’s with me. Debora here, she understands that the world has to change. She understands that no matter how bloody the path, things can’t go on as they have. But you’—he jabbed a finger at Mingolla—‘you can’t see that. You haven’t lived down here. You haven’t seen your country violated by development bankers, by corporations and their little Hitlers. Sooner or later that lack of understanding will split the two of you.’
‘And that’s when you move in, huh?’
Ruy smiled.
‘I wouldn’t count on anything,’ said Debora stiffly.
‘I’m counting on your commitment, guapa,’ said Ruy. ‘I know how deep it runs. And you can count on honesty from me.’
Mingolla snorted at that.
‘You think we’re dishonest because we’ve been cautious with you?’ said Ruy. ‘Don’t you know how hard it was for us to place trust in people too strong for us to control? But for the sake of the revolution, we did it.’ He lit a cigarette, blew a bluish plume of smoke that gave his comments visible pause. ‘The kind of power we’ve enjoyed… being able to take whatever you want. After a while it instills an inviolable morality. The things of this world lose their desirability, and work becomes the only passion. That’s why our revolution will be pure.’
‘What happens to that morality,’ said Debora, ‘when it encounters something it can’t have?’
‘You’re talking about you and me?’ Ruy asked.
‘Just about you… about the lack of seriousness implicit in a person who contrives a passion over something he can’t have. It’s childlike.’
Ruy stubbed out his cigarette on the sole of his shoe. ‘You figure that’s how it is with me?’
‘I know it.’
‘What’s it matter the way a passion begins?’ he said. ‘Believe me, Debora. I’m serious.’
‘We can’t deal with these people,’ said Mingolla.
‘No, he’s right about that much,’ she said. ‘We have to.’
‘What the hell for?’
‘I think,’ she said, ‘it makes more sense to be a part of this revolution than to deny it’s happening. I’ve always thought so… you know that.’
‘They’re lunatics, they’re…’
‘And your president isn’t? No, we have to deal with the families. But we may not have to deal with Ruy.’ She said this last coldly and then reached into Ruy’s pack and removed his handgun.
‘It would go hard with you if you killed me,’ said Ruy, undismayed.
Mingolla took the gun from Debora and let the barrel droop toward Ruy’s groin. ‘It’s likely to go hard with us anyway.’
Ruy couldn’t take his eyes off the gun.
‘Tell me some more about Panama,’ said Mingolla.
‘You’re being a fool,’ said Ruy. ‘Kill me, and they’ll never stop giving you pain.’
Mingolla essayed a deranged laugh. ‘Call me irresponsible.’ He cocked the gun. ‘Talk to me, Ruy, or I’m gonna blow away your spare parts.’
‘What do you want to know?’
‘Back on the boat you mentioned something ’bout armies in Barrio Clarín. Armies that did the fighting whenever the families had a squabble. Let’s hear ’bout them.’
Ruy’s words came in flurries, his eyes fixed on the gun. ‘The armies, yes… there are about a thousand, maybe more. We had no choice, you see. We couldn’t keep killing one another, and passions were running so high. We had to do something.’
‘Calm down,’ said Debora. ‘Take your time.’
‘Is he going to shoot?’
‘You can never tell what he’s going to do,’ she said. ‘Now what about these armies?’
‘They’re the damaged, the hopelessly damaged. The ones whose minds are almost gone.’
‘Damaged how?’ Mingolla asked.
‘Damaged by people like you… like me. Their minds disrupted by too many interactions. You know. Like the people at your hotel in Roatán. Except these are even more deteriorated. They can barely feed themselves.’ Their stares unnerved Ruy further. ‘We had no choice, don’t you see? If we didn’t use them, we’d be killing one another and there’d be no chance for a peace among us. We’re not proud of it, believe me! But it’s working. I swear it! There hasn’t been a battle in over a month.’
‘God,’ said Debora.
‘We don’t give them guns,’ said Ruy weakly. ‘No guns are permitted in Barrio Clarín.’
‘Gee, that’s swell of ya.’ Mingolla sighted along the barrel at Ruy’s chest.
Ruy’s voice broke. ‘Don’t do this.’
The gun seemed to be getting heavy in Mingolla’s hand, and he was tempted to lighten it by a bullet. But Ruy had value alive. If they could hide their power from him, he would make a good witness when they reached Panama, would testify to Izaguirre and the rest that Mingolla and Debora were strong, but nothing that couldn’t be handled. Mingolla was surprised that he hadn’t argued more with Debora against continuing their journey, and he realized that what was motivating him was anger at the Sotomayors and Madradonas. It puzzled him that he should give so much weight to anger, but the strength of the emotion was enough to satisfy him, to stifle the need for self-analysis.
‘I’m gonna let ya live, Ruy,’ he said. ‘Happy?’
Ruy maintained a hostile silence.
‘But we’re gonna pull your fangs.’ He picked up Ruy’s rifle, cradled it under one arm. ‘No point in letting you run around armed and everything like you were an adult.’
‘You’ve…’ Ruy stopped himself.
‘What say, man?’
‘Nothing.’
‘You thinking mean thoughts, Ruy. I can tell.’ Mingolla nudged Ruy’s knee with the rifle barrel. ‘C’mon, man. Spit it out.’
Ruy glared at him.
‘Well…’ Mingolla came up into a crouch, letting the barrel drift back and forth across Ruy’s chest. ‘Anytime you feel the need to talk, don’t be bashful.’ He put an arm around Debora. ‘Try to make it during the day, though, will ya? We keep pretty busy at night.’
Following this conversation, the character of Ruy’s attentions toward Debora underwent a transformation. He took to favoring her with ardent stares and despondent looks, to scribbling poems in a notebook, to gazing listlessly at the scenery: the very image of lovesickness. It was as if in revealing his true nature, he was also revealing the sappy core of his passion. Nothing except Debora commanded his interest, and though Mingolla was grateful for Ruy’s lassitude, preferring it to his previous aggressiveness, he found that he could no longer count on him for assistance in negotiating the wilderness. Ruy responded to Mingolla in monosyllables or not at all, and even when they encountered serious obstacles—obstacles as the town of Tecolutla—he exhibited no concern, but merely shrugged off Mingolla’s questions and said he didn’t care what they did.
Mingolla did not want to enter Tecolutla. Even from the pine ridge above it, he could sense an ominous air to the place, one that the view through his binoculars did nothing to dispel. It was big for a high-country town, sprawling across the saddle between two hills, lorded over by a cathedral of crumbling gray stone with tilted vine-draped bell towers that had the look of vegetable chessmen whose board was in the process of being overthrown. The other buildings, the houses and shops, were not so imposing, but were equally ruinous, charred and broken and fettered with creepers, and under the thin mist that covered the valley, the town appeared insubstantial, to be either fading in or out of existence.