“I know, sweetie,” he said. “I’ve been getting hot and bothered myself. You know what they say about guys my age.”
Chase must have picked up a crossed signal somewhere, and she searched her memory for some suggestive classroom joke or double entendre she might have dispensed. She was cautious around her students for the very reasons Chase had suggested: she could get in big trouble and maybe even lose her job.
“Whatever you think is going on, you’re the only one,” she managed.
A print of Munch’s The Scream, taped to the wall behind the student’s head, seemed to ripple, and she could swear she heard the desperate ululation arising from that rounded O of a mouth. Or maybe the sound was coming from her mouth.
Chase put a finger to his lips. “Shh,” he said. “Wouldn’t want anyone getting the wrong idea.”
“What’s the right idea?” she said, feeling angry and foolish over her own helplessness.
“That you want this,” he said. “Just like last time.”
He reached his painting hand toward her, black flecks under his fingernails, the skin smelling faintly of linseed oil and turpentine. Instead of drawing away, she found herself leaning closer to let the rough fingers graze her cheek. He stroked the soft skin beneath her cheek. It tickled but she was unable to laugh.
“See there, babe?” he said. “You haven’t forgotten after all.”
He stooped so their faces were at the same level and she stared into his glacial blue eyes. His puckered lips glided toward hers, and something about the movement was familiar and disturbing.
To her horror, she felt her own mouth part in welcome and the wet cement of her arms set with a weighty permanence against her chair.
Then their lips met and her body broke free of its trance. As she jerked her head away, the unwelcome kiss cut a slick trail across her cheek.
She exploded from the chair, throwing her shoulder into his chest and knocking him off balance, the anger clearing her head.
The icy eyes grew narrow and colder, and Chase’s swollen lover’s lips shifted into a sneer. He hovered over her as she retreated into the corner. “Hey, what’s your problem?”
“If you leave right now, I won’t file a complaint.”
“Didn’t bother you any yesterday,” he said. “You practically jumped my bones, remember?”
The trouble was, she didn’t remember, and he spoke with such conviction that the student judicial affairs committee would be as likely to take his side as hers.
“You’re mistaken,” she said, hating herself for going on the defensive.
“Hell with it,” he said. “You’re just a yellow cock-tease. So you want a one-off, that’s fine. Slam, bam, fuck you, ma’am.”
Her lungs were marbled sculpture, but she managed to force air past her vocal cords. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Man, I’m lucky you didn’t yell ‘Rape.’ Glad I used a rubber. You’re probably boning every guy in the department.”
“You’ll drop the class,” she said, with a surprising modicum of calm. “I’ll approve the paperwork.”
“Damn right,” he said. “I’ll take it under Wingate. Her tits are so withered she doesn’t go around shaking them in her students’ faces.”
He retreated and fumbled with the door handle, and it was only then she realized he had locked it upon entering. What exactly had happened the last time he had locked her office door?
Alone, heart pounding, she held her head for a full minute, eyeing the telephone. It looked fat and liquid, the handset like a swollen grub. Should she call an ambulance? Would she be able to punch the numbers?
Some of the disorientation left her, the geometry of the room falling more or less into right angles. Her respiration and pulse rate were only slightly above normal.
Anxiety attack.
That would explain a lot, except for Chase’s behavior. He had moved with a practiced confidence. Like he’d done it before. Here.
Could she have done the things he’d suggested?
No. Don’t give it an inch.
She didn’t want to think about it. She would call Anita instead of the hospital.
First, she would fill out the form that would drop Chase Hanson from the class. His painted canvases would soon be gone from the studio, the garish Rothko imitations consigned to a dusty dorm closet until the artist needed them to impress some eager coed. Somebody else to slam bam.
The rage helped clear her head as she opened the drawer. Lying on top of the shuffled stacks of memos were paper clips, pastel crayons, a solar-powered calculator, and a dull linoleum knife.
And a ripped square of foil that had once housed a condom.
Unconsciously, her thighs squeezed together. She lifted the empty wrapper and rubbed a thumb along the serrated edge.
Not ours. Please let it not be ours.
Behind it, in the shadows of the drawer, was a plastic pill bottle.
Burnt orange, for prescription medicine.
The label bore script as if from a pharmacy but contained no drug store or medical logo. The bold text in the center of the label wasn’t the sort prescribed by a physician: “W. Leng. Take one every 4 hrs. or else.”
Glancing at the open door, she twisted the cap free. The pills resembled tiny green breath mints. She poured them on the desk. One rolled past the telephone and arced to the floor, where it bounced off the dirty tiles. Wendy retrieved it and then counted them.
Eight. The bottle was large enough to contain at least fifty of the green pills.
And they looked disturbingly familiar.
Oh my God. How many of these have I taken?
She nudged the pills onto a sheet of paper, funneled them back into the vial, and tucked the container in her pocket. Chase Hanson’s paperwork could wait. Right now, she wanted a look at Anita’s Halcyon prescription, because she had a feeling those pills were also green.
Every four hours.
Wendy wondered when she’d last taken her prescribed dose, and what would happen when she failed to take the next.
CHAPTER TEN
Roland reached the West Virginia mountains in early afternoon.
Whatever the pill was, it hadn’t impaired his driving. In fact, it had helped clear his head, and Cincinnati seemed years away. Sure, it had been crazy taking the pill, but the orange bottle seemed like the only reliable and honest thing in his life.
The radio offered no reports of a murderer on the loose, but he had no way to tell whether the body had been discovered or simply that murder was no longer major news.
Despite the rental-car receipts being made out to “David Underwood,” Roland veered off the interstate in Kentucky and stuck to the back roads, crossing the Big Coal River and entering the mountains. His brother, Steve, a dentist in Fort Lauderdale, kept a log cabin there as a summer getaway and had shared a key with Roland.
“We all need to hide out now and then,” Steve had said, flashing a six-figure smile. Roland figured Steve was talking about entertaining mistresses and fishing for trout, not evading capture for murder.
But it wasn’t murder, he reasoned, as he eased past a goat farm on the outskirts of Logan, heading up the gravel road that led into a dark hollow of the type praised in old Appalachian folk ballads.
Or, it may have been murder, but it wasn’t mine.
He thought of all the cop shows he’d seen. Most of them were built on the simple words “It wasn’t me.” If you believed the fairy tales, nobody ever did it, especially the good guy.
And despite a blackout, despite blood on his hands, despite a pile of evidence that would make any prosecuting attorney salivate, Roland still believed he was one of the good guys. At least until proven guilty.
And I’m not David Underwood. Only Roland can feel this shitty and scared.
The gravel road gave way to twin muddy ruts, and Roland wondered how Steve navigated the driveway in his BMW. The neighboring goat farmer, whom Steve said took pride in monitoring the row of mailboxes for signs of vandalism and theft, had no doubt observed the unfamiliar vehicle passing by.