He looked up into my face, partly anxious, partly still full of his usual machismo.
‘Unless you killed Angela Brickell,’ I said, ‘you wouldn’t have tried to kill Harry. Wouldn’t make sense.’
‘I didn’t do the silly little bimbo any harm.’ He shook his head as if to free her from his memory. ‘She was too intense for me, if you want to know. I like a bit of a giggle, not remorse and tears afterwards. Old Angie took everything seriously, always going on about mortal sin, and I got sodding tired of it, and of her, tell the truth. She wanted me to marry her!’ His voice was full of the enormity of such a thought. ‘I told her I’d got my sights set on a high-born heiress and she damned near scratched my eyes out. A bit of a hell-cat, she could be, old Angie. And hungry for it! I mean, she’d whip her clothes off before you’d finished the question.’
I listened with fascination to this insider viewpoint, and the moody Miss Brickell suddenly became a real person; not a pathetic collection of dry bones, but a mixed-up pulsating young woman full of strong urges and stronger guilts who’d piled on too much pressure, loaded her need of penitence and her heavy desires and perhaps finally her pregnancy onto someone who couldn’t bear it all, and who’d seen a violent way to escape her.
Someone, I thought with illumination, who knew how easily Olympia had died from hands round the neck.
Angela Brickell had to have invited her own death. Doone, I supposed, had known that all along.
‘What are you thinking?’ Sam asked, uncertainly for him.
‘What did she look like?’ I said.
‘Angie?’
‘Mm.’
‘Not bad,’ he said. ‘Brown hair. Thin figure, small tits, round bottom. She agonised about having breast implants. I told her to forget bloody implants, what would her babies think? That turned on the taps, I’ll tell you. She bawled for ages. She wasn’t much fun, old Angie, but effing good on a mattress.’
What an epitaph, I thought. Chisel it in stone.
Sam looked out over the flooding river and breathed in the damp smell of the morning as if testing wine for bouquet, and I thought that he lived through his senses to a much greater degree than I did and was intensely alive in his direct approach to sex and his disregard of danger.
He said cheerfully, as if shaking off murder as a passing inconvenience, ‘Are you going to this do of Tremayne’s tonight?’
‘Yes. Are you?’
He grinned. ‘Are you kidding? I’d be shot if I wasn’t there to cheer. And anyway,’ he shrugged as if to disclaim sentiment, ‘the old bugger deserves it. He’s not all bad, you know.’
‘I’ll see you there, then,’ I said, agreeing with him.
‘If I don’t break my neck.’ It was flippantly said, but an insurance against fate, like crossed fingers. ‘I’d better tell this sodding policeman where the main electric switch is. I’ve got it rigged so no one can find it but me, as I don’t want people being able to walk in here after dark and turn the lights on. Inviting vandalism, that is. When the force have finished here, they can turn the electric off.’
He bounced off towards Doone, who was writing in his notebook, and they were walking together to the big boatshed as I drove away.
Even after having done the week’s shopping en route, I was back at Shellerton House as promised in good time for Tremayne to drive his Volvo to Newbury races. He had sent three runners off in the horse-box and was taking Mackie to assist, leaving me to my slowly growing first chapter in the dining-room.
When they’d gone Dee-Dee came in, as she often did now, to drink coffee over the sorted clippings.
I said, ‘I hope Tremayne won’t mind my taking all these with me when I go home.’
‘Home...’ Dee-Dee smiled. ‘He doesn’t want you to go home, didn’t you know? He wants you to write the whole book here. Any day now he’ll probably make you an offer you can’t refuse.’
‘I came for a month. That’s what he said.’
‘He didn’t know you then.’ She took a few mouthfuls of coffee. ‘He wants you for Gareth, I think.’
That made sense, I thought; and I wasn’t sure which I would choose, to go or to stay, if Dee-Dee was right.
When she’d returned to the office I tried to get on with the writing but couldn’t concentrate. The trap in Sam’s boathouse kept intruding and so did Angela Brickell; the cold threat of khaki water that could rush into aching lungs to bring oblivion and the earthy girl who’d been claimed back by the earth, eaten clean by earth creatures, become earth-digested dust.
Under the day-to-day surface of ordinary life in Shellerton the fish of murder swam like a shark, silent, unknown, growing new teeth. I hoped Doone would net him soon, but I hadn’t much faith.
Fiona telephoned during the afternoon to say that she’d brought Harry home and he wanted to see me, so with a sigh but little reluctance I abandoned the empty page and walked down to the village.
Fiona hugged me as a long-lost brother and said Harry still couldn’t be quite clear in his mind as he was saying now that he remembered drowning. However could one remember drowning?
‘Quite hard to forget, I should think.’
‘But he didn’t drown!’
‘He came close.’
She led me into the pink-and-green chintzy sitting-room where Harry, pale with blue shadows below the eyes, sat in an armchair with his bandaged leg elevated on a large upholstered footstool.
‘Hello,’ he said, raising a phantom smile. ‘Do you know a cure for nightmares?’
‘I have them awake,’ I said.
‘Dear God.’ He swallowed. ‘What’s true, and what isn’t?’
‘What you remember is true.’
‘Drowning?’
‘Mm.’
‘So I’m not mad.’
‘No. Lucky.’
‘I told you,’ he said to Fiona. ‘I tried not to breathe, but in the end I just did. I didn’t mean to. Couldn’t help it.’
‘No one can,’ I said.
‘Sit down,’ Fiona said to me, kissing Harry’s head. ‘What’s lucky is that Harry had the sense to take you with him. And what’s more, everyone’s apologising all over the place except for one vile journalist who says it’s possible a misguided vigilante thought getting rid of Harry the only path to real justice, and I want Harry to sue him, it’s truly vicious.’
‘I can’t be bothered,’ Harry said in his easy-going way. ‘Doone was quite nice to me! That’s enough.’
‘How’s the leg?’ I asked.
‘Lousy. Weighs a couple of tons. Still, no gangrene as yet.’
He meant it as a joke but Fiona looked alarmed.
‘Darling,’ he said placatingly, ‘I’m bloated with antibiotics, punctured with tetanus jabs and immunised against cholera, yellow-spotted mountain fever and athlete’s foot. I have it on good authority that I’m likely to live. How about a stiff whisky?’
‘No. It’ll curdle the drugs.’
‘For John, then.’
I shook my head.
‘Take Cinderella to the ball,’ he said.
‘What?’
‘Fiona to Tremayne’s party. You’re going, aren’t you?’
I nodded.
‘I’m not leaving you,’ Fiona protested.
‘Of course you are, love. It wouldn’t be the same for Tremayne if you weren’t there. He dotes on you. John can take you. And,’ his eyes brightened mischievously with reawakening energy, ‘I know who’d love to use my ticket.’
‘Who?’ his wife demanded.
‘Erica. My sainted aunt.’
Chapter 14
The Lifetime Award to Tremayne was the work of a taken-over, revitalised hotel chain aiming to crash the racing scene with sponsorship in a big way. They, Castle Houses, had put up the prize for a steeplechase and had also taken over a prestigious handicap hurdle race already in the programme for Saturday.