made for each other. It was apparent that he was just as affected by me as I was by him.
The sun started to rise and soft light filled my bedroom. I felt his arm pull me closer to his chest; his warm breath caressed my shoulder as he
snuggled with me. His breathing returned to the sound of sleep, so I let myself drift back to my incredible dream.
I woke again when I felt him stir. His fingers flexed, gripping my hip. His fingertips circled to feel what I was wearing. His legs stretched and he
lightly pressed himself into me when his brain received the message that I was only wearing panties and a T-shirt.
Dizzying arousal shot through my body from his touch. My mind quickly wandered with other visions of how his steely hands could grip my hips.
New cravings for him were growing rapidly in my thoughts.
“Good morning,” he whispered in my ear, sliding his hand across my stomach.
“Mmm, hi!” was all I could say as our eyes met. He grinned at me and gently swept my hair off my forehead with his fingertips.
“Sorry I fell asleep on you last night. Why didn’t you wake me when you got back?” He yawned.
“You were sleeping so peacefully, I didn’t want to wake you.”
He smiled that sexy grin at me – the one that makes my pulse race – while his fingers drifted over my skin and caressed my face.
The desire to lean into him and press my lips to his was so strong, and I didn’t have the internal strength to fight it anymore. He appeared to be
fighting the same urges, but that was a threshold of intimacy that he didn’t cross.
I rolled over to face him and nestled my cheek on his shoulder; my hands palmed his chest. I just wanted to touch him somehow, some way. He
wrapped his arm over my shoulder so his hand could hold my head to his chest. My life would be perfect if I could wake up every day to this feeling.
After I was showered and dressed, I joined him in the kitchen. He was leaning against the counter with a coffee cup in his hand - another mental
picture I committed to memory. His face lit up when I walked into the room; his reaction caught me off-guard. Why is he so happy to see me? Me?
Ryan looked so casual, standing there in a very familiar dark blue T-shirt, his jeans with the worn pockets hanging a bit on his hips. He hadn’t put
on any socks or shoes yet; his bare feet were holding him confidently in place. I never realized that seeing a man drinking a cup of coffee in my
kitchen could be such a turn-on.
“Hey there,” he greeted me. His face flashed a big grin; his eyes looked me over. “I hope you don’t mind but I made some coffee. Can I pour you
a cup?”
“Yes, that would be very nice.” I opened up the refrigerator to get the milk.
“Here, let me get that,” he said as he took the container from my hand.
I reached back into the refrigerator for the carton of eggs. I was hungry; I figured he must be hungry too.
“Can I make you some breakfast?” I asked.
He smiled and nodded. “Breakfast sounds great.”
The way we flowed together in the room was bizarre. I’ve never felt so at peace with a man before in my life. Though we had only known each
other for a short time it felt like we had known each other all our lives. There was no stress or awkwardness between us. I think he felt it too.
“What’s on your schedule today?” I asked while buttering a piece of toast for him. His life seemed to be segmented by one appointment after
another and I highly doubted that he had much free time left today.
“I have to be back on set at ten.” His eyes flickered up to meet mine.
I gave him a brief smile. I didn’t want him to think that his schedule would upset me.
We discussed how to transfer him from my apartment to the set, as it wasn’t simple or easy to get him from one place to another secretly. The
plan was that I would drive him halfway to someplace obscure where he could transfer to a waiting car that would drive him to the set. His safety and
my anonymity were the top priorities.
Since our time was limited, we hung out in my living room.
I saw his face brighten when he picked up my acoustic guitar that was propped up on a stand in the corner. He placed the guitar on his knee
and gave it a quick strum. He surprised me by playing pretty well.
“I saw this on Monday when I was here but I didn’t get a chance to ask you. Do you play or is this just a decoration?” he wondered, looking at me
over his shoulder.
“No, I play,” I answered confidently, although I was far from a master at it. “I know a few songs. Sometimes I try to write my own music when the
mood hits, but I’m not that good of a songwriter,” I admitted.
He handed the guitar to me and gave me an encouraging nod. “Play something for me.”
My heart rate picked up instantly as my nerves got the better of me. I felt the pang of horror hit as I imagined making a total fool out of myself.
“Okay, no laughing! Promise!”
“I’d never laugh at you.” He crossed his heart with his fingers. “I promise.”
“All right, let’s see if you can name this tune.” I played the first few notes.
“Easy! Pink Floyd,” he said with a smile. “Wish You Were Here.”
I laughed when he made up his own lyrics. “No, that’s not what he says!” I gave him a teasing tap in the foot. I started the song over. Soon we
were both singing together. “We’re just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl…”
When I finished, he slipped the guitar out of my hand and waved his fingers for my guitar pick. He gave me a quick wink and a grin and played a
few chords.
“This is something I wrote,” he said nonchalantly, adjusting the guitar on his leg. He started to play a beautiful melody. His song was intense; the
lyrics resonated in my heart. While he sang his song to me I felt myself falling deeper and deeper for him.
I stared at him in awe as he let himself slip into his music. My mind wandered into forbidden territory as I entertained illicit thoughts of tearing the
guitar from his hands and climbing onto him to kiss him passionately. How his strong hands could hold my hips in place on his lap. How his tongue
might feel on mine. I felt myself becoming extremely aroused just by thinking about it.
“What did you think?” he asked when he finished his song. The truth was that I was tingling in places where I hadn’t tingled in a long time.
“It was… mesmerizing. I loved it!”
A wide grin broke on his face.
While he returned my guitar to its stand, I took off for the solace of my bathroom. I locked the door behind me and leaned hard on the counter.
I had to get a grip on my emotions. He was too unreal. It would be so easy to fall madly, insanely, deeply in love with this man, and every second
I spent with him was dragging me towards that point of no return. My heart was racing, the blood throbbed in my veins, and I felt slightly dizzy.
Breathe Taryn. Don’t do this to yourself! Stop it! When he leaves Seaport, you’ll never hear from him again.
I fought the internal war that was battling in my mind – do I allow myself to be carried away - to surrender completely and allow whatever happens
to happen or do I end it all now and avoid the devastating heartbreak that was likely and inevitable? I knew that I would be completely incapable of
having a casual fling with him, so that option was out. Even though I could not resolve my dilemma now, I knew that sooner or later I’d have to make
a choice.
When I returned to him, he was gathering his things together and it was time for us to go. I didn’t want him to leave. I wanted to grab his hand
and drag him back to my bedroom. My desire for him was leading the war.
But he had to go. He had obligations. Reluctantly, I grabbed my car keys and we headed for the door.
Ryan managed to hop from the back door into my waiting car unnoticed. We didn’t talk very much on the way to meet his driver. I think he was