“You make it sound like a bad thing.”
“It can be. I’ve been hoping to grow out of it... and then you do stuff like look after me and I get sucked in all over again.”
He stared at her, measuring her perfect features and her smooth skin and her amazing body.
Feeling tangled and strange, and like he owed her an apology, he went over to the camera on the tripod and turned it on to record. “You got your cell phone with you?”
She reached into her robe’s pocket and took out a BlackBerry. “Right here.”
“Call me if anything strange happens, ’kay?”
Holly frowned. “Are you all right?”
“Why do you ask?”
She shrugged. “Just never seen you quite this...”
“Anxious? Yeah, I guess there’s something about this house.”
“I was going to say... connected, actually. It’s like you’re truly looking at me for the first time.”
“I’ve always looked at you.”
“Not like this.”
Gregg went over to the door and paused. “Can I ask you something weird? Do you... color your hair?”
Holly put her hand up to the blond waves. “No. I never have.”
“It’s really that blond?”
“You should know.”
As she cocked her eyebrow, he flushed. “Well, women can get dye jobs down... you know.”
“Well, I don’t.”
Gregg frowned and wondered who the hell was running his brain: he seemed to have all these odd thoughts playing over his airwaves, like maybe his station had been hijacked. Giving her a little wave, he ducked into the hall, and looked left then right while listening hard. No footsteps. No creaking. No one with a sheet pulled over his head, Casper-ing around.
Yanking his windbreaker on, he stalked over to the stairs and hated the echo of his own footsteps. The sound made him feel pursued.
He glanced behind himself. Nothing but empty corridor.
Down on the first floor, he looked at the lights that had been left on. One in the library. One in the front hall. One in the parlor.
Ducking around the corner, he paused to check out that Rathboone portrait. For some reason, he didn’t think the painting was so fucking romantic and salable anymore.
Some reason, his ass. He wished he’d never called Holly over to look at the thing. Maybe it wouldn’t have marked her subconscious such that she fantasized about the guy coming to her and having sex with her. Man... that expression on her face when she’d been talking about her dream. Not the fear part, but the sex, the resonant sex. Had she ever looked like that after he’d been with her?
Had he ever stopped to see if he’d satisfied her like that?
Satisfied her at all?
Opening the front door, he stepped out like he was on a mission, when in reality, he had nowhere to go. Well, except for away from that computer and those images... and that quiet room with a woman who might just have more substance than he’d always thought.
Kind of like a ghost being real.
God... the air was clean out here.
He walked out away from the house, and when he was about a hundred yards down the rolling grass, he paused and looked back. On the second floor, he saw the light on in his room and pictured Holly nestled against the pillows, that book in her long, thin hands.
He kept going, heading for the tree line and the brook.
Did ghosts have souls? he wondered. Or were they souls?
Did television execs have souls?
Now, that was an existential question and a half.
He took a leisurely loop around the property, stopping to tug at the Spanish moss and feel the bark on the oaks and smell the earth and the mist.
He was on his way back to the house when the light on the third floor came on... and a tall, dark shadow passed by one of the windows.
Gregg started to walk fast. Then broke out into a run.
He was flying as he leaped onto the front porch and hit the door, throwing it open and pounding up the stairs. He didn’t give a shit about that whole don’t-go-to-the-third-floor warning. And if he woke people, fine.
As he came to the second floor, he realized he didn’t have a clue which door could take him to the attic. Walking fast down the hall, he figured the numbers on the jambs were dead giveaways that he was ripping past guest rooms.
Then he got to Storage. Housekeeping.
Thank you, Jesus: EXIT.
He broke through, hit the back staircase and took the steps up two at a time. When he got to the top, he found a locked door with a light glowing under the bottom.
He knocked loudly. And got a whole lot of nothing.
“Who’s there?” he called out, yanking on the knob. “Hello?”
“Sir! Whatever are you doing?”
Gregg wheeled around and looked down the stairs at the butler—who was, even though it was after hours, still dressed in his tux.
Maybe he didn’t sleep in a bed, but hung himself up in a closet so he didn’t wrinkle overnight.
“Who’s in there?” Gregg demanded, jabbing his thumb over his shoulder.
“I’m sorry, sir, but the third floor is private.”
“Why?”>
“That is none of your concern. Now, if you don’t mind, I’m going to ask you to return to your room.”
Gregg opened his mouth to keep arguing, but then slammed his gap shut. There was a better way to deal with this.
“Yeah. Okay. Fine.”
He made a show of thumping down the stairs and brushing past the butler.
Then he went to his room like a good little guesty-poo and slipped inside.
“How was your walk?” Holly asked, yawning.
“Anything happen when I was gone?” Like, oh, say, a dead guy coming in here to bang you?
“Nope. Well, other than someone racing down the hall. Who was that?”
“No idea,” Gregg muttered, going over and shutting off the camera. “Not a clue...”
THIRTY-EIGHT
John took form next to a streetlight that probably didn’t have a lot of job satisfaction. The illumination pooling beneath its giraffe neck bathed the front of an apartment building that would have looked a hell of a lot better in total darkness: The bricks and mortar were not red and white, but brown and browner, and the cracks in various windows were fixed with zigzagged duct tape and cheap blankets. Even the shallow steps going up to the lobby were a pockmarked mess like they’d been hit with a jackhammer.
The place was just as it had been when he’d spent his last night inside except for one thing: the yellow Condemned notice that had been nailed to the front door.
File that under Well, duh.
As Xhex came out of the shadows and joined him, he did his best to project nothing but a calm dissociation... and knew he was failing. This grand tour of the shitscape of his earlier life was harder to go through than he’d thought, but it was like an amusement park ride. Once you got on and the cart got rolling, there was no reaching for the off/stop button.
Who knew that his existence should have come with a warning for pregnant ladies and epileptics.
Yeah, there was no stopping this; she’d totally tweak to him not finishing it. She seemed to know everything he was feeling—and that would include the sense of failure that would rip through him if he pulled out early.
“You ended up here?” she whispered.
Nodding, he led her past the front of the building and around the corner to the alley. As he came up to the emergency exit, he wondered if the latch would still be broken—
The punch bar let go with just a little force and they stepped in.
The carpet in the hallway was more like the raw dirt floor in some kind of cabin, all packed down and sealed with stains that had leached into the fibers and dried up hard. Empty booze bottles and twisted Twinkie wrappers and stunted cigarette butts littered the corridor, and the breeze in the air smelled like a bum’s armpit.
Man... even a tanker of Febreze couldn’t make a dent in this nose-mare.