Frickin’ great. The underworld of Caldwell was already a three-legged table from hell; more instability they did not need.
“Who is it?”
“No one knows. He’s come out of, like, nowhere, and just bought half a million in powder from Benloise, in cash.”
She frowned. It wasn’t like she doubted her bouncer’s sources, but that was a lot of product. “Doesn’t mean it’s going to be sold in Caldwell.”
“We just picked up this from a disorderly in the men’s bathroom.”
Big Tom tossed a cellophane packet on the desk. The thing was your standard-issue quarter-ounce serve-up, except for one little detail. It was stamped with a red ink seal.
Fuck…
“I got no idea what that writing thingy is.”
Of course he didn’t. It was a character in the Old Language, one that didn’t have an equivalent in English. Typically it was stamped on official documents, and it represented death.
The question was… who was trying to take Rehv’s place—who happened to be of the race?
“The guy you got this from, did you let him go?” she asked.
“He’s waiting for you in my office.”
Xhex got up and came around the desk. Nailing Big Tom in the arm with a quick punch, she said, “I always did like you.”
FIFTEEN
Up in the Sanctuary, No’One led Tohrment to the library, and expected to leave him to his investigations, whatever they might be. When they arrived at their destination, however, he opened the door for her, and beckoned her forward.
Of course, she stepped over the threshold.
The temple of books was long and thin and tall, built rather on the dimensions of a folio standing on its end. All around, leather-bound volumes, filled with the careful strokes of generations of the Chosen, were set in white marble cases in chronological order, the stories therein nonfictional accounts of lives lived far down below, and witnessed upon water’s transparent screen.
Tohrment stood for a moment, his crutch keeping him stable as he cocked his bandaged foot up.
“What are you looking for?” she asked as she glanced at the nearest shelves. The sight of the volumes made her wonder about the future of keeping the past. With the Chosen exploring the real world, they were not recording as much, if at all. This long tradition could well be lost.
“The afterlife,” Tohrment replied. “Any idea if there’s a section on that?”
“I believe the chronicles are arranged by year, not subject.”
“You ever hear of the In Between?”
“Of what?
He laughed with a hard edge as he hobbled forward and began inspecting the stacks. “Exactly. We got the Fade. We got Dhund. Two opposite ends that I assumed were the only choices when you die. I’m looking for any evidence that there’s another option. Damn it… yup—these are chronological, not by subject. Is it different elsewhere?”
“Not that I’m aware.”
“Any index system?”
“Only by decade, I believe? I am not an expert, however.”
“Shit, it could take years to go through all this.”
“Perhaps you should speak with one of the Chosen? I know that Selena was a scribe—”
“No one needs to know about this. It’s about my Wellsie.”
The irony of that phrasing seemed lost upon him. “Wait… there is another room.”
Leading him down the center aisle, she then took him left, into what was essentially a vault. “This is the most sacred place—where the lives of the Brotherhood are kept.”
The heavy doors resisted the invasion, at least when she tried to open them. Before Tohrment’s strength, however, they yielded to reveal a tight, tall room.
“So she kept us locked away,” he said dryly as he inspected the names on the spines. “Look at these.…”
He drew out one of the volumes and cracked the spine. “Ah, Throe—father of the current Throe. Wonder what the old man would think of who his son’s in bed with.”
As he replaced the volume, she made no bones about staring at him, his brows tight in concentration, his strong yet refined fingers handling the books with care, his body leaning into the shelving.
His dark hair was thick and glossy, and cut very short. And that white stripe in front seemed shockingly out of place—until she thought of his tired, haunted eyes.
Oh, those eyes of his. Blue as the sapphires in the Treasury—and just as precious, she supposed.
He was very handsome, she realized.
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“Is there anything else in here?” he said, bending low while balancing on the crutch. “I just see… biographies of Brothers…”
“Here, allow me to help.”
Together they went through it all, and found no reference volumes pertaining to heaven or hell. Just Brother after Brother after Brother…
“Nothing,” he muttered. “What the fuck is a library good for if you can’t find anything in it?”
“Perhaps…” Gripping the lip of a shelf, she awkwardly bent downward, tracking the names. Finally, she found what she was looking for. “We could search your own.”
Crossing his arms over his chest, he appeared to gird himself. “She’d be in there, wouldn’t she.”
“She was a part of your life, and you are the subject.”
“Pull it.”
There were several devoted to him, and No’One slid the most current one out. Cracking the spine, she flipped past the lineage declaration in the front, and scanned through the various pages that were focused on his prowess in the field. When she got to what had been written last, she frowned.
“What does it say.”
In the Old Language, she read aloud the date and then the notation: “ ‘Upon this eve, he did lose his mated shellan, Wellesandra, who was with young, from the earth. Subsequently, he extricated himself from the communal society of the Black Dagger Brotherhood.’ ”
“That’s it?”
“Yes.”
She turned the book around so he could read for himself, but he slashed his hand through the air. “Jesus Christ, I get ruined, and that’s all they wrote.”
“Perhaps they were being respectful of your grief.” She put the book away. “Surely that is best kept private.”
He didn’t say anything further, just stood there, pitched against the crutch that kept him up on his feet, his angry eyes locked on the floor.
“Talk to me,” she said softly.
“Fucking hell.” As he rubbed his eyes, the exhaustion radiated out of him. “The only peace I have in this whole nightmare is that my Wellsie’s in the Fade with my son. That’s the one thing I can live with. When I get crazy, I tell myself she is safe, and better I go through the grief than her—better that I’m the one doing the missing down here on earth. ’Cuz, hey, the Fade is supposed to be all peace and love, right? Except then that angel comes along and starts talking about some kind of In Between—and now, suddenly, my single solace is… poof! And to top it off? I have never heard of the place and I can’t verify it—”
“I have an idea. Come with me.” When he just stared at her, she wasn’t about to take no for an answer. “Come.”
Tugging on his arm, she drew him out of the vault and back into the main part of the library. Then she went deep into the stacks, ticking down the dates of the volumes, locating the most recent ones.
“What was the day when she…” When Tohrment gave her the month and day again, she pulled out the appropriate volume.
Leafing through, she felt his looming presence above her—and was not threatened. “Here—here she is.”