“I don’t even understand this book now. Jeez, why don’t they just assign her Moby Dick? This is absurd. This is crazy!” I was waving the book at Jayne when I noticed Sarah staring at me with a confused expression. I bent toward her and said, in a calm, soothing, rational tone, “Honey, you don’t need to read this.”
Sarah glanced fearfully at her mother. “It’s on our reading list,” she said quietly.
Exasperated, I asked Robby to show me his curriculum.
“My what?” he asked, standing rigidly still.
“Your schedule, dummy.”
Robby tentatively rummaged through his backpack and pulled out a crumpled computerized list: Art History, Algebra 1, Science, Basic Probability, Phys Ed, Statistics, Nonfiction Literature, Social Studies and Conversational Spanish. I stared at the list dully until he sat down at the table and I handed it back to him. “This is insane,” I muttered. “It’s outrageous. Where are we sending them?”
Robby suddenly concentrated on his bowl of muesli—having pushed aside the oatmeal Marta had placed in front of him—and reached for a carton of soy milk. Jayne kept forgetting that Robby couldn’t stand oatmeal, but it was something I always remembered since I couldn’t stand oatmeal either.
He finally shrugged. “It’s okay.”
“The school counselor said that getting a child into an Ivy League school starts in first grade,” Jayne said casually, as if not to alarm the children, who I assumed weren’t listening anyway.
“Actually earlier,” Marta reminded her.
“She’s hyping you, baby,” I sighed. “Don’t play dat game, sistah.”
Robby suddenly giggled, much to my gratification.
Jayne scowled. “Don’t use fake rap talk around the kids. I hate it.”
“And I hated that counselor,” I said. “You know why? Because she was feeding off your anxiety, baby.”
“Let’s not have this conversation now,” Jayne said, washing her hands in the sink, her neck muscles taut. “Are we almost ready, kids?”
I was still dumbfounded by Robby’s schedule and I wanted to say something consoling to him but he had finished the muesli and was reloading his backpack. He studied a computer game, Quake III, as if he didn’t know what to do with it, then pulled out his cell phone to make sure it was charged.
“Hey, buddy, what are you doing taking a cell phone to school?”
He looked nervously over at Jayne, who was now drying her hands with a paper towel. “All the kids have them,” she said simply.
“It’s abnormal for eleven-year-olds to have cell phones, Jayne,” I said, hitting what I hoped was the right tone of indignation.
“You. Are. Wearing. A. Sheet,” Jayne said—this was her response.
Robby seemed lost, as if he didn’t know what to do.
Finally, thankfully, Sarah broke the silence.
“Mommy, I brushed my teeth,” she offered.
“But don’t you brush after eating, honey?” Jayne asked, pointing out something to Marta in her datebook concerning the trip to Toronto next week for the reshoots. “I think you should brush your teeth after breakfast.”
“I brushed my teeth,” Sarah said again, and when that got no response from Jayne she turned to me. “Bret, I know the alphabet.”
“Well, you should by now,” I said encouragingly but also confused about why a girl so proud of having learned the alphabet should be reading Lord of the Flies.
“I know the alphabet,” she stated proudly. “A B C D E F—”
“Honey, Bret has a big headache. I’m gonna take your word on this one.”
“—G H I J K L M N—”
“You can identify the sounds letters make. Sweetie, that’s really excellent. Jayne?”
“—O P Q R S T U V—”
“Jayne, would you please give her a sugar-free doughnut or something?” I touched my head to indicate migraine approaching. “Really.”
“And I know what a rhombus is!” Sarah shouted gleefully.
“Fabulous.”
“And a hexagon!”
“Okay, but take pity on me just now, munchkin.”
“And a trapezoid!”
“Honey, Daddy’s grouchy and sleepy and about to throw up so couldn’t you keep it down a little?”
She immediately turned to Jayne. “Mommy, I’m keeping a journal,” she announced. “And Terby’s helping me with it.”
“Maybe Bret can get a little help from Terby with his writing,” Jayne offered caustically, without looking up from the notes she was going over with Marta.
“Baby, my novel is so happening right now I can hardly believe it myself,” I droned, flipping through USA Today’s Sports section.
“But Terby’s sad,” Sarah said, pouting.
“Why? I thought he was doing okay,” I said, partially disinterested. “Is he having a bad fur day?”
“He says you don’t like him,” Sarah said, twisting in her chair. “He says you never play with him.”
“The thing is lying. I play with him constantly. While you’re at school. In fact, Terby beat me at backgammon on Tuesday. Don’t believe a thing Terby—”
“Bret,” Jayne snapped. “Stop it.”
“Mommy?” Sarah asked. “Does Daddy have a cold?”
“Honey, your daddy’s contaminated right now,” Jayne said, placing a bowl of oatmeal topped with raspberries in front of Sarah.
“And Mommy’s all bitched up,” I muttered.
Jayne either didn’t hear me or pretended to ignore that one. “And we’ll all be late if we don’t hurry.”
And then I zoned out on everything surrounding me until I heard Jayne say, “You’ll have to ask your dad.”
When I snapped out of it, Robby was looking at me anxiously.
“Forget it,” he mumbled.
“No, come on,” I said. “Ask me what?”
His face was so troubled that I wished I knew the question myself and could simply answer it without Robby having to ask it.
Dreading this, he asked, “Can we get The Matrix DVD?”
Quickly, I thought this through. He braced himself for my answer.
“But we already have it on video,” I said slowly as if answering a trick question.
“Yeah, but the DVD has extras and—”
“Of what? Keanu—”
“Bret,” Jayne said loudly, interrupting her discussion of Sarah’s ballet schedule with Marta, then turned on Robby. “Why are you wearing that T-shirt?” she suddenly asked him.
“What’s wrong with it?” I interjected, trying to save myself.
“We can’t wear costumes to school, remember?” Robby darkly muttered. “Remember?” he asked accusingly.
He was referring to the e-mail sent out to parents about Halloween this year. Even though there would be parties in the afternoon, the school was warning against costumes, preferring that the kids come as “themselves.” The school originally had okayed “appropriate” costumes while actively discouraging anything inappropriate (nothing “violent” or “scary” or “with weapons”), but predictably, the children, even on all their meds, started to freak out en masse, so costumes were simply banned (exhausted parents pleaded for a compromise—“Nominally frightening?”—which was rejected). This disappointed Robby gravely, so while Jayne was inspecting glasses that had just been in the dishwasher, I tried to console my son. In a fatherly way I assured him that going without a costume was probably in everyone’s best interest, offering as a cautionary tale my own seventh grade Halloween when I’d gone to school as the Bloody Vampire and wasn’t allowed to march in the annual parade for the elementary students because I had slathered so much Fun Blood on my mouth and chin and cheeks that it was certain to frighten them, according to the principal. This had been so deeply embarrassing—a pivotal moment, really—that it was the last time I ever wore a costume. It was that shameful. The memory of sitting alone on a bench while my classmates marched in front of the delighted elementary students still burned. I suddenly expected Robby to find me far more interesting than he previously had.